[partially open]

[concept_killer]

Characters: 1st Part: Satsujinki and those he killed. 2nd Part: Satsujinki and OPEN
Setting: Floor Twenty-Five and Cafeteria
Format: Open to any format
Summary: Satsujinki takes responsibility for what he's done under the influence of brain washing. With that, he is trying to continue as normal
Warnings: None


[Closed/Floor 25]
[Did he feel bad? Yes. Completely and utterly. But Satsujinki didn't let it bother him. That was how he had always lived his life and he wouldn't start letting things drag him down now. He was taking responsibility for his actions, even if they were out of his control. When he was just eight years old, he was taught that as long as he regretted what happened, tried to make up for it, and made sure that it didn't happen again, everything would be okay. That was just the nature of his abilities. Thankfully, in any situation he had been in, those he regretting killing always had a way of coming back to life. He'd count himself lucky on that.

But he had sent out a note to every one that he could remember. It said to meet him here on Floor 25. To be fair, he didn't know if he had gotten everyone's attention. On top of that, they might not even listen to his request, which meant he'd have to find them later. He was prepared for that.

Yes, waiting near the entrance to the floor, he was certainly prepared for the worst.]


[Open/Cafeteria]
[For someone who had just been through what was possibly the worst time in his entire life, he was certainly taking it easy.

Did the phantom pain of all of it still linger? Yes. But Satsujinki was used to living on the brink of sanity. Another large dose in his life hurried him closer to the end but he stood firm. His mind was already prepared for the kind of trauma it went through, mental walls already hard versus foreign invasion.

Which was why he was cooking. Considering the fact that others often wanted food not supplied by this place, Satsujinki made sure that there was extra. That way, if anyone asked, he would have enough to share. Not that there was a lot of variety. Meat aaaaaaaand...meat. But it was better than what was already available.

Feel free to take what he's already set to the side or just wonder how he can cook without actually seeing what's going on.]

Comments

[cherrygrail]

If I said that you've killed in the past, I wouldn't be lying, correct?

I'm not changing the subject.

[concept_killer]

Considering my name means 'killer', any Japanese person could tell you that.

[cherrygrail]

I wish I could say that I've killed. But what I've done is so inhumane that I've made whole neighborhoods disappear within seconds. I think a more apt word for it would be consuming.

That's why I have to make up for what I've done. I was a victim, but that doesn't change the fact that hundreds of people never got to continue living the rest of their lives out. I have to make up for that, no matter what. That's no one else's responsibility but my own.

[concept_killer]

That's a sad story but you've made a little mistake in there somewhere.

[cherrygrail]

And that would be?

[concept_killer]

Killing one person or killing a thousand people; it doesn't really matter. One is not a more terrible act than another. If you go thinking like that, then you'll never be satisfied with yourself.

All that matters is that you know it was a bad thing to do and you can work from there.

[cherrygrail]

I guess I should take your advice. After all, you know a lot more about this than I do.

[concept_killer]

I've...killed a lot of people. I would have liked to avoid it but the Church and Mage's Association never stopped sending people to kill or capture me.

[cherrygrail]

It's not fair to blame yourself if it was mostly in self defense.

[concept_killer]

It doesn't matter. I still did it so it's my responsibility. Either way, it's not like I'm taking it hard.

[cherrygrail]

You're still serious about it.

[ Which is something she respects. ]

[concept_killer]

Of course I am.

[cherrygrail]

Good!

[ She gives a cheerful nod to herself. ]

Either way, if I need anything from you, I'll make sure to tell you right away! Do you have a mailbox? That would be an easy way to contact you.

[concept_killer]

I do. I don't remember the number but it has my name on it so that's no big deal.

[cherrygrail]

Then you'll be hearing from me soon, hopefully!

[concept_killer]

Just don't put anything weird in there.

[cherrygrail]

I'll try to use my common sense about what weird would be.

[concept_killer]

Can I even trust that, vegetable girl?

[cherrygrail]

Vegetables are wholesome! Plus, you have to do whatever I say now, right?

[concept_killer]

Guh. I guess I did agree to that.

[cherrygrail]

You can even help me with the gardening! I'm sure that will make you happy, right?

[concept_killer]

...at least it's something I know how to do.

[cherrygrail]

Good! That means I won't need to teach you. We can get started right away.

[concept_killer]

I suppose that can be something that happens. Yeah.

[cherrygrail]

Ah, don't worry, I was exaggerating, I think the beginning of the next month is better for planting crops anyway. In the meantime, I'll start gathering seeds and find a good place for planting.