Because that is not acceptable! Who am I to choose who lives and dies--who is saved and who isn't--when I should not even be here myself?

[The answer is out of his mouth much more quickly and harshly than Diarmuid expects. In fact, his eyes go wide when he realizes just how hard his words are. That shocked expression lasts only a few seconds before it is replaced with a much more ashamed one.]

I'm sorry, Tohko. I didn't mean to snap at you. It's just...

[He pauses, gaze dropping from her face.]

I am tired of people suffering so much here when they should not have to. I don't want to see them suffer anymore and if that means finding a way to save everyone then that is what I must do. They are all valuable and loved by someone. None of them should have to be forsaken.