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towerofanimus2012-06-21 10:35 pm
justabignobody) wrote in towerofanimus2012-06-21 10:35 pm
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Characters: Riku/"Tamas" and open/closed/open
Setting: Anywhere over the month of June
Format: Action preferred, but I'll match!
Summary: Riku during June, also having your powers forced out of control really, really sucks
Warnings: Darkness, Angst, possibly violence at one point, but nothing all too graphic
[A - 5th to 19th June - Floors 32 & 25 (Daytime), all around the tower at night]
[Even with cafeteria, restaurant and the power down, Riku only alters his routine to fit the circumstances - he isn't all too worried about himself; he's more than capable to manage himself. Every now and then he can be found gathering food or hunting on Floor 32 - he isn't above using the monsters as food source, but if he could manage otherwise, well... - but if he isn't, he's most likely continuing with studying... with less and less result as the month goes by admittedly.
At night he is out on the hunt though, clearing out groups of monsters where he knows he can take them... though he is even more cautious than usual. With all supplies limited, he really can't effort being reckless after all.]
[B - 20th June - Floor 13 - closed to Kairi]
[He has noticed that something has started to go wrong, that Soul Eater summoned itself, that his Dark Firagas flare a little more strongly than he intends them to. It's not the first time that this has happened; he recognizes it from just a few months ago, when the collars had gone haywire...
But it's getting even worse this time, because he's been feeling his grasp on the darkness inside him slip more and more in the passing week, has felt the part of it that's not his own swell and push and despite his best tries to regain control of it and himself while going on - he is slowly starting to lose himself.
Today, it's growing bad enough to make him dizzy, to the point where he just stumbles over his feet and against the wall - cold, strong stone maybe slightly soothing - breath shuddering as he reaches up, his right hand settling over his heart while his left clings to the wall. Maybe if he rests here for just a moment, he can get the Darkness back in check.]
[C - 20th to 24th June - all around the tower]
[Even though Riku would never admit so out loud, his transformed state does have some upsides. First and foremost that he can think more clearly again; though he feels slight bouts of dizziness, they are far, far less distracting now. (There is also the very clear upside of finer control over the Darkness around him and the increase of physical strength, but honestly... he would prefer being himself. But then again... this has never been about his preferences.)
Even with Kairi knowing, he cannot help but distance himself from who he had been, from who he might never be again, if things went wrong... The last time the tower had messed with his powers, he had transformed back when things had returned to what the tower considered normal, but things had been different then. The Darkness inside him hadn't been as steep.
It's alright though, he supposes... it's all about adjusting, it's just about separating his now-self from who 'Riku' had been. And getting used to the new (in his opinion, well enough fitting) name he has chosen for himself. After all, what else was he now but 'Darkness'...
He has altered his movements now, wandering the tower randomly and staying away from the places Riku is known to linger at, the hood up hiding his face. But he still spends his night on fighting. Or well... practicing just what he can do with his Darkness now. Who knew when that would get handy after all.]
ooc: If you haven't, please take a look at Riku's permissions post!
Setting: Anywhere over the month of June
Format: Action preferred, but I'll match!
Summary: Riku during June, also having your powers forced out of control really, really sucks
Warnings: Darkness, Angst, possibly violence at one point, but nothing all too graphic
[A - 5th to 19th June - Floors 32 & 25 (Daytime), all around the tower at night]
[Even with cafeteria, restaurant and the power down, Riku only alters his routine to fit the circumstances - he isn't all too worried about himself; he's more than capable to manage himself. Every now and then he can be found gathering food or hunting on Floor 32 - he isn't above using the monsters as food source, but if he could manage otherwise, well... - but if he isn't, he's most likely continuing with studying... with less and less result as the month goes by admittedly.
At night he is out on the hunt though, clearing out groups of monsters where he knows he can take them... though he is even more cautious than usual. With all supplies limited, he really can't effort being reckless after all.]
[B - 20th June - Floor 13 - closed to Kairi]
[He has noticed that something has started to go wrong, that Soul Eater summoned itself, that his Dark Firagas flare a little more strongly than he intends them to. It's not the first time that this has happened; he recognizes it from just a few months ago, when the collars had gone haywire...
But it's getting even worse this time, because he's been feeling his grasp on the darkness inside him slip more and more in the passing week, has felt the part of it that's not his own swell and push and despite his best tries to regain control of it and himself while going on - he is slowly starting to lose himself.
Today, it's growing bad enough to make him dizzy, to the point where he just stumbles over his feet and against the wall - cold, strong stone maybe slightly soothing - breath shuddering as he reaches up, his right hand settling over his heart while his left clings to the wall. Maybe if he rests here for just a moment, he can get the Darkness back in check.]
[C - 20th to 24th June - all around the tower]
[Even though Riku would never admit so out loud, his transformed state does have some upsides. First and foremost that he can think more clearly again; though he feels slight bouts of dizziness, they are far, far less distracting now. (There is also the very clear upside of finer control over the Darkness around him and the increase of physical strength, but honestly... he would prefer being himself. But then again... this has never been about his preferences.)
Even with Kairi knowing, he cannot help but distance himself from who he had been, from who he might never be again, if things went wrong... The last time the tower had messed with his powers, he had transformed back when things had returned to what the tower considered normal, but things had been different then. The Darkness inside him hadn't been as steep.
It's alright though, he supposes... it's all about adjusting, it's just about separating his now-self from who 'Riku' had been. And getting used to the new (in his opinion, well enough fitting) name he has chosen for himself. After all, what else was he now but 'Darkness'...
He has altered his movements now, wandering the tower randomly and staying away from the places Riku is known to linger at, the hood up hiding his face. But he still spends his night on fighting. Or well... practicing just what he can do with his Darkness now. Who knew when that would get handy after all.]
ooc: If you haven't, please take a look at Riku's permissions post!
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Hey! :|He is too... relieved and glad.]
...You are welcome, too.
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It's for the best, okay. Don't make her break out the Looking.][A positive outcome all around then--]
[Here, have a nod and a very warm smile. At least for now, her powers seemed to have calmed, but she's almost totally certain it's merely temporary.]
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Break it out; he can handle! 8|Okay no, he can't. /sobSeems so.
Maybe it's only temporary, but
at least she gets a breakthere is no reason to enjoy it while it lasts. Which really, she should do. Without a reminder of all things bad around (which is essentially what he has become by being forced into this form, isn't it?).He takes another step back, reaching up to tug at his hood back into his face, making sure that it is still in place, that it can't be dislodged easily.]
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Yeah, that's right. And unless he wants to start weeping too he'd better behave. 8|][It is quite the relief, that much is true, and she does savor it while she can. The sigh she lets out is quiet, but perhaps tells of her not!feelings on the matter in something about the way her shoulders move through it. When he moves, her eyes are focused completely on him, waiting to see what he'll do. She's quiet a long few moments once he's raised his hood, watching him, then,]
... You never have to hide from me.
[It's quiet, without any accusation or demand. It's just a statement, and one he's free to ignore, but there it is and there it will stay.]
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Y-yes, ma'am. He'll be good. ._.While he keeps his eyes on her, he isn't really quite looking, not keeping eye contact... Not that she should be able to tell, given that the hood is hiding them now. There is a second of hesitation before he answers, head turning slightly.]
...I know.
[He knows that he doesn't have to hide with her of course, but he still can't quite help it. Or well, hiding from everyone except her.]
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Good boy. <3 That's how to get smiles.][She may not be able to tell properly, no, but she does have a feeling. Or not!feeling, as the case may be, and it's confirmed when he turns even slightly like that.]
....
[She shifts her weight subtly so that he's looking directly at her again and smiles so placidly you'd think she didn't just have to do that.]
Good. I'm so glad that you understand.
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ajdsdjkdaj Yay, smiles?There is really no escaping her, is there? Not that Riku would really want to - she is still the one he is most comfortable around, as he is right now, and even as himself... she is the one who knows him best.
A hint of a smile reappears on his face... there are no words to describe his thankfulness - it is probably for the best that she reminds him that distancing himself does never really work, that there will always be somebody to pull him back, as much as he might think they shouldn't.]
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[Her smile increases by a slightly larger amount, just a quiet encouragement. Someone will always pull him back, whether it's her or another. Too late to run, Riku. You shouldn't have made such good friends if you wanted to actually manage to get away. Perhaps to drive the point home, she takes a tiny step that closes just under half of the distance he added with his own previous step, more an illustration of the unspoken principle than because she thinks she needs to be any closer.]
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It definitely drives the point home, even though his first impulse is to pull back - it isn't safe to be with him while his Darkness is so unstable, just as it isn't quite safe to be around her while her memory powers are going wild
not that he had been stopped by that before, hypocrite he is. Even so he stays where he is, even lifts his hand just slightly, as if to reach for hers again, but then thinks better of that.]no subject
It's difficult for one boy to stop a wave, after all.][And she just looks up at him calmly through that impulse (she might have had to compensate for it if he'd actually acted on it, but as it is, she can stay still a few moments). That movement of his hand, though, that gets the attention of her eyes. It's not hard to tell what he'd intended. ... Well. They're both dangerous, but so far nothing like it has caused too much trouble, so what's one more little touch? She reaches out at an unhurried pace, in case he should change his mind on the subject, then... gently takes his much larger hand in one of hers before bringing over the other to help hold on. Then,]
... We're going to be okay. Both of us. Things like this-- they pass.
[In the Tower, anyway. She's done not having faith in that - they both need it right now.]
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Meaning yeah, this is definitely one to walk away from.What's one more indeed... but how often can that be said until 'just one more', becomes 'one too many'? This one is not that one though and so Riku just sighs quietly and gently squeezes her hand.]
...Right.
[He just hopes it's going to pass sooner rather than later... beyond this he really doesn't know what consequences will follow.]
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[Fortunately, she'll not push it long enough to find out. Her smile is soft and meant to be encouraging, and it gains a little momentum when he responds. A nod, and then she regards him quietly a moment as if to make sure the point is driven home.]
[A hope she very much shares. She suspects it might be best for both of them to get moving again soon, because she can practically feel her powers beginning to threaten another outburst at last, but the comfort of his company makes it a bit harder to let go than it should be, and she falters, eyes falling toward their hands.]
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for now anyways.Still, glancing down, he can see the shadows deepen even more again, and if he is interpreting her faltering correctly... Staying much longer is just tempting fate again, isn't it?
Even so he can't help squeezing her hand once more before he pulls away again.
He can't leave like this though.]
...Not much longer. We'll just have to hold onto that.
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8|][She raises her eyes once more, a sincere apology in them. That squeeze is returned very lightly, and then she lets go as well.]
... Right. Not much longer at all. We'll see each other again soon.
[And she smiles an intentional but not unmeant smile before at last taking a step back, eyes still on him.]
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I look forward to it.
[Then he raises his left hand, black flames springing to life to form a Corridor of Darkness behind him. He, too, can't quite take his eyes off Naminé though.]
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Take care of yourself, Riku.
[That's an order. (Not really, no - but it's definitely something she'd prefer he listened to her about.)]