Saiduq shook his head, dropping his arms suddenly and speaking up with a...surprising amount of conviction in his voice.
"Even if it is not my duty, even if it is not my place- I want to protect you. All of you."
He narrowed his eyes, fists clenching. "I was willing to give up all of me- the precious bonds I had formed, everything, to see the Shining One's world born. We killed all of my brothers, and were so close to the destruction of Polaris...gods can be ended, they can be put to rest." Just like that, Alcor brought his hands up in frustration, not pulling at his hair, but he came close. "What she did- what they all do- I simply cannot understand. YHVH, Philemon, Nyarlathotep, even Lucifer. I willingly sought the end of my being to grant mankind's wish for freedom, and yet they would sacrifice nothing to even try to understand you! It...it disgusts me in ways I can't handle! We have no right to do that! None of us!"
Oh, he was...raising his voice. Saiduq slowly attempted to reign his feelings in, taking a deep and useless breath. "...even if I am different from them, and you do not need me to hold your hand...I feel like I cannot simply stand idly by. Freedom is the Shining One's beautiful wish. Nothing can keep me from ensuring it comes true. Not gods, and not this place."
in which alcor discusses jun's issues by venting his own
"Even if it is not my duty, even if it is not my place- I want to protect you. All of you."
He narrowed his eyes, fists clenching. "I was willing to give up all of me- the precious bonds I had formed, everything, to see the Shining One's world born. We killed all of my brothers, and were so close to the destruction of Polaris...gods can be ended, they can be put to rest." Just like that, Alcor brought his hands up in frustration, not pulling at his hair, but he came close. "What she did- what they all do- I simply cannot understand. YHVH, Philemon, Nyarlathotep, even Lucifer. I willingly sought the end of my being to grant mankind's wish for freedom, and yet they would sacrifice nothing to even try to understand you! It...it disgusts me in ways I can't handle! We have no right to do that! None of us!"
Oh, he was...raising his voice. Saiduq slowly attempted to reign his feelings in, taking a deep and useless breath. "...even if I am different from them, and you do not need me to hold your hand...I feel like I cannot simply stand idly by. Freedom is the Shining One's beautiful wish. Nothing can keep me from ensuring it comes true. Not gods, and not this place."