towerofanimus | I've heard the mermaids singing each to each

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I've heard the mermaids singing each to each

Characters: Kariya Matou and YOU
Setting: Floor ninety (the lagoon)
Format: Prose to start, but I'll match you!
Summary: Kariya is turned into a mermaid. Merman. Merperson. A dangerous merperson. His choice is to drown others or die himself.
Warnings: Blood, possible violence, definite death (for Kariya). And worms. Always worms.

When he'd first found his way to the lagoon floor, Kariya had thought it might be a new peaceful floor where he could rest, like his favorite floor: the meadow. The sound of the falling water was soft and soothing, the water brilliantly clear. The banks were green and dotted with bright flowers. He sat down at the water's edge with a sigh. The effort of making it to this floor had taxed his strength. He was tired. He leaned forward to look into the blue water, reaching out to trail his fingers through the cool liquid.

That was when they struck. Without any warning. His wrist was gripped by a hand, strong as a vise. It hurt, but before he had time to voice a protest, he was dragged down into the water.

He should have died at once. It was the worms inside him that kept him alive. His lungs were aching, but when he opened his mouth in panic and fear, the worms, protecting their host, shot out and fought off the attackers, stinging and striking with their sharp wings and teeth. He managed to struggle to the surface. He was aware of flashing fins, fierce faces, hands pulling him back down. The worms in his lungs felt like they were choking him, but they were sustaining him with prana, life energy. He didn't drown, but his body was wracked with incredible pain. He was used to pain, but this kind was different. It felt like it was twisting his very skin and bones. He gasped, coughing up more worms into the water, along with dark blood.

It felt like it took hours, but it was probably only minutes. When the pain grew less, Kariya finally made his way back to the bank, his gasping and choking easing. He glanced down at his hands. His fingers were cool and had a greenish tinge. His legs felt strange, or rather, they were no longer legs at all. He turned to find himself changed from the torso down: he had a long, scaled greenish length of body ending in a broad, fishlike tail. He looked up. Then he saw the other mermaids clearly, watching him with their dark eyes. They seemed to be smiling at him, swimming in circles nearby but not drawing too near.

He tried to climb up out of the water, but he realized he wouldn't get far without legs. The air felt so dry on his skin. Was he trapped here? He hurt so badly, he only wanted to go back to safer, more familiar floors, and maybe find Ishtar to heal him. He couldn't. He had no way of calling for help. He was alone here, except for the mermaids with their laughing faces and cruel smiles.

Option A: (possible drowning)
There's a new merman swimming in the lagoon, one with the left side of his body veined and scarred, looking for someone, anyone, who can help him. Now and again, he calls out. "Is anyone there? I need your help."

Option B: (after beaching)
Unable to bear his existence as a mermaid, in pain and with the inescapable impulse to drown others, Kariya has made his way up onto the shore. He's lying there, breathing slowly, as his skin dries and cracks. This pain... he'll just have to endure it as he's endured everything else. He hopes it doesn't take too much longer.

[ooc: Kariya is going to be mercy-killed by Diarmuid, but feel free to encounter him before or after he's beached.]

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Raphael, normally, did not venture far out from the infirmary. However..if was to be an Angel of healing, he would have to become familiar with all of the floors that said injured were on. His skills would be useless if he could not be aware of the dangers each floor held. Even if he did lose his powers on several of them.

So, while traveling up, he heard a voice calling out in a lagoon, and saw that the voice belonged to a man with scars on the left side of his body and..with a lower half like a fishes.

Raphael, having never seen or heard of mermaid/men, walked closer to the person, hoping to help.

"What do you need help with? And what are you?"

He's relieved when someone finally answers his call. He swims toward the sound of the voice. He looks down at himself again: his scales, his scars. It's so strange to be this way. He flexes his tail. He's aware of the other mermaids in the water, but they're not drawing near, staying under the water: watching.

"I'm trapped here. I'm-" He looks down at himself. "I'm not supposed to be like this. I'm a human. I want to leave this place, but I can't."

Not human..that meant that he was turned into this..creature. However, Raphael wasn't sure if he would be able to heal this man and turn him back into a normal human. He had healed regular sicknesses and revived humans before and even purged Vileness.

This was..a bit new. But he would try. He sat down in front of the man and tried to put a hand on his head.

"I am..sorry to hear that. I do not know how you were transformed or why..but I shall try to heal you. I cannot guarantee this will work though. I have never experienced it before."

Then Raphael would try to use his healing powers. If it worked, Kariya would glow green for a moment and start transforming back. If it didn't..then he would just glow green for a moment before nothing happened.

"I think it was just to be cruel. That's why things happen here," Kariya explained, but his current state hadn't put him in the best frame of mind.

"You can heal?" Another healer? Maybe this man could help him in other ways. He needed more healing than just what his current predicament put him in need of. "Please, try."

When the green glow surrounded him, his internal flesh began to heal, the tissues torn up by the worms inside him. He felt surprisingly better, but when the green glow faded, he was still a merman. That hadn't altered at all. "Thank you. It helped, but I don't think it can change me back. They did this to me." He nodded back toward the water. He was referring to the mermaids, but there were none of them in evidence now. He might as well have been referring to the Tower administrators, as they were the ones ultimately to blame for this.

He had the sudden, inexplicable urge to grab Raphael's hand and pull, but he resisted it.

At the effects of his healing and the mans words, Raphael sighed. He had not fully lived up to his name..he hadn't been able to help this man. And that was..terrible.

"..That is what I have been told. And you are welcome..I am sorry that I cannot help change you back. I have never faced something like this before..but who do you mean by 'they'? What's lurking under the water? More creatures?"

Raphael may have been a bit of a beginner on human empathy and body language, but he was slowly starting to figure it out. He removed his hand from the mans head as he spoke.

"It's not your fault. It's the Tower. It does these things to people." He looked for the mermaids, but they seemed to have disappeared for the time being. "Yes, there were more creatures. Like I am now. They're not here now. I don't know where they've gone."

He didn't want to do it, he told himself. He didn't want to pull this man into the water. This man was trying to help him. But no matter how hard he tried to tell himself otherwise, the desire remained.

"I know..but I still do not enjoy it. It goes against the reason I exist."

Raphael then nodded and looked at the water before replying. He didn't see any other creatures like this man.

"They are probably hiding underneath the water, waiting to do something."

"The reason you exist? Is that to help people? You did help me. I feel better now, even if I haven't changed back." He could appreciate that reason for existing. What he wanted most of all was to protect and help the people dear to him. Or at least, that was how he usually felt. His feelings weren't the same now. Something darker was pushing its way into his usual thoughts.

"No, I think they've gone. I can see under the water now. It should be safe." He wanted this man to stay close to him. He felt the need to be near him.

At that, Raphael nodded.

"That is part of it. I exist to heal people. Normally, it would be to heal people God told me to..but in this place..that has changed. However, I am glad that you feel better."

After all, when God was dead, you had to change a little..not that Raphael liked it.

"That is good to hear. What would happen if they did come back?"

"God. You speak to God? I never believed in God." Not that he'd been raised to do so.

He continues to study Raphael. What kind of person is he? He's wondering, partly out of honest curiosity, and partly because he's trying to decide if he'd be able to pull Raphael down with him, though he tries (with less and less success) to ignore that part of his mind.

"I don't know what would happen. They might try to pull you in. That's what they did to me."

"..I do not see why you would not, but I do sometimes speak to God. I am Raphael. It is part of my life."

Raphael then nodded, thinking. He was going to scootch a bit backwards. Not too far though.

"I see..thank you for telling me. I shall remember that for the future. I suppose you're feeling that urge right now too?"

"I have no reason to believe in him." What had God ever done for him? He certainly wasn't present in the Tower. How could he be?

Kariya flicked his tail, anxiously. He didn't want Gabriel to move away. He didn't answer the question.

"It's safe now. You don't need to worry."

"Why did you not?"

This was rather new to Raphael, and it bothered him a bit. It was like saying that this man did not believe that his own father did not exist: it was rather..puzzling.

"I do think that it is safe now..but I think I shall stay where I am, just to be safe. I cannot help others if I myself die."

"Why would I? My family never believed in religion." Not that he always believed as his family wanted, but in this case, he agreed with them. "God has never done anything for me. What is he supposed to be? Some father in the sky? If there is one, then it's his fault, all the things that have happened. I can't forgive him for that." He can't forgive him for what he and Sakura and Aoi and Rin have suffered.

Kariya's eyes narrowed slightly. "There's no real death here. You should try again. Maybe you can heal me."

Raphael sighed when he heard that.

"God, in my universe, was a creator. However..how is it His fault that things have turned out badly for you? We rarely got involved in Human affairs unless they needed a bit of a push-if we got too involved, we would destroy and taint Humanity's one wonderful gift."

Raphael didn't notice that the man's eyes narrowed at first.

"..Death as I know it does not exist here, that is true. However..if I could not transform you back the first time, I do not think I could transform you back the second time. I am sorry."

"If someone doesn't do something, that's their fault. If someone lets children suffer and die when they can do something to stop it, then they're to blame. I don't want to believe that someone like that created the world." His family is bad enough. He doesn't need another uncaring father figure. "I'd rather believe nobody did." His mind may be affected by his current form, but he means what he says about God.

"Heal me more, then, please. I'm ill." He wants the man to step closer to the water, closer to him. It's so hard to resist that instinct. "I've been ill for a long time." His flesh may be healed, but the worms inside him are already gnawing away at him again.

Raphael sighed as he spoke.

"I realize that this is difficult to understand..and cope with. But..the pain that comes toward humans isn't due to malice or ill will..it simply..is. Healthy children, hurting children, they all make up the world."

Raphael thought for a moment..and then scooted forward and tried putting his hand on the man's head again.

"Alright then. I shall heal you again. But..do not drag me under. I cannot help anyone if I become..whatever you have."

Raphael would then proceed to heal the man again.

"Do you know what they've done to her?" His voice rose. "My niece. I can't forgive anyone who would let that happen to her. So I can't forgive your God." He can't forgive himself, for that same reason. He blames himself for what's happened to her.

Kariya did need healing, but his strange new instinct drove him to use his need for deceit, something he would ordinarily never do. It was just that the need, to pull and to drown, was so strong, he couldn't overcome it.

He hated himself as he did it, but when Raphael reached out, when he started to heal Kariya, Kariya's hand snaked up to grab Raphael's wrist. He didn't want to. It simply seemed to happen, his grip firming on the other's arm as he pulled.

"Sadly, I do not. As I have said before, we do not interfere with Earth and Humans unless they need interference. If we interfered, we would be spoiling their free will. And..you do not need to forgive someone who had not done any harm at all. God has not harmed your daughter Himself, as far as I am aware."

Raphael sighed as the man grabbed his wrist and started to pull him in the water. He was more cautious now, thanks to KOS-MOS. Instead of turning into a swan, he quickly changed into his spirit body. The man's hand would simply pass through it.

"..I did tell you not to try and drag me under."

"Helping someone isn't taking away their free will. She's suffering! If he made the people that harmed her and he knows she's in pain but won't help, then it's the same thing. She needs help." But apparently, he's the only one willing to provide it. The only one who cares.

Kariya's tail rose and hit the water in frustration as Raphael shifted into spirit form and he lost his grip. He looked irritated one moment–

–then contrite the next, even sorrowful. His eyes were wet not only with the water of the lagoon. "I'm sorry. I didn't mean to. It's this body makes me want to... I can't help it. I don't really want to hurt you." Not that he thinks he's capable of harming someone who can do what Raphael just did.

"She may need help, and He may have created a humanity that could harm..but He also created a humanity that could heal. It is up to you, and other humans, to help her. I am sorry..this is painful and confusing..but it is how it is."

Raphael watched as the man splashed the water, and, after going through several emotions..cried. Even if the man had tried to hurt him, it was not normal for him. He himself was stating this. If he wasn't in spirit form, he would have been able to feel Raphael's hand on his head.

"It is alright. I understand. You do not have to cry. It's alright."

"Then why didn't he make me stronger?" asked Kariya, who blamed himself for his own weakness. If he really believed in God, he would have blamed him, but as it was, he didn't truly believe, so the brunt of the blame fell upon himself. For not being strong enough, for not doing the right things. "I'll never accept it. If God is real, I'll always hate him."

Maybe he means these words sincerely, and maybe he's just angry, angry as well as sad.

"It's not all right. I'm trapped like this. They've made me a monster." He hates the predatory ideas that even now are permeating his ordinary thoughts. He would still try to pull Raphael under if he could get a hold of him. "I don't want to hurt anyone." Well, no one here, at least.

"Because that would be interfering. Humanity has to get stronger on their own merits, and when they are at their limit, then Heaven helps. If God did not interfere, then Humanity was not at it's own limit."

He said nothing about the second part. He wasn't sure if the man actually meant it or if emotion was moving his tongue.

"..You are not a monster..but it is terrible that they are distorting your free will and wishes. I wish there was something more I could do to help.."

"I don't care about humanity." Well, he does, but that's not what he's talking about now. "I want to save one family. That's all. I want them to be happy. I don't see why that's too much to ask for." He couldn't understand why someone as powerful as God was supposed to be couldn't help. It would be so easy for him. No effort at all. "But like I said, I don't believe in all that." He'd rather not believe in a God who would hold back like that.

"It feels like being a monster. If you try to help me, I'll only try to hurt you," said Kariya, mournfully. "Even though I don't want to."

"I do not understand why you don't..but one family's suffering could turn to one family's joy if they were to all work together. It does not require God's interference..I know it sounds cruel..but it is the way of things. I am sorry."

Raphael then sighed. It was always hard for Humans to understand these things..not that Raphael could blame them. It was not like they could see everything..and Enoch had showed them that their gift could easily hurt them as well as help.

"Then..if we could restrain your arms while I am healing you, then I could heal you and you would not harm me."

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