...I don't know anymore. [He pressed a hand to his head, emotion finally registering in the form of faint uncertainty.]
I've made some effort to worry about 'everybody else' for a long time, Reno. Mostly because I don't really give a shit about myself--if I lose my life or sanity trying to help people, fine.
But I'm not like you, Reno. I don't have a family and it would be a stretch to say I have friends. Diarmuid's all I have, period. And now that I've prioritized doing what I find happens to be right or even convenient over his life, there's really no way back. I'm no better now than his previous Master was.
Either I cut myself off and work only to save everyone here, or I try to balance both and leave myself and my glaring weaknesses open to people like Sephiroth. Given the choices, I'd rather be alone.
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I've made some effort to worry about 'everybody else' for a long time, Reno. Mostly because I don't really give a shit about myself--if I lose my life or sanity trying to help people, fine.
But I'm not like you, Reno. I don't have a family and it would be a stretch to say I have friends. Diarmuid's all I have, period. And now that I've prioritized doing what I find happens to be right or even convenient over his life, there's really no way back. I'm no better now than his previous Master was.
Either I cut myself off and work only to save everyone here, or I try to balance both and leave myself and my glaring weaknesses open to people like Sephiroth. Given the choices, I'd rather be alone.