towerofanimus | shattered glass

Characters: Ishtar (AU1) and OPEN
Setting: All Over the Tower
Format: Preferably Action but Prose is okay
Summary: Ishtar isn't taking her loss very well at all.
Warnings: Character break down, mental instability, depression and other things.

[ floor 100]

[ Ishtar stood staring hazily at the hologram of the Pheliostan Castle, obstructed with endless hallways, and decorations. The Legsarams glowed as they used to protecting the holographic image of her own castle.

Her expression remained empty, as she kept her eyes from showing any emotions. Instead of crying and being pathetic as she used to, she simply just numbed it out. She clenched her fists, as she watched the floor giving her a huge holographic image of her home that she would never be able to see for a long time. She couldn't take this anymore, but eve the slightest tough towards the hologram proved that it was nothing more than a figment of deception.

She hated it. ]

[ floor 99]

[ The so-called 'oasis' like area blended well with her mood as she laid sprawled across the cavern floor, clutching Sidia close to her chest as she breathed slowly. She knew that things were going to end this way. Why did she bother opening up her heart and trusting again? It was so hard then to let people go and now it was even harder when it's the person that you were always worried about and thinking about.

She couldn't even say anything to him either. The princess blinked back tears as she cradled her sword closer to her form as she sobbed quietly. ]

[ floor 96]

[ The moment she ventured to this floor, her mind became confused. The emptiness and sadness she was feeling slowly drifted away, as if they were being lifted from her mind. Maybe it was best to forget things.

It seemed like they were slowly disappearing from her mind.

That's right, maybe it was easier to just let this white filled room keep her company. It was quiet, and it reminded her of-- of...what was that place again? It had rooms just as white and blank, a cold emptiness that she had experienced before but she couldn't remember it.

Strange, maybe someone was really trying to help her forget things. She didn't know why she came here either.

Things were becoming complicated as she pulled herself to the wall, resting her head against it. ]

[ floor 82]

[ A masquerade. It reminded her of home. Why did she go here? Why was she even here in the first place? She was wandering too much. There were too man floors and everything almost appeared the same, except this. Every door she entered had strangely been places that she either did not like or did not want to reminisce about.

A mask was obstructing some of her vision as she tugs at it, uncertain if it was safe to rip it off her face. Eventually, though it would be torn off and she would quietly slip around the location before leaving. ]

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Tohko sighed to herself as she tried to pat the girl on the back. She was either immortal, lived a really long life, or had been caught up in a long, long war. Or a combination of the two. It was probably horrible..but Tohko wasn't going to let her suffer all alone without trying to help.

"..I know it does. Losing the people you love over and over again must be torture. But trust me, you won't be alone. I'm sure, right now, you have a lot of wonderful friends inside the Tower. One may have vanished, and it's sad that they did..but there are more people here, and more come every month. You won't be alone. I'm here, and so are a few others."

Ishtar felt he gesture of kindness that was given to her, but she couldn't lean into it, since she felt that if she did, it would disappear just like everything else she knew. she didn't want to lose whatever was left of her sanity. She didn't want to end up like her cousin that tried to kill his own family.

...

She was right, and it was all true. She was here just like other people were and Kariya said it was okay for her to depend on him. Ishtar knew that but she couldn't really accept anything right now and just kept quiet as she said that. Maybe, she just needed a moment to collect herself.

As the woman kept silent, Tohko sighed to herself. She had met this reaction before, with Enoch. Hopefully she would be able to handle it a bit better this time around.

"..It's alright if you don't want to talk right now. I'll be here if you do, or until you're ready to move on. Don't worry. I'll be right here."

She wasn't usually like this anymore. She used to handle things pretty normally, but right now because it was someone so close to her heart, Ishtar couldn't help but feel flustered about it.

"Thanks..." she murmured quietly as she sobbed. It would take a few minutes or a few hours, depending on how long she wanted to let herself be this stupid vulnerable. Someone was trying to help her and she was being ridiculous about it.

Tohko kept her hand on the woman's back as she replied.

"No problem. I'm always happy to help."

No matter how long it would take for this woman to feel better, Tohko would be there. There was no way she was going to leave someone sobbing, due to loss.

Somehow if Ishtar thought about it, Tohko really reminded her of herself. Ishtar was that kind of person to others, but always neglected her own problems. She never seemed to stop showing the genuine kindness she possessed but at the same time, that kindness made her bottle many things up.

She just nodded her head briefly while trying to control her tears.

Tohko didn't know much about this woman-not enough to draw comparisons-but she did know that she wasn't just going to leave her here or walk away. Even if she didn't say anything, simply being there might help. Hopefully.

So, Tohko just sat there with a hand on the woman's back and waited. She was pretty patient, so there was no need to worry about her storming off after waiting for an hour or two.

It was kind of someone to just sit here and watch over her while she was being pathetic. Ishtar was grateful for it, even if her expressions were not so obvious.

The girl kept quiet after a while. All the sobbing and crying stopped but it still hurt on the inside.

As the girl stopped crying, Tohko spoke up.

"..Are you feeling any better? Want to talk?"

Ishtar gave her a weakened smile, but it at least showed her appreciation for the person. She didn't want to be such a bitter person since someone was kind enough to sit by her side for a while now.

"Yeah...just a little...and..." she merely shook her head. She wasn't ready to talk just yet.

Tohko returned the smile and nodded. It was fine if the person didn't want to talk right now. Whenever she was, Tohko would be here.

She didn't want to hold the girl up anymore. It seemed like it was best to get up and leave. Ishtar did just that by pulling herself up from the ground and standing again.

The princess no longer wanted to be a burden to anyone. It was something she'll have to deal with.

"I'm sorry, but I should get going. I don't want to burden you and...thank you." she quietly replied giving her a sad smile.

Tohko stood up after the woman spoke and gave her a warm smile.

"I'm not going to stop you from leaving..but you're not a burden! I don't mind if you need to bend my ear for awhile!"

Ishtar might have offered a rather weak smile for that comment. She appreciated it really, but she didn't want to be here any longer because she was also making someone worry about her.

"Thank you. You're really kind," she replied blinking back a couple of more tears through her soft hearted smile.

Tohko sighed and, walking up to the woman, tried to pat her on the head. Or, if she was too tall, give her a pat on the shoulder.

"You're welcome..and while I'm happy that you think I'm kind, I'm sure there are a lot of people here who would be happy to listen to you."

Ishtar wasn't all that tall. She was roughly about 5'4" right now though the pat did help her cheer up a little more.

"Thanks. I'm sure there are and I'm sure I'm just acting strange again....so don't worry, I won't do anything reckless."

The princess replied with a soft smile through her reddened hues.

Tohko returned the smile and nodded.

"I don't think you're acting strange. It's normal to feel sad when people leave you. But..I'm happy to hear that you won't do anything reckless."

"Yeah, I really don't want to make the people around me sad if I did something reckless," she nodded her head, "but yeah...I promise to behave."

There was a small wave from her before the girl slowly walked off. She'll definitely thank Tohko later.

Tohko sighed to herself and, while she didn't follow the woman, she did call after her.

"Can you promise me that you'll also talk to me if you feel sad? I'll help you out however I can!"

Ishtar only kept it to herself as she heard the girl say that. A small wave of her hand as she walked quietly off, signalling that she got the girl's message.

"I will, I promise," she replied back, enough for her to hear before disappearing around the corner.

shattered glass

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