Keeping a clear head

[savedbyasong]

Characters: Shion and open
Setting: Mailroom, graveyard, forest
Format: either!
Summary: Elena is gone, Shion slips further down the not okay scale and breaks a little bit more
Warnings: beserkness


[Mailroom]

Shion,

If you are getting this, then I am no longer in the Tower. I wish I could have remained to continue to train you and Xion, but it appears the Admins had other things in mind.

You have a strength in you that you should be proud of, and with Reno's training you will be able to defend those you love and care about. You are a Turk and you have been trained by the best. Remember to always keep calm, keep a clear head, and you will go far.

To be honest, I wasn't sure if Reno made a good decision in making you a Rookie. I'm glad to see that I was very wrong. Be good to Xion and watch over her for me. You two are partners, you can and should rely on one another during times of trouble and crisis.

I am very proud to have known you.

~Elena

Shion stood reading the letter, twice, three times, six times until the words were seared into his mind. Elena was gone... She couldn't be gone, it just wasn't possible. He refused to believe it, but had to make sure, and so he slipped the note into his pocket and made his way to the graveyard.

[Graveyard] So it was true, of course it was true. Elena wouldn't have sent such a thing as a joke, though he had hoped it was some kind of cruel trick. Tears came to his eyes but he swallowed hard.

"How can I protect them." He asked her grave. Reno, Rat, Safu, his mum... All people he loved and cared about, far out of his reach. How could he protect any of his friends... Even the one's already here. How could he protect them from cruelty worse than any he had seen in West Town, from people more powerful than gods.

He shook his head and turned away. "I've already failed."

[Forest] Keep calm, keep a clear head. Shion gathered food silently, picking out mushrooms and berries. More than enough for him and Xion, there were others that would need food too. He had to keep going, he touched his Turk pin. Even if it was hopeless he owed Reno that much. He couldn't give up.

As he searched for food anger rose in him, they had taken another of his friends, sent them to be alone in a world devoid of life. Another soul they had just given up on. "If you're going to imprison us, then at least keep us here." He spoke to the air and kicked a tree. His anger finding form as his hands balled into fists and he punched the bark.

His fists were soon bloody but he didn't stop, there was no one to hurt for hurting his friends but himself, and the trees but he couldn't stop the anger, it swirled around him and he was powerless to stop it.

Comments

[fusedstars]

Plan B it was then. Eyes briefly glowed, a surge of electricity coming from Hei's body into Shion's. A stun attack, long enough to knock the kid out and get him secure before he hurt himself anymore. Dragging this out longer wasn't going to do either of them any good, and Shion was beyond reason.

[savedbyasong]

Well that worked, Shion yelped in pain and was soon unconscious.

[fusedstars]

Least that worked. Hei sighed, pulling out the wires from under his coat. Might as well do this, and it wasn't good if he kept hurting himself. By the time Shion would wake up, he would find his arms and legs bound by tough and tight wires, and put against a tree, all while Hei was standing against a tree.

[savedbyasong]

Shion woke up slowly at first, and quicker when he remembered what had just happened. He tried to move and found himself bound, panic welled up in him and he began to struggle, writhing around in his bonds for a good few moments before he blinked fearfully at Hei.

[fusedstars]

Hei holds up his hands before him, showing he wasn't going to do anything.

"Relax, Shion," he spoke calmly. "I'm not going to hurt you. I just needed you to stop hurting yourself, and me. Considering what happened earlier, you were well beyond words."

[savedbyasong]

Shion struggled some more, but blinked at Hei, and felt shame flood him. He had lost control, again. He had attacked Hei, one of Elena's friends. He took a deep breath.

"I'm sorry..."

[fusedstars]

"After everything that has happened, I do not blame your actions," he told him. "You aren't the only person to do something like this, believe me."

[savedbyasong]

Shion looked down at his bound hands, "They taught me better though..."

It probably didn't take much to guess who he was talking about.

[fusedstars]

"A lesson learned doesn't always mean you can follow it with your emotions." He bends down, gently putting a hand on Shion's shoulder. "Believe me, we all make mistakes in times of anger and grief."

[savedbyasong]

Shion winced at the touch but blinked at him, tears forming in his eyes because no matter what Hei said he still considered it a failure.

[fusedstars]

Hei knelt down, pulling Shion into a bit of a hug. Difficult with the wires, but the boy needed some help from somebody. He may not have been Reno, nor could replace him, but he could try to help these kids, like others had helped him.

[savedbyasong]

Shion let himself be hugged, trembling with tears that threatened to burst out.