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towerofanimus2013-05-05 04:48 pm
swordedpast) wrote in towerofanimus2013-05-05 04:48 pm
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What a shame we carry with us
Characters: Archer (swordedpast) and OPEN.
Setting: The dormitories and floor 20 in early May, as well as various other floors as the month progresses.
Format: Tagger's choice.
Summary: In the aftermath of last month's tragedies, Archer puts his all into a plan to reach out beyond the tower. Not that he expects it to succeed.
Warnings: Nothing so far.
It's stupid to say that it feels like his heart's been ripped out, because he doubts he still has one of those anyway, and if he did it wouldn't belong to him. No, it feels more like he's the heart that's been ripped out: he belongs at Rin's side, cooking her breakfast or watching over her as she traverses the tower, but he can't return to that existence now that he's betrayed her.
This is the second time he's betrayed a girl wearing that face. The first time was bad enough; it too gave him that terrible feeling of dislocation, of having wrenched himself out of the one place in the world he finally belonged. But he'd only been with Rin Tohsaka for a matter of days. Not even two weeks. He served Rin Matou in one way or another for six months: six months in which she was the only thing in all the worlds he had left. It's been a troubling time the whole way down, of course, as they're both broken people living in a tower of horrors, but it's still had its good points (and he's held her in his arms as well, and that's not something that can be taken back even if he swears it didn't mean anything).
Now he doesn't have that. He broke it, like he's broken everything in his life and what followed it. She was the last thing left to him and now he has nothing.
Archer broods on this for a while, and for him, "brooding" includes some rather unhealthy things, such as murdering Shirou Emiya and luring Arturia, his fellow guardian, into killing him. He broods like that, but inevitably he's back. Now, he's a broken person, but he's also a pragmatist. If he's not protecting and caring for Rin, he has to do something. Didn't he swear to fight the administrators so that others could save the worlds in peace?
Heartsick and as empty as he's ever been, Archer moves on as best he can.
[ dormitories ]
[ There's nothing particularly odd about what Archer's doing here--he's sitting at a terminal, slowly but steadily paging through the network with a cool, inscrutable expression on his face. That's the normal part, anyway. He's also got a few dozen papers at his side, and he regularly takes his attention away from the computer screen to write something down on them.
Get close enough, and one can see that the writing on the papers is plain block lettering in English, spelling out a simple message:
REQUESTING INFORMATION ABOUT, ASSISTANCE OPPOSING "RUANA" OR SUBJECT 037.
WE ARE HER CAPTIVES. ]
[ floor 20 ]
[ It might be a bit inconvenient if anyone's trying to make their way up the ramp around the edge of the tower. About halfway between this floor and the next, Archer stands on the edge of the ramp, a great black bow in his hands and a pile of papers at his feet (naturally, the ones he was writing on in the dormitories), weighted down with a couple of rocks. Every time he pulls an arrow out of nowhere, he reaches down to pull another paper from the pile and attach it to the arrow. Then he draws back the bow and fires it off the side of the tower. When that's done, he begins with another arrow.
He repeats this process about three dozen times, until all the papers are used up. ]
[ ELSEWHERE ]
[ But even with plans underway to act against the administrators, both his own and those of others, Archer has time to brood. He can be found doing just that here and there: skulking about the snowy ruins on floor 73, or sitting atop mausoleums to gaze out over the cemetery on floor 48, or gazing at the universes being destroyed on floor 12.
And now and then he can be found in the cafeteria, cooking. It's not nearly as common an occurrence as it was in the months prior, but he did tell Urotsuki he'd cook for her as well as for Rin sometimes, so he can't entirely abandon the task. ]
swordedpast) and OPEN.Setting: The dormitories and floor 20 in early May, as well as various other floors as the month progresses.
Format: Tagger's choice.
Summary: In the aftermath of last month's tragedies, Archer puts his all into a plan to reach out beyond the tower. Not that he expects it to succeed.
Warnings: Nothing so far.
It's stupid to say that it feels like his heart's been ripped out, because he doubts he still has one of those anyway, and if he did it wouldn't belong to him. No, it feels more like he's the heart that's been ripped out: he belongs at Rin's side, cooking her breakfast or watching over her as she traverses the tower, but he can't return to that existence now that he's betrayed her.
This is the second time he's betrayed a girl wearing that face. The first time was bad enough; it too gave him that terrible feeling of dislocation, of having wrenched himself out of the one place in the world he finally belonged. But he'd only been with Rin Tohsaka for a matter of days. Not even two weeks. He served Rin Matou in one way or another for six months: six months in which she was the only thing in all the worlds he had left. It's been a troubling time the whole way down, of course, as they're both broken people living in a tower of horrors, but it's still had its good points (and he's held her in his arms as well, and that's not something that can be taken back even if he swears it didn't mean anything).
Now he doesn't have that. He broke it, like he's broken everything in his life and what followed it. She was the last thing left to him and now he has nothing.
Archer broods on this for a while, and for him, "brooding" includes some rather unhealthy things, such as murdering Shirou Emiya and luring Arturia, his fellow guardian, into killing him. He broods like that, but inevitably he's back. Now, he's a broken person, but he's also a pragmatist. If he's not protecting and caring for Rin, he has to do something. Didn't he swear to fight the administrators so that others could save the worlds in peace?
Heartsick and as empty as he's ever been, Archer moves on as best he can.
[ dormitories ]
[ There's nothing particularly odd about what Archer's doing here--he's sitting at a terminal, slowly but steadily paging through the network with a cool, inscrutable expression on his face. That's the normal part, anyway. He's also got a few dozen papers at his side, and he regularly takes his attention away from the computer screen to write something down on them.
Get close enough, and one can see that the writing on the papers is plain block lettering in English, spelling out a simple message:
REQUESTING INFORMATION ABOUT, ASSISTANCE OPPOSING "RUANA" OR SUBJECT 037.
WE ARE HER CAPTIVES. ]
[ floor 20 ]
[ It might be a bit inconvenient if anyone's trying to make their way up the ramp around the edge of the tower. About halfway between this floor and the next, Archer stands on the edge of the ramp, a great black bow in his hands and a pile of papers at his feet (naturally, the ones he was writing on in the dormitories), weighted down with a couple of rocks. Every time he pulls an arrow out of nowhere, he reaches down to pull another paper from the pile and attach it to the arrow. Then he draws back the bow and fires it off the side of the tower. When that's done, he begins with another arrow.
He repeats this process about three dozen times, until all the papers are used up. ]
[ ELSEWHERE ]
[ But even with plans underway to act against the administrators, both his own and those of others, Archer has time to brood. He can be found doing just that here and there: skulking about the snowy ruins on floor 73, or sitting atop mausoleums to gaze out over the cemetery on floor 48, or gazing at the universes being destroyed on floor 12.
And now and then he can be found in the cafeteria, cooking. It's not nearly as common an occurrence as it was in the months prior, but he did tell Urotsuki he'd cook for her as well as for Rin sometimes, so he can't entirely abandon the task. ]
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...Please allow me one last question out of curiosity.
[She is much politer now that nothing blocks her way.]
What are you trying to do with all these papers? Some sort of test?
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[Archer, on the other hand, is never polite.]
It's something like a test, and something like a vain hope.
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[That seems extremely stupid to her.]
...Good luck.
[Who is she to care how he wastes his time and effort?]