[He's not backing down from her question. After all her yelling at him, she wanted the truth, and for once he was trying to give her what he promised. Even if that truth would just be another pain...

His hand slows, now cupping her cheek.]

...I can't be the guy you want me to be and say what ya want me to say, El. It's both.

[A flick of his ear betrayed a sense of nervousness.]

Maybe it's me. I've been questioning all this since before the wedding... y'know, when Xion asked everybody about weddings. All I want to do is be with you, but it hurts because we don't got a lot of time left... and you'd rather yell at me.