[John had a glimmer of hope. That maybe just maybe he would be able to save John. Talk him through it until someone could come help. But it went straight back to being really bad and not looking like John was going to make it.

He doesn't want to see the other die. It was watching himself die...basically.]

It won't happen to me, whatever is going on right now. I'm not hearing shit now and I won't hear shit when you don't die on me. [But John chokes up anyways. Seeing yourself cry is also a thing that is hard.]

You do have them beat. Don't let it get to you.