swordofzero: (betrayal)
Suzaku Kururugi ([personal profile] swordofzero) wrote in [community profile] towerofanimus2012-09-21 11:42 pm

All that I remember...

Characters: Suzaku (In Jin's body) and anyone
Setting: forest (the one inside)
Format: whatever you wish
Summary: So you know those supressents Minato gave Suzaku on day 2... he only took them the once and now its Day 5...
Warnings: *deep breath* general death seeking thoughts, death persona's, loss of identity, amnesia, general body swap horror, eventual death (maybe?) or eventual geassing, Replies will come from [personal profile] fartooloudinhere

The pills Minato had given him had quietened the voice for a while, but having his mind quiet just paved the way for his own destructive thoughts.

Because Jin was probably right, he did deserve this. After all the bad he had done, all the people he had killed. Killed for Britannia, killed for Lelouch, killed for money.

At first he could catch himself, remind himself that he had never killed for money that was Jin. But as the hours ticked he forgot more and more. Though he still remembered his own life parts of Jin's got mixed up and soon Suzaku couldn't quite work out which were his and which were not. Memories of Lelouch were muddled with memories of Minato. And did he truly have no parents? Who was the man he had killed?

What was real? Which Japan was his? He wanted to think the one that wasn't destroyed, wasn't conquered. But he wasn't sure.

Really all he knew was he was a murderer, that was a constant. Both sets of memories. It was the only thing he could truly know. And so he held onto it, his only point of reference to his identity.

Knowing he deserved this he didn't take the pills again, letting the voice fill his head and taunt him. He withdrew, hiding away. Not sleeping; because people knew where to find him if he went to his dorm. He hid on the floors no one went to, the ones full of blood, or bugs, or dangerous creatures.

Which was where he was now. On the fifth day since all this had started. The murderer; for he wasn't even sure who he was anymore, which name was his, stared at the evoker in his hand. He knew how to use it, he had seen it been used. He gave a short bitter laugh and raised it to his head, because he remembered Minato's words as well. They didn't know what would happen if they died like this.

There was a chance; a tiny one, that he wouldn't come back. A minscule chance but Suzaku was going to take it because if there was a way to end this...

It might mean Jin died forever as well, but if this was what he had to live with. This voice, he was a murderer too... then maybe he would want this too.
fractus_animus: (It's difficult to guess)

[personal profile] fractus_animus 2012-09-22 05:04 am (UTC)(link)
It had taken somewhat frantic searching, the help of another Persona user who could sense other Personas, and literally checking every single floor to even pinpoint the places Suzaku (as Jin) might be. It didn't help he kept moving around... or the pandemonium that was going on with memory bleedover and people not being treated right away.

The bleedover was getting bad for people the worst, next to the illness. But after days of labor, they'd found a way to FIX it. Jin had finally finished his part and then Suzaku was nowhere to be found--it boded badly. He couldn't let either of them die. And if they couldn't swap them back, quite frankly, it spelled disaster. What would happen to Jin if they couldn't get him back in his own body? Or Suzaku, for that matter? He'd also gathered some company. He could feel Samael almost instinctively coiling around his mind, and Thanatos nudging him--he had a connection to the rest of Strega unlike any others. They had been through the same things, and although his Persona was not like Medea, Minato could still feel when one of the others wasn't right, was nearby.

He'd given Jin his sword (for self defense), nabbed his own Evoker, given Narukami (in Lelouch's body no less) his own weapon, and the three of them had set out.

It wasn't until they reached the forest that they knew things were going to get messy... this floor was dangerous. They'd have to work their way through it and find Suzaku. He's nearby, Samael's hisses told him in the not-language Personas tended to whisper.

Find him. Had to find him. Even now, running and using his Persona to get rid of anything that stood in his way or tried to hurt the others, Minato was shouting:

"Suzaku! They've finally got a way to put everyone back in the right bodies! I will never forgive you if you let Jin die before his time, or if you let yourself die when your friend is about to be fixed! People need you both! Do you hear me?!"
worldlycheckmate: (outrage ♛ the less i like)

[personal profile] worldlycheckmate 2012-09-22 05:55 am (UTC)(link)
You know, there would have been times where he had been sure that the forest would be completely fine for him to venture into. This week was definitely not one of them. It was bad enough with the bleedover and coughing fits, but to be in a body that had a shitty endurance level? "Sucked" would be the kind way to state it.

He and Jin had little time to spare to find their bodies and drag them back to the library, but Jin was more important right now. If he died, that meant the geass on Izanagi would end because the Persona "dies" with his user. So in all, he literally had nothing to lose. Jin, however...

"Suzaku, listen to Arisato! We'll make it through this if you just let us know where you are!"

Well, if someone would put him down later, something might be able to be done about that massive headache the Messenger of Doom brought.
hermitofzero: (01)

[personal profile] hermitofzero 2012-09-22 06:06 am (UTC)(link)
He'd put Yu down later but right now, as far as Jin was concerned, they were on a time limit. Lelouch's body wouldn't let him go fast enough, and they had to find Suzaku before whatever time they had ran out-- it was a quick decision, but Jin had half-demanded and half-offered to carry Yu on his back himself. And despite the coughing fits and the fact that he had about three hours of sleep in the last two or three days, it actually wasn't that hard. He didn't even think it was inconvenient at this point.

The sword he'd simply stuck into Suzaku's own belt, and while his brain was confusing itself and he was actually much more even-tempered, that didn't mean all of him was gone. Normally he wouldn't care as much, normally he'd just be angry they couldn't find the son of a bitch.

But no, this time he was actually panicking and concerned. About both his own situation and what would happen to Ji-- Suzaku. Someone was in trouble, and it was vaguely his fault. They had a way to stop that damn monster in his head, and they couldn't find his damn head.

"Damnit, where are you?!" He was yelling, and the anger was still pretty evident in spite of himself. "We don't have time for this! Show yourself--!"
fartooloudinhere: (8)

[personal profile] fartooloudinhere 2012-09-22 10:30 am (UTC)(link)
Suzaku heard the faint shouting from where he stood, he let out another bitter laugh. He couldn't see them yet, but his vision had got worse. People were just blurs of colour and it added to the feeling of being alone. He had no idea that a way had been found to switch back, wouldn't care if he knew. This might be the only chance they had at dying forever and even if the other person. Suzaku? Jin? Even if they argued Suzaku knew they deserved to die, both of them.

He had killed people for lesser crimes than he had committed before, and though there was no money in this... he had killed for nothing before as well... Killed because he had been told to.

He heard Minato's words first, wondered if he meant it. Finally realising what he was and not forgiving him.

Yet this was Minato, Jin would always listen to Minato. Would do what Minato said because he was his leader, he knew what he was doing. And the next voice was Lelouch's and Jin was his knight. No maybe that was Suzaku...

Who even knew but then he heard Suzaku, hate filled him and Moros' voice drowned all of them.

He pulled the trigger.
deatharcana: (The cross they bare)

[personal profile] deatharcana 2012-09-22 01:17 pm (UTC)(link)
When they finally get in sight of him, Minato gives Jin (in Suzaku's body) a small glance. He was going to need help. But it's a damn good thing he'd thought to cast Marakukaja, Masukukaja, and Matarukaja before they started looking in the first place--it not only helped speed things up, but it also protected everyone just a little bit better. On that note he has no choice now but to make sure Suzaku (as Jin) wasn't going to completely go off the deep end. Looked like he might've already. He needed a plan. Had to think on his feet, quick.

"This sort of bullshit isn't going to fly today." he says with a final exhale before straightening up, Evoker ready, looking to Jin's hijacked body and it's new occupant. He looks to Yu (stuck as Lelouch), then back to Jin (stuck as his friend), and knows now would be as good a time as any. But they need a plan. Moros could easily kill them all. It's the look of a very serious but silent suggestion: Please try to follow my lead.

Minato raises his own Evoker, waits. If he was lucky, the memory leaks wouldn't have gotten to where he remembered Thanatos's weaknesses purely from how long Jin and he had been together... if he was just extremely UNlucky, then he'd literally have to deal with the fire skills he knew Jin's Persona possessed and trudge through anyway.

To Suzaku (the one in his friend's body, in Jin's body, and he likes Suzaku and all but he cannot let his friend die here today--), he gives a serious look, as he raises the Evoker--

"Don't make me do this, Suzaku. I really, really, do NOT want to fight you. We don't have time for this. But I won't let anyone die. Not here, not right now."

He might have Jin's body, but that didn't guarantee he'd know how to use Moros like Jin did, even out of instinct. Nor did it guarantee Moros would listen without the Suppressants. Minato turns to his companions, Yu and Jin, ironically in the bodies of Lelouch and Suzaku, lowering his voice just enough not to be heard by Suzaku in the body of his best friend. They had literally seconds before Suzaku would pull the trigger--

"We've got to do something--Jin, I need you to run up and disarm him as quickly as you can. Yu, I'm going to have Thanatos hold Moros back and head in. I want you behind me and to be ready. You know what we have to do."

Bang. One shot fired.

"Go!" He screams. Soon another one follows it simultaneously with a loud bang as well and the same shattering noises of glass instead of blood.

And with that, Moros was summoned, but so was Thanatos, and Minato began to enact his plan, sending his Persona to cut whatever attack Moros would try to use off.
Edited 2012-09-22 13:19 (UTC)
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[personal profile] hermitofzero 2012-09-22 07:12 pm (UTC)(link)
Jin caught the glance but the...subtleties on it were a bit lost on him. Maybe he just didn't have the time to think about it right now.

Regardless, he kneeled down to carefully let Lelouch (who... was actually Yu in Lelouch's body) stand for himself. He then turned his attention to Minato's direction-- enough time to hear what he said, to process it, but not enough time to respond on his own. Honestly, with the state the other was in, it was remarkable Moros hadn't already appeared on his own.

The bang went off; and something instinctual automatically went off in his body. He dashed up to his feet, running past Minato and Yu and straight for Suzaku. Facing off against the blue-haired teen, the mechanical spinning of the monster above, it was all oddly familiar. He wasn't sure if it was because it'd been so long since he'd seen the Persona or if it was because he was weirdly used to facing off against it.

A sudden pain in his chest and a burning itch in his throat appeared, but he had to ignore it for now. Adrenaline was already rushing, and he was glad for all the training he had gotten at the moment. He stopped when he was next to Suzaku, reaching his own hand out to grab his hand and the Evoker. "Stop! We're trying to help you!"
worldlycheckmate: (contacts ♛ it's far from over)

[personal profile] worldlycheckmate 2012-09-22 11:19 pm (UTC)(link)
It was probably a good idea to put him down when Jin (in Suzaku's body) had put him down when he did. The bleedover hadn't been as severe yet, or at least he was used to dealing with multiple "sets", roles - hell, both of them seemed to be actors in some form or another. Lelouch - no, Yu - nods in return: You got it.

He's too sick now to really argue. After all, he can barely see at this point. The faint auras around them, and the memory leaks were growing more severe (getting drunk last night probably hadn't helped, either. Though the part of him that was still "Yu" couldn't help but find the irony in Arisato's words. Heh... Death Arcana... now why did that sound so familiar?

C͒̿͊̈̅͏̧͖͕̻̝̹̻̲͇͡o͍͕̫͕͗͑̌ͫ̎̄ͅm̢̙̦̊͆ͪ͜e̵͔̤̝̝̣͐̒͡ ̠̫͕̺͖͙ͦ̋̑ͮ̇̎̏ͭ́o̷̪͕̗̺̱̦͒͐ͥ̔͞ͅǹ̶̦͔̼ͩ͠ͅͅ,̧̼͉̲̤̙̌̀͋ͯͥ͆͡ ̶̬̹̳͊ͬ͘͟m̵̭͚͔̖̜͕͓̓̄̀̄̊̑̀̚y̽͗̇̈͏̷͙̥̲̤̩̞͕̻͟ ̩̞ͦ̾̐ͣ̇̂ͦ̽̑d̴̹̜͇̭̼͔͑̆͆̇̑͑̎͢e̲̻͐͒̔ͣ̑ą̗̙̥͖̟̝ͩ̍̽̊̑͋̚͜r͍̹͚͔̙̗͉̹̳̋̔̍̍ͩ́͜.͉͖̦͉̥̉̿͌ͧ.̯̱̯͉̑͋̀͆͗̽̚͘.̠͉̓̑͊̕͢

It's all so foggy, and it's growing harder to discern who is who in his head, but a few things remained crystal clear: They were all in serious trouble if this continued, and while the others had the strength to hold Jin - no, Suzaku - and Moros back, he had the power of the king. They could do this if they played their cards just right.

"Right," he kept his voice down as he spoke in return, straightening himself the best he could considering his own condition. As he continued, he began removing something from his eyes-

B̹̻̩̭̦̯̏͋ͫͭ͗ű̡̠̘̪͜t̺̞͈͉͉̣̠̽͐ͧ̒̉ͅ ̨̓̑̃ͫͭ̑̆̀̚҉̤͖̙̺̲͎̜yͤ̌͛̓͏҉̡͚͙͔̲ỏ̪ͥu̼̗͍͖ͭͬͫ͜͝ ̛͓̭̻ͧ͑͂̊͢͡s̩͓̺̺̙͖͍̊͛̍͌̐ͫ̎ḧ̦͍̝̠́̀o̖̲ͮ̈ͬͭͯ̀u͕̠͓̱̲̹͕̰ͤ̈ͣͥ̓̀lͦ̒ͦͩͮ̌̈́҉̖̥̖̟̹ḑ̥̮̅ͩͩ̍̅̅ͦ̀ ̴̨͔͇͈̪͍͔ͭͯ̿́b̤̭̌̊͆̃̋͊̊͟e̷͍͙̤̼̹͓̖̭ͧ̌ͥ̒ͮ̅̏́ ̤̝̬͖̜̹͇̿͢͡c̫̣͖̟̠̱̮̓̿͝aͮ̄́̎̔̏҉̵̭̖̲͞r̺̘̜̼̫̹̥̮̞͒̉̈̄̓ͮ̅è̷̦͇̫̳͊̑̾̊̒ͬ̅̚͢f̵̣̦̤̪̤̭̋̓ų͒͐ͦ҉͚l̴̦͚̞̲͓̠̟͎͕ͩͯ̃̇̒̕̕ ̨̦̹̻͎̼̮̘͚̿ͩͨ̈̈ͤw̬̟͍̗̻̜͗͑̑͊̾͋̋h̨̧͉͎̣̲̻͈͋̓͊͋͑ͯ̌͠a̵̞̺͎͙̳͚̒̀̕t̷̨̺̞̓̇ͥ̿́́ ̯͍̯̮͇̘͉̪ͬ̆͋͊̄͜y̧͍̼̩̦͔͎ͫͪ̓ͤͫo̖̐͑̋ͣ͟ǔ̘̹̙̦̝̫̫ ͙͇͕̰ͥ̽̄̏̚͡d̴̵͖̙̠̪͖͓͆̄ͩ̆̐̍̚ȯ̦̮̫̺͓̊͗ͬ̋ͮ͐͛̿ ̖̞̤͔̮̆̍ͮ͒ͮ̕w̢̡̖͎̦͗ͬ̂̑̇͟iͮ̉͒͛́ͮ̽̏͏̹̳̠͓t̻ͧͬ͐͌͐ͮ͆h͚͗̈͒́ͬ̂ͦ̀͢ ͗̏̎ͥ͐͌ͩ͏̨͈̳̩̯̹t̤̤̘̯̞̦̟̜̏͐͛͊́̽͠ḩ̖̼̘͓͕͇̯̭͕ͦͪ͊̀̀ͣã̛̹̜̘̜̤̰͈̭̩́ͫ͛͋̀t̩͚̪̱͉̞͖ͤ̄ͧ ̥͇͎̃̍͜͟ͅp̸̢̺̃͐ͦͥ̃ͨ͘o̲͇̺̤̘͊w̨̹̰̮ͤͫ̔ͨ̋͗ͤ̒̕ḙ̟̤̻͎̪̦ͧ̃r̹̓͒̓ͭ͊͋̚̚.̧͙͇͖̱̳̄.̡̛̳̱͈̓͑̒̅̆̽̚ͅ.̍̑̍͏͔̹ ͈͕̻̻̱̩͗͋ͮ̏͗o̡̫̝͍̯̜͔͚͕ͧ̆̍̂̽̕r̢̻̖̹̪͕̟͂͒͊̒ͫ̆̽͞ ̗͍̜̱̦͊̋̓͛͋̀̚͡i̴̱͕̇͐̾ṫ̷͇̯͍̓͋̐ͭ͊̚͟ ̧̥̍ͬw̺͑̏̽ͩ͒̄i̧̱̲͇͍̮̬͒ͮ̕͝l̈́̅̈́̄̂̀҉̷̘͈̪͕̬̳̳ĺ̸ͧ̿̅̿͗̔̚͏̤̞̤͠ ̶̢̮͈̒͗̾ͨ̌c̶͚̥̝̱͋͛̅͛ͦͦ̚͟͡o̶̳̮̺̱̼͐̃n̖̟̰̽̋̑̑ͥͭ̍s̵̱͔͙͓̙ͤ̆͆̑̚u̴͈̬͖̤̞̹͐̍ͬ́̃ͪ͂ͣ̕m̴̡̝͔ͤ͘ͅe̻͓͕̪͓̜͈̋ͭ͋ͤ̓ͨ ̠̩̤͉͇̦̺͎̓͗͊͋̌͐̓ͥy͎̮̜̘̹̮ͨͧ̆͠ͅoͫ̾̍́ͥͨ͜҉̝͍̤̳̰ư̷͍̘̹͍͖͉̺̘ͨ̊ͤͤ͐͡ͅ.̢̗͇͉̫̖̠ͧ͛̇̏ͤ̈́͞

What was that?

"Let's go."

Lelouch - Yu, dammit - was right behind him. He was going to do his best to ignore the pain while he kept his eye contact away from them. Of course the one already charging would be immune, but he remembered well what happened with Minato.

"Alright, that's enough! Calm down and listen to us!"

Come on, at least let which body he's in be enough to get him to pause.
Edited 2012-09-22 23:25 (UTC)
fartooloudinhere: (7)

[personal profile] fartooloudinhere 2012-09-24 10:19 am (UTC)(link)
And here they were. Jin... Suzaku... whoever he was turned to look at the three who were approaching them, he had known they would try to stop him though he was a little disappointed at Suzaku. Surely he understood, he was as much as murder...

Both Minato and Lelouch shouting at him made him pause though, he owed loyalty to both of them. Or one of them, or... He owed them both anyways whoever he was.

He grinned again as Suzaku ran towards him, had he not learned yet? They had fought before and he should know that he couldn't beat Moros, couldn't beat Jin even with the fact he couldn't die. The Geass would just make him run off, run away and leave his friends. Abandon them, because that's what they did, what he did. Abandon people, fail people.

"Why would you want to do that?" He hissed as Moros shot fire, part of Suzaku worried about harming Minato and Lelouch but anger and a wish to die swamped those feelings.
fractus_animus: (PISSED. OFF.)

[personal profile] fractus_animus 2012-09-25 08:00 pm (UTC)(link)
Minato cries out in pain as the fire assails his horrible weakness to it, but he pushes against it anyway, biting down on his lip. He'd take the weakness. He wouldn't let Moros get past Thanatos. By blocking the Persona's attacks he's able to at least cover for the other two while they tried to do something. He's breathing heavily and his eyes seem to be a brighter shade of blue, now, from keeping the Persona summoned, from taking the brunt of the attack. The burns hurt... but he would not just give in.

"V... vive ut vivas. Live life to it's fullest. D-don't... have any regrets. ... Are... are you really gonna do this to me? To us? Are you really... going to just end it without even considering... the people who care about you if you might not come back?!" He's practically screaming by the end of those words.

Minato on his end, though it hurts and it's draining him quickly, keeps Thanatos summoned, and Thanatos pins Moros when it appears against a wall, holding the Persona and keeping it from disappearing. If now was ever a time to strike, guys, now would be in. Please don't let this end badly... guys, please hurry. Even while he's talking he's just trying to keep Suzaku-as-Jin distracted.

"I'd rather die than let you do this! If you have his memories you KNOW the shit we've been through! We had to do that to survive! I will NOT let you ruin everything we've worked for together. We might be dying, we might even be murderers, but you have no right... no right to hurt Chidori, Ken, and I anymore than we've already been hurt!!"
hermitofzero: (04)

[personal profile] hermitofzero 2012-09-25 10:27 pm (UTC)(link)
Right, Thanatos was weak to fire-- how could he forget that? Normally he should have gone in to take that punch, but even with his new reflexes, the Geass wouldn't have that happening. He got himself out of the way of the fire, but that just left the other two open. Awesome. Really.

Apparently the rushing flames was enough to irritate his already-raw throat, as he started up another coughing fit at a wonderfully inopportune moment, some of the blood getting on his hand which he unceremoniously wiped on his pants as he waited for the burning in his chest to stop.

His mind was only half-able to register what Minato was saying (who was he talking to, exactly?) But his mind was on other things anyway. They had to stop this idiot. Whether it was Jin or Suzaku or whoever the hell-- this guy was gonna hurt both Minato and Lelouch, and he was acting like a total goddamn moron.

He stuck the sword back into his belt; if they wanted to get him out alive, that wasn't going to do much good. Once his breath finally returned, he ran straight up to Suzaku again (a shorter distance to close, at least), and said nothing.

He repeated the process he'd done with Yu a few days ago; planted his foot down, balled up his hand, pulled back as far as he could and threw his fist forward, ramming it as hard as he could into Suzaku's face.

In retrospect, that'll probably hurt if he gets his body back, but in present-spect, his mind wasn't exactly the most clear right now.
worldlycheckmate: (tears ♛ because I will be)

[personal profile] worldlycheckmate 2012-09-26 11:06 am (UTC)(link)
Ah, that's right... Minato was weak to fire attacks. Part of Lelouch--Yu, 'don't forget that part'--grimaces at that, but right now that mask would not suit the situation. Instead, he endured whatever flames that came his way past what Minato could take, gritting his teeth. Before he could even think, the memories reminded him of something: one of his-- Lelouch's--greatest mistakes.

"What would Euphie think if she saw her knight like this?!" Yulu yelled over the flames, coughing afterward as his gaze hardened as he stared in his direction, but not directly into his eyes. "She'd want you to live... not die like this...!"

The coughing grew worse, but he continued as the bleedover came in full force. "I want you to live! Why the hell do you think I-" he "-ordered you not to die?!"

Lelouch was so going to kill him later, but he doesn't care so long as it works. Also, Jin-as-Suzaku... thanks for punching yourself in the face and reminding him of the incident with the bus stop sign. Really, he needed that reminder to grasp to his own identity (oh, the irony).
fartooloudinhere: (7)

[personal profile] fartooloudinhere 2012-09-26 11:38 am (UTC)(link)
Minato's word hurt, because they were lies. But they were truth. He would be hurt bu Jin's death, Ken and Chidori; faces joined the names despite the fact Suzaku had met neither of them. Jin had, Jin cared about them in his own way, and they cared about Jin.

"You really care about him?" Suzaku... Jin... their voice sounded disbelieving, surprised. But the part of them that was Suzaku knew it was true, despite Jin being Jin, being a murderer he had people who cared for him.

If Suzaku did this, he would be murdering someone who would be missed. "He would be missed..." Suzaku paused, Moros didn't, he threw out more fire. Suzaku's pause did nothing, except mean he was a more still target for Suzaku... Jin... the other one to punch.

Jin flew backwards, pain in his face but he did not fight back. Not in actions anyways. "And you would never hurt them would you Minato," he spat, "You've never given up, never let Thantos take over," it was Jin's anger but Suzaku's memory; the first time they had met... "Hypocrite."

And then Lelouch was talking... Yu, Yu with Lelouch's memories, taking them and twisting them and using them as weapons. Euphie...

He struggled to his feet, hands balling into fists, Jin's body was not made for physical fighting but that wouldn't stop him trying. "Shut up," he rushed at Yu, his fist aiming towards his face. "Who knows why you do anything, you forced me to live but killed her." Words he wouldn't say if he didn't have Jin's memories and anger motivating him, "You don't know anything, you have no right to talk about her."
fractus_animus: (Quiet.)

super late due to lack of net at home tag GO

[personal profile] fractus_animus 2012-11-15 11:02 pm (UTC)(link)
He's getting frustrated, knocked back. He can only handle so much of Moros' Agidynes before he's seriously hurt, guys. Yu, you seriously, DESPERATELY, need to Geass him NOW before Minato himself dies. But he won't let Moros break free from Thanatos, so even as the Personas fight, Thanatos manages to divert the flames away from Yu-Lelouch and Jin-Suzaku, and Minato endures.

"... Y-yeah... maybe we're murderers, but this world OWES us. We didn't escape from Kirijo just to give in before our time."

He isn't sure why or how, but he shakes his head, blinking his eyes, gritting his teeth from the pain. He stares at Suzaku in Jin's body and tries to get closer, now, but Moros fights some more, unleashing another Agidyne on Thanatos, who roars in pain but stays pinning the Persona regardless. Minato feels it assail his weakness again and clenches his chest, but refuses to move.

"... I don't... I don't want to lose him, Suzaku. Please. I'm begging you. Don't... don't do this to me. To us. Please. I lost everything when I was a kid... Jin is my family, too. And he might think otherwise, but he deserves better than I can give him... he never had anyone before us... don't both of you deserve a chance to try and FIX what you've done wrong?! H... how can we fix anything like this...?"

Minato is brought to his knees across from the person currently in his friend's body. He shakily holds a hand out, hurting and breathing heavily, eyes glowing, struggling to keep Thanatos summoned. He's burned badly, but he doesn't care. He doesn't fear dying. He forces a smile.

"... If you have his memories, you know that we've only ever done what we had to do because we had no choice," he says. "... This isn't fair. To him, or to the people that love both of you."

He was going to die again, wasn't he...? Maybe Suzaku would remember that promise he and Jin made. That Minato would be his 'good'... that Jin could be Minato's 'bad' so he didn't have to dirty himself. Together, maybe... they could be one whole person, right? One who wasn't a total fuck up.

Geass him now Yu!

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[personal profile] thereisnopie 2012-09-22 10:47 am (UTC)(link)
Gamzee didn't know Jin or Suzaku, but he knew a man with a gun to his head when he saw one. While he wasn't the sort to run up and demand him to stop, it didn't seem right to just watch and not say anything. (Of course, if the young man didn't listen to him, then watching was still a thing he could do.)

"Hey now, you shouldn't do that. You'll go and make a mess for some other brother to have to scoop on up, and Messiahs know I wouldn't wanna be that bro." He sat up in one of the branches now, a piece of bread dangling from one hand as though he'd just been in there enjoying a meal - because he had been.

His plea wasn't all that concerned, clearly. But then, as stated, he didn't know this man.
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[personal profile] fartooloudinhere 2012-09-22 11:18 am (UTC)(link)
He didn't hear the mans approach because Moros was screaming at him, urging him to pull the trigger. At least the voice drowned out his own self hating thoughts but then there was another voice, a voice coming from outside his head and he had thought he had succeeded at avoiding people.

He looked around, wondering at first if this was just another aspect of insanity, another voice to add to his mind but then he saw an orange blur. Up in the tree, "Not if nobody finds me." Was that voice his?

There were dangerous animals here, with luck no one would even learn that he had died.
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[personal profile] thereisnopie 2012-09-22 10:10 pm (UTC)(link)
There was no approach to be heard, as Gamzee had been in the tree the whole time. It seemed that even here it was difficult to get away from everyone. Shame, that.

"Not all the mess is gonna be fuckin' physical, bro." He dangled one leg absently, still in no hurry to move. "You look like a motherfucker others will be getting their miss on for. That not right?" He was pretty cute for a human, wasn't he? Had to have some friends somewhere. It only made sense.
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[personal profile] fartooloudinhere 2012-09-24 09:53 am (UTC)(link)
Suzaku looked at him in surprise, "They shouldn't." He knew they would. Minato, Nunnally, Lelouch perhaps to an extent. Chidori, Ken...

But they shouldn't because he deserved this and had brought them all pain at some point or other. "I'm not someone that people should miss." He stared at the evoker again, "You should go, I don't think I can control him."
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[personal profile] thereisnopie 2012-09-25 01:54 am (UTC)(link)
"Man, don't give me none of that sob shit." He waved his hand in a dismissive gesture, hopping down from the tree to land firmly on his feet, hands finding their way into his pockets. "You don't make yourself some mother fucking mistakes and then wuss on out of them. That's what all this is about, yeah?"

No one ever said Gamzee was the most compassionate of people.

"I see one motherfucker in front of me. What all's there to control? You got a few too many speakers up there in the headspace? Because I can dig that sort of thing, brother. I can understand."
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[personal profile] fartooloudinhere 2012-09-25 10:05 am (UTC)(link)
Suzaku took a step back as the boy jumped from the tree, "I made more than mistakes." He gripped the gun tighter, it felt like Moros was just going to burst out evoker or not and he tried to keep himself together. Remember that he was Jin.

Wait no... he wasn't Jin was he. "Really. Get away from here." He nodded though because it was voices in his head he was struggling with, one voice anyways.
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[personal profile] thereisnopie 2012-09-26 05:31 am (UTC)(link)
"So varying degrees of mess-ups. Got it. Shit happens." He would make a terrible therapist, really. "I ain't movin' nowhere. I like this spot of the woods."

Actually, they were all the same to him, but at this point he was just being stubborn. He took a couple steps closer even as the other backed away.
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[personal profile] fartooloudinhere 2012-09-26 09:41 am (UTC)(link)
Suzaku glared at him, "I don't want to hurt you." And he really didn't. Despite the fact he wasn't even sure who he was anymore and Moros just seemed to want to hurt everything he still held enough of himself to not want to harm an innocent.

The thought almost made him laugh because it had been a very long time since he had stuck to that wish, for someone who had claimed so long to fight to protect others... he had become a monster.

"But I will, he will, if you come any closer."
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[personal profile] thereisnopie 2012-09-26 09:03 pm (UTC)(link)
The once-troll stopped, still seemingly unbothered by the proceedings, and just tilted his head. It all looked so much simpler from his end.

"Why don't you just... not? A brother can't drop the gun down on his motherfuckin' own?" Maybe he couldn't. Gamzee didn't know how anything worked with this guy, after all. But it was his own hand holding the weapon up.
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[personal profile] fartooloudinhere 2012-09-27 08:29 am (UTC)(link)
Suzaku blinked, he had pretty much forgotten he was holding the evoker; he didn't let it go though. Indeed his grip on it tightened because at least if he summoned Moros there was still a shadow of control.

"He will come even if I don't use it," it hadn't for a long while. But he knew from the memories crowding his head that he could. "You don't care much about your own safety do you?"

Says the boy with a gun like thing still pointing at his head.
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[personal profile] thereisnopie 2012-09-28 01:09 am (UTC)(link)
"Could ask the same at you." He shrugged. "But honestly, I don't give much of a fuck about your safety either. Just thought I'd give a shot at talking you down, seeing as you're so motherfuckin' cute and all."

He had no real reason to care for the other teen, seeing as he wasn't even familiar with him. It had been more curiosity than anything that had caused him to even bother speaking with him.

Would be kind of a shame if he blew his brains out, though.
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[personal profile] fartooloudinhere 2012-09-28 11:19 am (UTC)(link)
Suzaku gave another bitter laugh, "This isn't me," he wondered if the boy was in his own body. He glared at the orange blur again. "But if we survive this I'll let him know he's cute."

Hopefully they wouldn't though, that was the point after all. If he did this and just woke up again... it was a possibility but it would be a waste. "I take it you aren't leaving?"

This actually ironically reminded him of his first time meeting Minato. Wait was it his first? He had known him for years. Since they were children. Why wouldn't he have not known that the evoker was not a gun... why had he fought him...

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