All things considered, the killing had been quick, brutal, and efficient. Quicker than it should have been, considering what he was doing.

It was the scream that made him doubt his actions even as he pulled the spear out. He wanted to give her a peaceful death. One that would let her come back healed of her injuries. What he had done was terrify her.

As a Servant summoned into the Grail War, he had been prepared to kill innocent people who would play witness to a battle between him and his enemies. Yet, this was different. With his own hands, he had killed an innocent person against their will. An innocent person who was also a friend that he wanted to protect.

What sort of hero was he? The same doubt he had upon Misaya's death invades his mind again. He doesn't deserve to be a hero. He doesn't deserve to be Cu Chulainn.

With a shaking hand, he closes Tohko's eyes and mouth, and then crosses her hands on her chest. He'll leave the body there, lying in the meadow. There's really no good place to take her.

Then, he dashes back to the stair case. He needs to find a good place to isolate himself once his emotions stop being numb from shock.