eternallily: (I've always been the tower)
浅海 サキ ⚜ Saki Asami ([personal profile] eternallily) wrote in [community profile] towerofanimus 2013-06-05 02:50 pm (UTC)

being meguca is suffering. she's used to it.

It's not -

[She pauses.]

- maybe it is something that sounds cliche. It's the only advice I have, though, because for a very long time now, I've known that my soul was one of the very few things I could always trust, because I had to.

I had to, because the body I've been in hasn't been real for me for a long time. My soul's only been a little light in a hairpin, or a gem; if that dims, I have to die. In exchange, I have the knowledge that the memory of someone important, someone that died too soon, will always have a reminder and won't be forgotten.

And I have the powers that were given to me, and the knowledge that I won't ever age, but...I have to fight. I have to fight dangerous things and there's always the chance one of them could kill me. I had to cut contact with my family when all of that happened.

So my soul and my friends are all that I have. The truth about this place? It's something that I want to find for the sake of everyone else that's here, so they can have their lives and their happiness, but I don't have any illusions about being able to go home and have some kind of happy ending for myself. I've known for a long time that it isn't possible.

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