"I shall try, Cerberus," she says but has a feeling he will not understand. What the shadows say are not untruths, but things she has chosen to ignore until now.

Such as the duty you promised yourself to. We would not be like this if you had not failed even in that.

Even moreso: how could she find her core of strength and beliefs when she no longer believes she's either? She's just a woman going through the motions, doing the best she can and unable to stay still when people are in trouble.