[For a few moments after Ishimaru stops moving, he feels great satisfaction. And, having satisfied that urge, the bloody instinct begins to fade.
Yes, for a short while it's a great feeling, and his first thought is to apologise to Ishimaru and tell him it's alright now, he's managed to get ahold of himself. But that's exactly when what's just happened fully sinks in. He pulls away, staring in horror at Ishimaru's body, his mangled throat, the blood on his own hands, even on his chest - and as he realises where it's dripping down from, suddenly it hits him, he can taste it.]
Sh-shit...!! H-hey, Ishimaru...!
[Mondo grabs him by the shoulders and shakes him desperately. As he bites down on his lip, at least the lingering taste in his mouth is replaced with his own blood. It might be just the same, but not to him at this moment. It's entirely different.]
...Brother-!
[He attempts to fight back tears, but it doesn't take long for him to fail. He killed his older brother, murdered Fujisaki, and now, slaughtered Ishimaru. Even after swearing to both Ishimaru and Chihiro he wasn't going to kill anyone, and telling them it was stupid to even have to swear, because of course he would never do that. All he did was hurt the ones he most cared about and looked up to. Ishimaru and Chihiro forgave him so easily, but really, he wasn't deserving of any forgiveness, he would only end up repeating the same actions, always. Recently he had come to accept everything he had done and tried to improve himself, but now he realised that was impossible. He's weak.]
sobs violently
Yes, for a short while it's a great feeling, and his first thought is to apologise to Ishimaru and tell him it's alright now, he's managed to get ahold of himself. But that's exactly when what's just happened fully sinks in. He pulls away, staring in horror at Ishimaru's body, his mangled throat, the blood on his own hands, even on his chest - and as he realises where it's dripping down from, suddenly it hits him, he can taste it.]
Sh-shit...!! H-hey, Ishimaru...!
[Mondo grabs him by the shoulders and shakes him desperately. As he bites down on his lip, at least the lingering taste in his mouth is replaced with his own blood. It might be just the same, but not to him at this moment. It's entirely different.]
...Brother-!
[He attempts to fight back tears, but it doesn't take long for him to fail. He killed his older brother, murdered Fujisaki, and now, slaughtered Ishimaru. Even after swearing to both Ishimaru and Chihiro he wasn't going to kill anyone, and telling them it was stupid to even have to swear, because of course he would never do that. All he did was hurt the ones he most cared about and looked up to. Ishimaru and Chihiro forgave him so easily, but really, he wasn't deserving of any forgiveness, he would only end up repeating the same actions, always. Recently he had come to accept everything he had done and tried to improve himself, but now he realised that was impossible. He's weak.]