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towerofanimus2012-05-19 06:52 pm
savedbyasong) wrote in towerofanimus2012-05-19 06:52 pm
Entry tags:
Obsession [Open]
Characters: Shion and open
Setting: Corridors and then library
Format: Starting in prose will switch
Summary: Shion is not doing very well, at all. He hasn't left his room since he returned from the experiment but when Reno disappears Shion emerges to find him, when he fails he ends up in the library
Warnings: Very broken Shion, probably mentions of his punishment.
Days had begun to merge into each other, Shion hadn't left his room. He had barley eaten and had spent most his time sleeping, trapped in nightmares and memories of Nezumi being killed over and over again. He knew he was being weak, that he should keep going. Nezumi would be furious at him, to know that he had given up like this.
But whatever he did, he had failed already. He couldn't find the point in anything when no matter how hard he tried he would never be able to erase what had happened, or even stop it if it happened again. He didn't believe Reno's insistence that it wasn't Nezumi who had been hurt. He didn't know for certain and that meant it could had been.
That was enough.
Reno was the only person who stopped him going completely mad, he had seen what happened and so Shion didn't have to talk about it, but he was there and he was a constant. Until one day he didn't come back.
Despite the fear, the rage rushing through his head still and the numbness that still made him just want to sleep until the world made sense once more he cautiously left the room.
He wandered through the corridors looking like a ghost, he hadn't thought to put his shoes on, or his coat. His usual smiles and greetings were none existant, he looked blankly at people, half recognising them.
[much later] He couldn't find Reno anywhere, had they taken him? To torture him? Was Reno now being hurt? Shion felt cold despair settle on him and without realising his feet had taken him to the research library, he looked around blankly at all the books. He had read a lot since he had come here, but it still wasn't enough... He still didn't know enough.
Images of Nezumi being stabbed flashed before his eyes, innumerable questions that Shion didn't know the answer to, Nezumi being punished for his ignorance.
He couldn't let that happen again, he looked around the library before going to a stack of books. If he learned everything there was to know, read all these books... He wouldn't allow them to use his ignorance against him. Sitting down he began to read.
He didn't stop, even as the day got late and night began to fall. Once he finished a book he picked up another, memorising everything he read. If he read it all, every thing here and in the other library. Maybe then he would be clever enough to be of use.
Setting: Corridors and then library
Format: Starting in prose will switch
Summary: Shion is not doing very well, at all. He hasn't left his room since he returned from the experiment but when Reno disappears Shion emerges to find him, when he fails he ends up in the library
Warnings: Very broken Shion, probably mentions of his punishment.
Days had begun to merge into each other, Shion hadn't left his room. He had barley eaten and had spent most his time sleeping, trapped in nightmares and memories of Nezumi being killed over and over again. He knew he was being weak, that he should keep going. Nezumi would be furious at him, to know that he had given up like this.
But whatever he did, he had failed already. He couldn't find the point in anything when no matter how hard he tried he would never be able to erase what had happened, or even stop it if it happened again. He didn't believe Reno's insistence that it wasn't Nezumi who had been hurt. He didn't know for certain and that meant it could had been.
That was enough.
Reno was the only person who stopped him going completely mad, he had seen what happened and so Shion didn't have to talk about it, but he was there and he was a constant. Until one day he didn't come back.
Despite the fear, the rage rushing through his head still and the numbness that still made him just want to sleep until the world made sense once more he cautiously left the room.
He wandered through the corridors looking like a ghost, he hadn't thought to put his shoes on, or his coat. His usual smiles and greetings were none existant, he looked blankly at people, half recognising them.
[much later] He couldn't find Reno anywhere, had they taken him? To torture him? Was Reno now being hurt? Shion felt cold despair settle on him and without realising his feet had taken him to the research library, he looked around blankly at all the books. He had read a lot since he had come here, but it still wasn't enough... He still didn't know enough.
Images of Nezumi being stabbed flashed before his eyes, innumerable questions that Shion didn't know the answer to, Nezumi being punished for his ignorance.
He couldn't let that happen again, he looked around the library before going to a stack of books. If he learned everything there was to know, read all these books... He wouldn't allow them to use his ignorance against him. Sitting down he began to read.
He didn't stop, even as the day got late and night began to fall. Once he finished a book he picked up another, memorising everything he read. If he read it all, every thing here and in the other library. Maybe then he would be clever enough to be of use.