midgarhorizon: ((Fanart) Responsibility)
Reno ([personal profile] midgarhorizon) wrote in [community profile] towerofanimus2013-10-20 01:19 pm

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Characters: Reno, Open et ctra
Setting: Art Gallery, Morgue, Study/Research Hall, Gym, Pool; across several different days, just read the prompts.
Format: Whichever
Summary:
Considering past actions that no longer really affect him. Swimming around in the pool for a break. Responsibility has a habit of changing people, a lot. Getting stuck in the morgue. Running barefoot.
Warnings: Claustrophobia, mild warnings for descriptive horror content, Reno's own personal brand of swearing. Also, a screen cap of post-fall Sector 7.


Thursday, Oct 17th: Floor 22 - Art Gallery


Mapping out a detailed floor plan, floor by floor, was a lot more time consuming than Reno wanted to admit. After that fiasco the other day though, he and his sternum didn't really feel much like trying to train physically. Elena had left a nasty bruise and chest pains where she hit him. A few centimeters either way, and a little bit harder, and she could have killed him. He was half convinced she had when it landed. All in all, pain notwithstanding, he was pretty proud of her for that little drama act she had put on for Sephiroth, even if it did wind up with him in the infirmary for hours.

Responsibility was weighing heavy on his shoulders lately. Being the Director, the Chief, whatever you wanted to call it now, was full of the stuff. He was truly beginning to feel it, recruiting the new people and trying to organize what they were doing. His family was growing, and there was no Rusty, no Tseng, and no Rufus to share the burdens. And Elena... Well. Floor mapping was important for the things he had planned. Drills, exercises, and task forces would all need a good understanding of the Tower and the floors it contained. Putting it all down on paper was what he had been doing the past few weeks anyway, walking up and down the Tower. Shion wouldn't need the maps after he memorized them, and he figured the kid probably knew more than anyone, but now that their ranks were growing it was going to be harder keeping everyone on the same page. So the downtime let him get a jump on the work for now. No big deal until he got Elena alone for that disciplinary training session because there is no way he's going to let her off the hook that easy.

He was on Floor 22 right now, and stopped to take a break. It'd been a while since he had been in a museum. Aside from that time he found Elena, showing off for her before the wedding, the last time... when was the last time? Some vague recollection of playing bodyguard for a day while some of the higher ups went gallivanting around Midgar. Paintings weren't really his thing, but the further he went into this floor, the more familiar the images became.

Then the paintings started to change. A wrong turn, and he came face to face with a painting of the Turks. All of them were sitting at the bar Elena had been working in. Even Veld and Tseng had made it down for the group shot, enjoying a quite drink in the corner. It had been when everything made sense. When it was all normal and they still had a home with ShinRa. Before their "betrayal" that had them hunted down like dogs. He recognized the image, it used to be one from his wallet lost long ago, but there was something... different about this. Staring at it, it slowly dawned on him that they were glaring at him.

No. Not glaring. They had no eyes, Their eyes had been plucked out and blood was running down their faces, hands outstretched as if to plead with him to find their eyes and return them. His mouth dropped open and he took a step back, unable to stop looking at them. A kind of slow, mounting horror rose until he finally did turn and cough into his hand. That seemed to break the spell, and he moved away to leave, but he made the mistake of looking up again.

This time, it was a painting of Midgar; the viewpoint from Sector 6, standing at the edge and looking down at a freshly dropped Sector 7. The steam and smoke still rose from the red-hot metal, buildings broken apart where they had toppled over, and bodies littered the streets. He got closer, fascinated in a morbid way, and squinted a little bit to see better. Every little detail was there, painted in perfect detail with almost microscopic brush strokes. Little people hanging at the edge of Sector 6 and more on Sector 8 just visible across the way, looking down at the rubble. The bodies below were just as detailed, blood and limbs and twisted mangled messes.

His work.

Yet, he didn't feel the shame any more. No guilt. Just curiosity of what it might have been like seeing the sky fall on top of you. He did not feel much of anything about it, and that was a far cry from when he had been in the hospital, where his room looked down on the same scene. A little voice inside his head told him he should feel something. Reno of the Turks should feel guilty. He had done this terrible thing to an entire town underneath the city. The city itself. How dare he not feel anything? It wasn't right. His lips parted briefly, wanting to laugh at the voice, but not quite having the courage to do so. The little voice was right, but maybe he's beaten himself up over it once too often to care what he thought of himself.

No, that's wrong. There's still something he felt looking at this painting. The regret was the same. The little voice silenced itself at the realization. The innocents were still innocent. They were just people going about their busy lives, but they would have died anyway. If not him, then the white light that had destroyed everything; that had brought him here. The Tower was a fitting enough punishment for this crime. The regret really was enough. If he hadn't pushed the button, Scarlet would have gassed the three Turks left standing.

Maybe he could have saved all of them, that way.







Friday, Oct 18: Floor 7 - Pool


It's been a while since he got the chance to swim. Taking it easy for the past couple days wasn't so bad, and once in a while he did really need a break. Reno was floating on his back in the shallower end of the gigantic pool, relaxing a little bit. It sure wasn't the hot springs up above, but it's been way too long since he had a chance to just splash around for a while.

Splashing around... the last time had been when Rusty was here. Reno slapped at the water, rolling himself over so he could see beneath him. The water didn't bother his eyes much, but he wouldn't have minded his goggles just then. It seemed like he kept thinking about Rusty. Wondering what had happened to him. Knowing the poor guy's luck, he was probably wandering around in Boat World, visiting graves of his friends. He had mentioned that, hadn't he? About burying Rude and Tseng. Frustrating, that was what it was. He never could help him. What did it say about Reno if he couldn't even help himself? Lot of good this whole stupid damn thing was. Who was he kidding, thinking he could try to save the Tower and send everyone back home?

They probably would never get back home, at this rate. It was just one failure after another. Except for Sector 7. That had been a pretty spectacular way to fulfill a mission. He'd lost count of the times he had failed- they had failed because of Cloud, not that he held it against the guy or anything at least not much any more. But it did make him want to shove dirty gym socks down people's throats when they started mouthing off back home. Scarlet with a few dozen pairs in that big gab of hers wasn't a bad image.

Enough yapping, Reno. Let's get some waves in. Lifting his head out of the water, he took a deep breath, then dove under the water. His goal was to touch bottom before he ran out of breath, but he wasn't going to hold it against himself if he couldn't.





Saturday, Oct 19, Morning: Floor 18 - Study Hall


Saturday morning was filled with another disappointing meal of pumpkin, a light jog around the Meadow to clear his head, and then a trip down to the Research Library. An idea had occurred to Reno the other day, something sort of obvious it might have bit him if it hadn't hit him in the head first. This was a library full of all sorts of subjects. He knew his way around pretty well after all that checking through he had done in the first few months of his stay here. There were books that might be able to help him.

Walking through the stacks with purpose, his Raven uniform fitting as well as ever (and damn the thing), until he came to the appropriate section. Blue eyes trailed over the titles from behind the red visor, seeking out one or two in particular. He made a "Heh!" of triumph when he spotted one, pulling it out. It was labelled "Effective Leadership In Military Situations" and probably would be just about right. Sure, he wasn't military, despite the uniform, but good advice was good advice, and there was no way he was going to ask any of these wingnuts here in the Tower. That could get compromising.

Taking the large textbook with him, he headed downstairs to the Study Hall and got comfortable at a desk, leaning back and resting his legs up on the surface. It was a pretty thick book, so he had no illusions he would even get through it before the day, much less before lunch.

At least it was quiet enough.





Sunday, Oct 20, Late Afternoon: Floor 26 - Morgue - Closed to one


Sitting in the library, Reno was dressed in his one pair of civvies today. The ones he shared with Shion. Black suited him, and he really didn't want to have to explain anything in case someone he didn't want snooping around caught him in his Turk suit. That was for later. This afternoon, he was ignoring that vague feeling he should be doing something about that note he had gotten earlier, and trying to get some more work done before heading up to his meeting with Elena. Reno was trying to create copies of some of the maps he has been making of the floors. It's going fairly well, even if he does have to use a straight edge to clean some of these markings up. Reno was a lot of things, but not an artist, musician, baker or taxidermist. Maps were a little different though; some missions needed maps on the fly and he had learned the skill the same way, not that they were stellar pieces of art. It didn't hurt taking some pride in his work, though, so that's why the second drafts were taking a little bit of time.

Unfortunately, he didn't see the Rupee hiding in the small box of pencils until too late. This particular detail required a pencil with a sharp tip, so he dipped his hand inside only for the damn thing to bite him and vanished. And so did his EMR.

"Shit..." He cussed under his breath, damning Leviathan's scaly hide to tango with Ifrit for a while, and pulled his maps together in a neat pile. Theoretically nobody should touch them while they were sitting looking important on a library table, so he got up and headed to the staircase. He really hated this part. Rupees were a damned annoying nuisance, and every time he encountered one, he was pretty sorry for it.

Stomping up the staircase, he glowered across each floor. Those damn things liked to torment him, placing items in a just out of reach spot, but nothing too hidden. That wouldn't be sporting. This time, he didn't have far to go, reaching the morgue and spotting his EMR resting peacefully on one of the morgue draws.

That just so happened to be fully rolled out and open.

Hm.

Eyes narrowing to just blue pinpricks, he stepped off the staircase, glancing side to side. The hazards on this floor were fairly minimal, but that didn't mean it was impossible to run into something here. The damn place gave him enough chills as it was, just walking by on the staircase. Slowly, he approached the shelf, keeping an eye out for any surprises.

As he reached for the EMR, it rolled back a few feet, as if it had been attached to fishing line. Frowning, Reno stepped a little bit closer, though some instinct told him to hang back. Irritation rose. No damned Rupee or whatever they were called was going to get the best of him. Moving quickly, he grabbed for the EMR.

And then something grabbed him, pulling him on the shelf and inside head first. The shelf rolled back into the refrigerated unit, and the door slammed closed with a final clicking.

Reno froze for half a minute, immersed in darkness and the far too enclosed spacing, shocked at what had just happened. The EMR in his hand started tapping against the brushed steel inside- no, that was his hand shaking. The sound was enough to bring him back to reality just long enough for the screaming to start.

The first scream was blood curdling, torn out of his throat so hard it hurt. "LET ME OUT! GET ME OUT OF HERE!" The shrieks sounded hollow in the tiny confines, too loud too loud-- it was making his ears ring. Panic rose and overrode any survival instinct he still had, his boots slamming into the door with no result except denting the metal. All too soon, his screaming became inarticulate. Hoarse. The minutes dragged on and though he was screaming, SCREAMING at the top of his lungs, his throat felt tight and his lungs burned for oxygen.

Nobody was around, nobody would find him. He was stuck stuck. Trapped, in a cage. Cage. Nobody would come for him or save him, he'd be stuck here forever and starve to death. He was going to die in here.



Floor 39


Running - Saturday Afternoon


The jog on the meadow earlier had felt good. Really good. Good enough that he returned the book he had been studying and came up to the Gym. Nobody was there for the moment, but he made a sweeping check just in case before sitting down next to the track and removing his boots and gloves. The headgear came off next, stashed neatly next to the other items. It'd been a long time since he ran just for the sake of running, and he was hoping his feet weren't too out of condition for it.

Reno massaged the bottom of both feet for a minute or two before standing up. Oh, right... the belt and the pauldron. Making a face, he dropped those as well. Who the hell came up with the entire one pauldron idea, anyway? It looked stupid.

Feeling a bit more free, he stretched out a bit before walking out on to the track, getting the feel with his feet. They didn't seem too badly off, if he started slowly. For the first half of the track, he walked, slowly building up speed to where he could break into a jog at the mark. Another half of the track, and he bolted. Feet pounded into the floor, the smooth track cool against them, the shock vibrating up through his arches. He started grinning, feeling the wind in his hair. It felt good to let everything out. This had always been what he most wanted to do. Just to run.





Elena - Sunday Night - Closed


Reno adjusted the cuff of his suit, straightening it and the entire arm out so it wouldn't wrinkle up. After that... incident earlier, he almost wanted to call it off, but being a Turk took precedence. The change of clothes was quick, though this time he took the extra effort of prying the tie that went with this particular suit out of the hidden inside pocket and wore it. He might have also tucked in his shirt and zipped up the blazer, but who was paying attention? He wasn't, and when it dawned on him he had done it almost automatically, he shook his head. Well, the chief had always wanted him to wear the damn thing properly. Might as well start doing it now. Reno was the chief now... he had to set examples.

When did he start caring about examples?

Trying very hard not to let it get to him, he sat down on one of the weight stations and waited for Elena to show. She would, of course. There was no doubt in his mind she would ignore a summons like that, not when he went the extra effort to make it sound all professional.





Shion and Diarmuid - Monday - 0900 - Closed (forward dated a bit)


This was the meeting place they had specified. Reno had dragged Shion down to the gym this morning. To say it didn't chafe a bit that he had to even turn Shion over to someone else for a while would be a lie, and it did chafe. Shion's welfare was more important than Reno's ego, however, and he couldn't justify making the kid try things they had already tried before. It was time for outside resources, something he didn't have as easy access to in the Tower.

Reno was leaning against the wall in his Raven uniform, arms folded and glancing over at the kid every so often. The visor was down, so whatever he was thinking about wasn't immediately apparent.






Catchall for Candy Paranoia - Week of the 20th - 26th



The intensifying, nagging feelings that had plagued him all that first day only got harder to ignore, but in some ragged depths Reno held on. He was determined not to play Ruana's stupid game. He went about in practically only his Raven uniform, hiding his face from even those closest to him.

You may be able to encounter him in the common areas, or hiding out in one of the outdoors or the Upper Tower.

This prompt has increasing warnings of high paranoia, fear, and potential violence the later into the week.


neverbeamemory: ((General) Considering)

[personal profile] neverbeamemory 2013-10-26 11:19 pm (UTC)(link)
There was movement just out of Sephiroth's viewpoint and he froze his gaze on that one line of text he had just gotten to. Weighing up, in the meantime, whether or not he should look up and engage the Raven again. After all, he had no reason, nor anything at the forefront of his mind to say to the could-be Turk.

Carefully, after said pause, Sephiroth folded over the page that he was reading from so that he could find it again later, closed the book and set it slowly back on the table. Then, and only then, he raised his view - picking out the details again of the uniform as if this time he might have been able to place it. The leather clad man would try perhaps to glean some more information that might help to trigger his memory.

"Looking for something?"
neverbeamemory: ((General) Considering)

[personal profile] neverbeamemory 2013-11-03 11:34 pm (UTC)(link)
Wow, now wasn't that a snap of an answer. Sephiroth tilted his head to one side curiously up at the Raven as if he might be able to discern, through the helmet, what had prompted such a response. It gave Reno ample opportunity to catch a glimpse over the title of the book he had been studying but Sephiroth soon picked it back up from the table in the pause between them and rested it again in his lap.

Identifying.....Particles Or something. Several pages had bits of paper sticking out of them, makeshift bookmarks.

"You're on edge today. Did that schoolgirl get another one-up on you?"

It was high time Sephiroth started to get to the bottom of this.
neverbeamemory: ((General) Considering)

[personal profile] neverbeamemory 2013-11-04 01:28 pm (UTC)(link)
The sneer was met with something of a barely-amused smirk. Similar to the one his face had held when he'd calmly witnessed the psuedo-tussle down in the Cafeteria. Sephiroth most certainly still had his reservations about the reality behind it, though if nothing else it had been entertaining - even more so if his suspicions were true.

SOLDIER boy. The upper lip to that lightly-held smirk twitched a little but however much the nickname bothered him, it was all too expected for him to rise to that permanent trigger that was his past. Sephiroth continued to watch the Raven ferret about for paper, considering.

"Perhaps. Though sooner or later the very shadows might make you jump."
neverbeamemory: ((General) Considering)

[personal profile] neverbeamemory 2013-11-06 01:16 pm (UTC)(link)
Sephiroth continued to calmly watch the Raven go about, duck under desks even after more paper. He looked to his small pile of around 5 or 6 pages, only two of which were currently being used - though he imagined he'd probably use them all in the end and really his nature wasn't in sharing at all.

He wasn't SOLDIER anymore, despite owing most of his adult life to the same, before his evolution. Before his true purpose had shone through all the lies. Therefore Sephiroth wasn't perhaps as triggered by the baiting as he might otherwise have been - or if he had been, it wasn't going to help him find the truth of this particular situation.

"I have my own interests. Certainly nothing to do with that man, I assure you."
neverbeamemory: credit: incosmiccaravan (Inspect)

[personal profile] neverbeamemory 2013-11-16 11:09 am (UTC)(link)
"Just because I'm a fighter doesn't mean I don't know how to read." Sephiroth answered just as controlled as before and for all he wasn't telling it was certainly a true statement. Despite what details he couldn't remember about his early life, he knows he had an extensive education. This studying he was doing now, conveniently gave him a reason to jog knowledge that he mostly already knows - the fluid research called for his mind to be sharper, for his knowledge to be flawless. His ability as a scientist had to be at least as good as his finesse as a swordsman.

Sephiroth flicked his eyes up to Reno as he returned in the direction of his own desk.

"I'm studying this particular subject, since you did ask, to open my mind.
neverbeamemory: (ArmsFold)

[personal profile] neverbeamemory 2013-11-17 12:56 am (UTC)(link)
"I do not intend to go down so easily. Not if an alternative resolution could be thought around by expanding the range with which one has to think."

Sephiroth huffed a little to himself, that had almost sounded poetic. Certainly more psychological than he ever cared to wind his thoughts up in. He had been reading pretty extensively recently, and not just on relative sciences. After a pause, the silvered head shook dismissively and he sat forwards - starting to gather his own notes together.

"Wouldn't a Raven also want freedom?"
neverbeamemory: (Pondering2)

[personal profile] neverbeamemory 2013-11-17 01:38 am (UTC)(link)
"Bit late for the saving of the Planet."

The comment was as much to the Raven as it was to himself. It stung deeply and Sephiroth made no attempt whatsoever to keep that particular disdain from his features as he closed his book around his notes and cast his attention back up to the Raven. The reply hadn't jogged any recollection of that uniform either, as he had chanced that it might have. It was quickly getting irritating, to be inadvertently in the company of one from his Planet who's motives he wasn't crystal clear about. If, indeed, it were really a Raven.

"But for every door that is slammed shut, three more open. And despite what we are made to believe, or feel, in this place-

-I believe there is much more to all of it. There may yet still be a Planet to go back to."
neverbeamemory: (Pondering)

[personal profile] neverbeamemory 2013-12-09 11:00 pm (UTC)(link)
"Agreed." Sephiroth's tone gave away nothing of whether he was just saying what the Raven wanted to hear or not. Indeed, in all actuality all possibilities had to be taken into account.

"One break of many we have yet to find."

Not that Sephiroth really all that much believed that there was a Planet back there waiting for him. Until most recently he had spent entirely too much time sitting around on the 5th Floor and wallowing in how it all feels; all for the sake of never forgetting. Besides, even if the Planet could be restored, he imagined it'd hardly be in his interests. He'd have to start again regardless.

Sephiroth finished gathering all of his notes into a larger hardback book, interspersing them fluidly on seemingly random pages. Then he stood from the desk and looked once more over the uniformed man. Having tucked the book under one arm he runs his other hand up under the back of his curtain of silver hair, freeing a few strands from the tubes in his collar where they might get tangled if left.

"Excuse me." Polite enough he nodded at the Raven and started to make through the Library back towards the stairwell.