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towerofanimus2013-05-29 11:12 pm
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Log 021 | I warned you
Characters: Sephiroth and/or/via Ryoji, Some Locked to specific CR, Open prompts also.
Setting: Various locations throughout the Tower. 28th - 30th May.
Format: Prose intro, then Action (Italics for projected thoughts)
Summary: Pursuant to making Ryoji's life in the Tower as awkward and painful as possible, Sephiroth takes the next step in expanding his control of Ryoji.
Warnings: Mind control - Ryoji: Sephiroth may interfere with/control Ryoji at any point during any thread. Ryoji's character death will be inevitable after any thread under the Finale. If anyone goes hunting for Sephiroth, any action to stop him cannot happen before Ryoji is killed.
Throughout all of the suggestive thought and illusion projected at Ryoji, Sephiroth has not once ever made it clear that he's the one behind all of it. In fact he has always taken great care to be subtle about it. He knew that Ryoji has his correct assumption, though it takes very little effort at all to make Ryoji see what the consequences of telling others could be. Sephiroth had spent a long time, months even, making himself aware of Ryoji's movements throughout the Tower; he has paid special attention to those whom Ryoji values most. Just for insurance.
That was about to change now. After so many times, it was so easy now for Sephiroth's mind to find and connect with Ryoji's even from opposite ends of the Tower. Over the next couple of days he would test this power to its fullest, in order to find the limitations - if there were any. To think that Ryoji was so susceptible without even the cellular prerequisite that should be required, this presents so many other opportunities to explore.
Now he would tell the boy, in clear terms that he was behind all of this. So that he could fully appreciate what was to come, and know that he deserved all of it.
1) Evening 28th May, Dorm 04-16 [Telepathic/Locked to Ryoji, OPEN for Ryoji & Anyone/Dormies afterwards]
Ryoji-chan, you have been marvelous.
[It's easier than Sephiroth expected to transmit his voice across brainwaves while the intended is sleeping. He expected some sort of interference from the Tower but there was none; they certainly knew about his actions, else why that encouraging writing on the wall.]
2) 29th May - Any floor in the Tower [Open]
[He could be returning from the Cafeteria, finishing up training in the Gymnasium, it could even be as the elevator doors opened onto any floor Ryoji had been heading too, the effect is the same. At an unannounced point in the day suddenly wherever Ryoji is will appear empty. Empty of monsters, empty of whomever he was just talking to.
It will feel as if until now he'd been dreaming and now has woken up. Every floor, every corridor is empty except for a faint black mist on the floor; dusty as if the Tower has lain undisturbed for millennia. Though familiar enough that he would know he has been here all along, has been alone all along. Of course it's only an illusion, but if anyone touches Ryoji it will feel as if only a ghost were touching him, though if he listens hard enough he might be able to hear them yell at him; but it was all a dream, he's remembering what isn't real. He's free to wander what he sees as the empty Tower alone, all day. Though perhaps someone might want to interfere before he wanders unknowing into the more dangerous parts of the actual Tower.]
ooc-Note to all responders: Ryoji may be able to hear you if you physically touch him or yell loud enough and his path isn't being controlled in any way so it's relatively easy to usher him around though this illusion is unbreakable for the whole day unless Sephiroth is disturbed. Any other questions, ping me/Venus on Plurk
3) 30th May [Locked: Ryoji/Nesir] - Gym Floor 39
[Ryoji will think he is more aware, of when Sephiroth is there or not. This could be another illusion he's causing though, there isn't any way to tell. It could be passed as paranoia. Except when he feels the need to project his voice to make Ryoji know for sure that this is his doing.
Mostly Ryoji will be left to go about his routine but Sephiroth will be waiting inside of him, ready to control an action or reaction that Ryoji might not so naturally carry out.
But it's not so unnatural for the boy to go training after all. Though when Ryoji comes across Nesir training in the Gymnasium, Sephiroth will make Ryoji pause to watch her. Though he does not interfere in any other way for the time being. It would be time to test loyalties now, he thinks, to see how far their 'friendship' really could be pushed. Based on how his meddling with Yukiko and Ryoji's relationship had gone, he's confident he could direct this either way.]
4) FINALE Later 30th May, Floor 11 [Locked to Diarmuid & Yukiko]
I wonder how far this can go. Lets go for a walk.
[Sephiroth hasn't directly made Ryoji go to the 11th Floor, rather suggested to him on a subconscious level that it might be somewhere he felt like going right now. Why go to all the effort directly controlling a person when only a suggestion is needed.
That's when he'd chosen to project his voice. Before long, Ryoji is headed away from the stairwell towards the edge of the Tower, through the shallower parts of the lake just before it meets outside. If Ryoji loses his footing, Sephiroth will of course let him fall and struggle with the water before resuming his suggestion all anew once he's back on his feet again.
How far are they up from the ground, anyway?]
Dormitory 03-02 [Open - during/inbetween Prompts in above]
[His dormitory is the safest location where he can lose his outward inhibitions enough to focus entirely inward and then directly towards that wavelength that his mind so easily picks up on now. At first he had tried to keep his outward senses sharpened as well, for protection, but there was a god-awful noise going on that after a minute left his ears tingling. Was that the Tower trying to interfere? Could be. Sephiroth would have to do this another way.
It wasn't as if anyone he shared the Dormitory had earned any emnity though so he'd just have to trust that. The reward far outweighs the risk, knowing the extent of his power over Ryoji is crucial. Besides, shutting down most other senses helps him to keep focused.
So for the majority of both days Sephiroth can be found, sat cross-legged on his bed in the Dormitory. His consciousness wrapped within something akin to a medatative trance, though not without that feeling of power that some who wander close to the room might be able to pick up on. He comes out of this trance only to catch roughly 3 to 4 hours of sleep, or to leave the Dormitory and hit the showers as he does at least twice daily. It must be taxing, to keep this up constantly for so long but Sephiroth doesn't show it.
His expression remains disturbingly neutral though if anyone glances over they might see the faintest sign of a smirk sometimes.]
Setting: Various locations throughout the Tower. 28th - 30th May.
Format: Prose intro, then Action (Italics for projected thoughts)
Summary: Pursuant to making Ryoji's life in the Tower as awkward and painful as possible, Sephiroth takes the next step in expanding his control of Ryoji.
Warnings: Mind control - Ryoji: Sephiroth may interfere with/control Ryoji at any point during any thread. Ryoji's character death will be inevitable after any thread under the Finale. If anyone goes hunting for Sephiroth, any action to stop him cannot happen before Ryoji is killed.
Throughout all of the suggestive thought and illusion projected at Ryoji, Sephiroth has not once ever made it clear that he's the one behind all of it. In fact he has always taken great care to be subtle about it. He knew that Ryoji has his correct assumption, though it takes very little effort at all to make Ryoji see what the consequences of telling others could be. Sephiroth had spent a long time, months even, making himself aware of Ryoji's movements throughout the Tower; he has paid special attention to those whom Ryoji values most. Just for insurance.
That was about to change now. After so many times, it was so easy now for Sephiroth's mind to find and connect with Ryoji's even from opposite ends of the Tower. Over the next couple of days he would test this power to its fullest, in order to find the limitations - if there were any. To think that Ryoji was so susceptible without even the cellular prerequisite that should be required, this presents so many other opportunities to explore.
Now he would tell the boy, in clear terms that he was behind all of this. So that he could fully appreciate what was to come, and know that he deserved all of it.
1) Evening 28th May, Dorm 04-16 [Telepathic/Locked to Ryoji, OPEN for Ryoji & Anyone/Dormies afterwards]
Ryoji-chan, you have been marvelous.
[It's easier than Sephiroth expected to transmit his voice across brainwaves while the intended is sleeping. He expected some sort of interference from the Tower but there was none; they certainly knew about his actions, else why that encouraging writing on the wall.]
2) 29th May - Any floor in the Tower [Open]
[He could be returning from the Cafeteria, finishing up training in the Gymnasium, it could even be as the elevator doors opened onto any floor Ryoji had been heading too, the effect is the same. At an unannounced point in the day suddenly wherever Ryoji is will appear empty. Empty of monsters, empty of whomever he was just talking to.
It will feel as if until now he'd been dreaming and now has woken up. Every floor, every corridor is empty except for a faint black mist on the floor; dusty as if the Tower has lain undisturbed for millennia. Though familiar enough that he would know he has been here all along, has been alone all along. Of course it's only an illusion, but if anyone touches Ryoji it will feel as if only a ghost were touching him, though if he listens hard enough he might be able to hear them yell at him; but it was all a dream, he's remembering what isn't real. He's free to wander what he sees as the empty Tower alone, all day. Though perhaps someone might want to interfere before he wanders unknowing into the more dangerous parts of the actual Tower.]
3) 30th May [Locked: Ryoji/Nesir] - Gym Floor 39
[Ryoji will think he is more aware, of when Sephiroth is there or not. This could be another illusion he's causing though, there isn't any way to tell. It could be passed as paranoia. Except when he feels the need to project his voice to make Ryoji know for sure that this is his doing.
Mostly Ryoji will be left to go about his routine but Sephiroth will be waiting inside of him, ready to control an action or reaction that Ryoji might not so naturally carry out.
But it's not so unnatural for the boy to go training after all. Though when Ryoji comes across Nesir training in the Gymnasium, Sephiroth will make Ryoji pause to watch her. Though he does not interfere in any other way for the time being. It would be time to test loyalties now, he thinks, to see how far their 'friendship' really could be pushed. Based on how his meddling with Yukiko and Ryoji's relationship had gone, he's confident he could direct this either way.]
4) FINALE Later 30th May, Floor 11 [Locked to Diarmuid & Yukiko]
I wonder how far this can go. Lets go for a walk.
[Sephiroth hasn't directly made Ryoji go to the 11th Floor, rather suggested to him on a subconscious level that it might be somewhere he felt like going right now. Why go to all the effort directly controlling a person when only a suggestion is needed.
That's when he'd chosen to project his voice. Before long, Ryoji is headed away from the stairwell towards the edge of the Tower, through the shallower parts of the lake just before it meets outside. If Ryoji loses his footing, Sephiroth will of course let him fall and struggle with the water before resuming his suggestion all anew once he's back on his feet again.
How far are they up from the ground, anyway?]
Dormitory 03-02 [Open - during/inbetween Prompts in above]
[His dormitory is the safest location where he can lose his outward inhibitions enough to focus entirely inward and then directly towards that wavelength that his mind so easily picks up on now. At first he had tried to keep his outward senses sharpened as well, for protection, but there was a god-awful noise going on that after a minute left his ears tingling. Was that the Tower trying to interfere? Could be. Sephiroth would have to do this another way.
It wasn't as if anyone he shared the Dormitory had earned any emnity though so he'd just have to trust that. The reward far outweighs the risk, knowing the extent of his power over Ryoji is crucial. Besides, shutting down most other senses helps him to keep focused.
So for the majority of both days Sephiroth can be found, sat cross-legged on his bed in the Dormitory. His consciousness wrapped within something akin to a medatative trance, though not without that feeling of power that some who wander close to the room might be able to pick up on. He comes out of this trance only to catch roughly 3 to 4 hours of sleep, or to leave the Dormitory and hit the showers as he does at least twice daily. It must be taxing, to keep this up constantly for so long but Sephiroth doesn't show it.
His expression remains disturbingly neutral though if anyone glances over they might see the faintest sign of a smirk sometimes.]
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He shakes his slowly, unable to meet their eyes.]
I know you're scared, and worried, but I have to check this on my own. You don't know what I'm looking for.
[No one does. Ryoji doesn't even know, but he's sure if he makes it all the way to the edge, he'll see it.
Yukiko's fear, however, gives him pause for a moment, enough for him to resist just running over to the end of the floor, at least for the moment. He doesn't want her to be so afraid, and he doesn't want her trapped in the situation that causes that fear.]
Maybe I can lead you back to the staircase, and after that, I can go and check myself? If you're still scared, my... my father will stay with you.
[He flushes at the realization. His lover meeting his adoptive parent... it wasn't an introduction that he imagined would go like this. Hopefully they'll talk in better circumstances after they're done on this floor.]
[Warning: Taking Ryoji's voice directly for a moment]
He's let him stop and have his little heart-to-heart's but now it's threatening to undo the point he wants to make to Ryoji on this floor. That HE can take control at any time, and how he can make him do ANYTHING - even the things he doesn't want to do, or might hurt him or any of those he cares about. Sephiroth doesn't have to get directly involved anymore.
He takes a steadying breath and pushes his will over Ryoji just a fraction deeper. He makes it feel acutely like he needs to get away now, like his friends are starving him of his freedom. He might want to let go of Yukiko's hand now as the words come roaring out.]
"Just leave me alone. Both of you just let me deal with this myself!"
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[The words are growled and unconsciously Diarmuid's hand tightens on Ryoji's shoulder. There is no doubt in his mind those words are not truly Ryoji's. Just like there is little doubt left in his mind that Tohko's suspicions about Sephiroth were well founded. However, Diarmuid has no wish to speak to one so weak that he would hide in the shadows hurting others from a distance, and so turns his attention back to Ryoji who he knows is strong willed and if given the right encouragement will find a way to break free.]
Ryoji...this thing you must check on so badly alone. Tell me what it is. Tell me that one thing and why you must do it, and then I will consider allowing you to do it alone. It's all I ask. Just give me those details.
[Prove to me this is actually what you want. See that its vagueness means it is merely a part of his game...]
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She learned one lesson well over that year of working with shadows and fog and against those that would obscure the truth: part of it is a power game. The way to win against them is to show them them that people are strong enough to embrace those things that they wish to hide. That removes the power that the ones manipulating the shadows have.]
And there's one thing I need to remind you of, too, one thing this 'Sephiroth' doesn't understand, but you and I do, Ryoji: if any part of him trying to manipulate you is because you're afraid of what you might do? You don't need to be.
Because maybe my own Shadow doesn't look like your other forms do. Maybe it isn't as scary. But it's a monster that came from me and it tried to hurt my friends. They made sure it didn't.
We'll make sure it doesn't. We'll bring you back to yourself - and as far as I'm concerned, this is the real you - as many times as it takes. You know we will.
That power doesn't have to be used just to hurt. It can protect. I'm positive you can do it. Just like me. We aren't different.
[ooc: and your bgm for this tag is http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=j_SPdmQ7TFQ]
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He wants to tell Yukiko too. That he doesn't want to be controlled, not at all. He has better control of those powers on his own than anyone else could, and if Sephiroth got a hold of them, Ryoji would cause a lot more trouble.
The fact is, though, that he can't say want he truly wants to. Sephiroth's own anger is bleeding into him, and he can't seem to uncover his own feelings long enough to voice them.]
You both don't understand! I need to do this myself. I don't need your permission.
[He takes a few deep breaths, tries to reign in his outburst.]
I-I'll be okay. Please don't worry about me.
[No matter what happens, he doesn't want them to be upset.]
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Yukiko though. Clearly she knows a lot more about Ryoji than Sephiroth has uncovered by puppeting him around, piggybacking off of his thoughts and intensifying his impluses. Sephiroth wonders idly if Yukiko even realizes that her own closeness to Ryoji has been spurred on by him. That delicious memory when he'd seen that rumor written on the wall and figured out that he'd been the trigger - the opportunities with this power of his could be very useful.
What is this Shadow? It doesn't take much effort for Sephiroth to change his focus to be more inverted to Ryoji rather than paying much attention to what is going on between the three of them. Curled up somewhere inside Ryoji's subconscious is something that all too eagerly indulges itself in the firey anger that Sephiroth offers it. Oh, now this is something new
His own anger resonates with Thanatos' and the Shadow doesn't need much more encouragement than that, considering how worked up Ryoji is already.]
See Ryoji, I knew you were more than human
[Hopefully Sephiroth will be able to hold on for the ride.]
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Diarmuid has no interest in understanding cowards, Sephiroth.If he were less of a person, Diarmuid might be jealous of how well Yukiko seems to understand what is going on with Ryoji. Things Diarmuid doesn't understand or even know because he has focused on trying to help Ryoji move passed all that. Instead, he finds himself filled with joy that the boy he looks at as his son has someone who cares about him and knows him so well.]
Yukiko is right, Ryoji. I asked you are very simple question and you couldn't answer it because you don't know. Something is wrong. Please, realize that. Look into yourself and find that foreign presence and push it out. I have seen your strength. I know you can do it! Don't be afraid.
I have said it before and I will say it as many times as I have to. I care about you and that means I will worry about you. Always.
whoops, this kind of renders the letter in Dia's inbox moot
But when it comes to matters of the heart, that control isn't nearly so good. All of this is so new to her, and it was painful enough knowing that things were manipulated, on two levels. It's been a comfort knowing that the original feelings were there before that manipulation even started. If she had any way of knowing Sephiroth was laughing about it all right now?
That careful control of her emotions would be gone, and with it, her willingness to stay there and to not confront him. It would probably be a fatal loss of control for Yukiko.
It's really for the best right now that she doesn't have any way to know. That way, she can keep her head and her control.]
I never once stopped caring about you, once those feelings started. And I'm just going to say it, honestly, from my heart, since one of the jerks who tried to manipulate my - no, both of our hearts - is listening, and so he knows the truth: those feelings didn't start between us because of your manipulation.
[Yukiko takes a deep breath. This is not easy for her, and that's clear by the blush on her face, but she's determined to continue.]
They started after I reached out to you, Ryoji, back in April, when you weren't yourself. You hurt me under the Tower's control, and when I saw you, you were scared. You didn't want to say anything. We talked, that day, for a really long time. About what happened, about being from the same world, about what happened, about my experiences, about yours.
Sometime during that conversation, you took my hand, and that was the spark for what turned into feelings that - well, they're something I hadn't felt for anyone honestly before. Before that, I hadn't let myself feel them because of things like school and work and telling myself there wasn't any time, or because of everything that happened at home. The one time I did feel them before that? It wasn't real.
But that moment, that spark, and the feelings I still have, despite everything? Those aren't anything anyone manipulated.
I care about you, too, Ryoji. I'm not going to stop worrying. I can't just turn those feelings off like that. It's not how it works.
I've said this to you before, and I believe it: you are so much stronger than this. If you need my strength, too? It's yours. You don't need to ask.
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[In seconds, Ryoji's eyes widen, and he backs away as quick as he can, wrenching himself out of Diarmuid's and Yukiko's hands. Something is wrong, far more than this whole situation had been at the beginning, and there's nothing else to focus on but escape. Not Diarmuid's reassuring words, not the spark he feels that Yukiko so perfectly described, just getting away.]
Please, get out of here! You have to leave! It's not safe!
[They'd already determined that this floor was dangerous, but at Sephiroth's voice in his head, Ryoji relinquishes control and a completely different threat appears. Thanatos growls, sword at the ready, though it hesitates for a moment, sizing up its opponents. Only for a moment, then it pounces, blade threatening to cut Yukiko down where she stands.]
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And then the boy growls and changes.
Immediately, Diarmuid's spear appears in his hand. He might not have ever seen Ryoji like this before, but he remembers the boy mentioning that his Thanatos form used a sword when they were talking about how he should be trained. It only takes seconds for Diarmuid to connect that information and recognize what they are facing now.
He dashes in to deflect the attack aimed at Yukiko, but stays between the two of them only for the few seconds needed to turn away the attack since he isn't sure how Yukiko fights. Diarmuid would have no trouble dodging her attacks, he's sure, but she has no way of knowing he can do that, and he doesn't want her to hesitate out of concern for hitting him.
There can be no hesitation if they want to save Ryoji now and not be hurt themselves.]
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Come, Konohana-Sakuya!
[With that cry, a blue Tarot card appears in front of her, and she moves to slash it in half with the fan in her right hand. The moment the firebird-like creature appears behind her, she appears to float upwards for a moment, giving her own magic power a boost. There's no talking between them; instead it's as if they're dancing the same dance. She throws her left fan forward, aiming at Thanatos' chest - there's no please, hit, she trusts her aim, just as she trusts it will be pulled back to her when the Agi spell that follows it a few seconds later hits.
Yukiko just hopes that the fan toss is enough warning. She's being careful to only use single-target spells, just to minimize any risk, and a small one - boosted as it is - first, to make sure.]
sorry for the wait orz
Thanatos screeches with anger, swinging his sword around haphazardly before casting a Megidola. The room fills with a green light rapidly, and Yukiko and Diarmuid only have a few moments to dive for cover before the explosion hits.
Even if they do avoid the attack, it's partially a diversion. The light is blinding enough that Diarmuid may not notice the blade pointed towards him as Thanatos charges.]
No worries!
But now is not the time to think about those things. The memories distract him from what he needs to be focused on--Ryoji. He draws his focus back just in time to see the blade coming at him. In fact, he is unable to dodge the strike completely and ends up with a shallow cut across his arm. He is focused again, though, and so the slight pain doesn't even register. Instead, because he is so close to the boy, he focuses on taking advantage of that. His spear vanishes from his hands replaced only moments later with the swords he is carrying at his waist. He then strikes out with them--a quick feign with one hand and a harder blow with the other meant to, hopefully, disarm the boy.
The whole time, he is very careful not to let himself stay between Yukiko and Ryoji for long. That fire spell had been very impressive. He wants her to feel as comfortable as possible using them.]
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Yukiko can heal as well as she can fight. She fires off two fast Dia spells, one for Diarmuid and one for herself - it's less healing, but she knows that right now, she needs to focus on attacking.
She also knows that the longer this fight goes on, the worse it will be, and she also knows there's a limit to how long she'll be able to go without having to boost her fire magic again.
Yukiko and Konohana-Sakuya start twirling in tandem, and at the end, the resulting fire spell is a boosted Agidyne.
...ever since she gained the ability to do it, Yukiko has rather enjoyed the irony that's inherent in having a name that means 'snow girl' while being able to cast fire spells like that one, but it doesn't feel the same way right now. It feels a bit sad, but she shakes it off. She'll figure it out later.]
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Still, that rage and determination means he won't give in, even now. He simply backs off, watching them even as he attempts to retrieve his sword.]
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Ryoji! I know you are still there! Fight your way back out! I have faith in your strength!
[Maybe this isn't the right choice, but he has to try. If they are forced to seriously hurt or even kill Ryoji then Sephiroth will have won.]
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Those of the Priestess Arcana are said to be those of the quiet voice inside, the ones that guide, the ones that listen. Yukiko might not be aware of what's generally said, and not good at trusting her instincts all of the time, but right now, she's completely silent as she moves forward, listening to her instincts.
One last hit is all it will take, she thinks, and it's a light one - a tap to Thanatos' chest with one of her fans.]
Sleep now. Your time is done here.
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Thankfully, that short pause is enough for Yukiko to find the space to deal the finishing blow. As small as the hit is, it's enough to send Thanatos staggering, low, monstrous noises eventually becoming human as Ryoji changes back.
He's still shaky, and he puts a hand up to his head as he tries to get the world to stop spinning. He glances up at the both of them... and that's when his anger completely disappears, though that may not be a good thing. He inhales sharply, realizing what he did... yet again, he'd tried to kill the people close to him. He tries to tell himself it's not his fault, but his mind still isn't really his yet.
He tries to stammer out something, tries to apologize, tries to tell them to leave again, but nothing can come out. He doesn't seem to have any other option besides running away.
And that's what he does. He turns and runs to the edge of the room, towards where he was meant to be all along, towards those feelings of loneliness. After all that, he just wants to be alone. Entirely alone, he hopes Sephiroth knows. Ryoji's begging him in his head to just end this. He doesn't think he can take any more of this.]
Is Sephiroth going to tag back into rotation now or are we just going to wrap this?
So, he turns away when he should not have and lets his attention focus on the person he should not have been focusing on. As a result, he doesn't see Ryoji start to run. If he had, it would have been no problem for Diarmuid to cut in front of him and stop him, but he doesn't realize what the boy is doing until it is too late...]
same question; response won't matter, though
She closes her eyes, then, casting Mediarahan on all three of them - full healing. That's her limit, though; Konohana-Sakuya vanishes, after the glow of the spell fades. Despite the fact that she's fine physically, all that magic on a floor that has some suppression of powers going on has had an effect on her - she might be unhurt, but she's exhausted.
Yukiko stumbles, unable to stay on her feet any longer, and only just manages to fall in a way that won't hurt her. She does catch Ryoji running out of the corner of her eye, but she can't do anything physically to stop him.
She calls out, but her voice is weak:]
Ryoji...please come back...
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That being said, Sephiroth hadn't had any control in any of those actions, that had all been Ryoji's inner beast. That concentration of raw strength and brutal rage so uncaring for consequence, uncaring of those even Ryoji himself cared about. Whether Thanatos could indeed be tamed by Sephiroth's psychic power would be food for later thoughts.
Even so, again Ryoji had delivered results had far exceeded Sephiroth's expectations. He might hear a loud, slow clapping of applause in his head for a moment. He might picture that knowing smile as Sephiroth turns that loneliness like a blade inside of Ryoji. Pointing towards that edge and the abyss beyond it.]
Then end it. I won't stop you.
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... He can't help but look back once though, at Yukiko's voice. Even if it's a lie, he so wants to believe it's real, that he can come back and help her to her feet and see her beautiful face, but he can't. Not now, not when he's still trapped. Diarmuid wants him to be strong, but this is the only way he can fight. He can't do that in Diarmuid's arms, even if he just wants to hug them both again.]
I'm sorry...
[It's all he can say to explain himself before he lets himself lean back. The air supports him for a second before he loses his footing entirely, and that moment seems to last an eternity. It at least gives him time to think a while longer. He hopes that they won't blame themselves, hopes that they won't be sad... He regrets not taking longer to say goodbye. He almost thinks he can hear them, still trying to stop him at the end.
And then he's falling, and soon, he doesn't hear anything.]