No. He is not the lord I served before nor is he the Master who betrayed me in the 4th Grail War.
[Diarmuid's answer comes quickly and perhaps a little forcefully, though his tone softens as he continues.]
It is complicated why I serve him, but perhaps the best answer to your question is that I serve him because he is my friend. When I first came here, I tried to just serve myself and I almost lost myself in the process.
[His gaze drops as he continues to speak.]
I don't know if anyone who isn't from my time can understand just how much of who I am is shaped by who I serve and the actions I take while serving them. I can't serve myself. Trying to do so after having another direct me for so long just got me and another killed in the process...
[Even after all the time that has passed, Diarmuid will probably never forgive himself for freezing that day on the Circus floor and getting both he and his brother killed.]
I swore to myself if I ever served a Master again it would be one of my choosing. When I picked Waver, it was because he wanted to be my friend and my partner more than he wanted to be my Master. He is willing to direct me when I need it so that I don't make anymore mistakes because of my inexperience, while at the same time allowing me to do as I wish so that I can grow into someone who someday will be able to make those choices correctly.
[Diarmuid finally looks back up at Kain with a sheepish smile.]
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[Diarmuid's answer comes quickly and perhaps a little forcefully, though his tone softens as he continues.]
It is complicated why I serve him, but perhaps the best answer to your question is that I serve him because he is my friend. When I first came here, I tried to just serve myself and I almost lost myself in the process.
[His gaze drops as he continues to speak.]
I don't know if anyone who isn't from my time can understand just how much of who I am is shaped by who I serve and the actions I take while serving them. I can't serve myself. Trying to do so after having another direct me for so long just got me and another killed in the process...
[Even after all the time that has passed, Diarmuid will probably never forgive himself for freezing that day on the Circus floor and getting both he and his brother killed.]
I swore to myself if I ever served a Master again it would be one of my choosing. When I picked Waver, it was because he wanted to be my friend and my partner more than he wanted to be my Master. He is willing to direct me when I need it so that I don't make anymore mistakes because of my inexperience, while at the same time allowing me to do as I wish so that I can grow into someone who someday will be able to make those choices correctly.
[Diarmuid finally looks back up at Kain with a sheepish smile.]
How badly have I confused you?