Another piece shatters

[swordofzero]

Characters: Suzaku, Diarmuid (and roommates if they want!) and Rolo (with bonus Lelouch if wanted!)
Setting: Diarmuid's room (about 5am) and then the next day
Format: Either
Summary: After meeting Lelouch Suzaku breaks a little bit more, this time he is good and doesn't hide in the morgue.

Then he goes to futilely argue with Rolo

Warnings: Angst mostly

[Room 4-16] When Suzaku had left Lelouch he had been furious, confused, upset. Mostly at himself, he still hoped he was wrong. But it was too much of a coincidence. Still the idea that this Lelouch could be from a version of his own world, still trapped under Charles' Geass...

It didn't bear thinking about. But he didn't have much choice. Lelouch was here, Suzaku hadn't found Rolo get but he doubted it would be long before Rolo and Lelouch met. Rolo wasn't ready to be faced with this Lelouch, probably would never be. In a lot of ways this was crueler than a Lelouch who hated him, at least that would keep him in reality.

Or as close to reality as anything got around here. Suzaku made his way to one of the darker floors, monster hunting would keep his mind off things and he couldn't wait until night time.

His fighting went into the night, sleep was not going to happen, he killed and killed again. It was the only thing he was good at and the people of the tower needed real weapons. He could be of some use.

The night passed in flashes of memory, a blow too many and he came to awareness having lose time. He was used to it though, it barely made him disorientated, he had gotten used to battling with his Geass.

So he survived, trying to wipe out the memories of his anger, Lelouch behind the mask, Euphemia's smile. Taking Lelouch before the emperor, letting him take away his memories, replacing them. Taking away everything that made him Lelouch.

Leaving him the polite school boy Suzaku had spoken to today.

It wasn't until he tried to go to a non powered floor and found himself at the bottom of the stair case, another gap in memory that he realised how far he had gone.

His first instinct was to keep going, keep fighting; keep killing. Until morning, until he was calm, avoid people. Avoid everything.

But he had made a promise not to give up. So carefully, going through powered floors and the elevator he found himself on the fourth dormitory floor. He had knocked on the door before he realised it was about five O clock in the morning and even if Diarmuid would not mind his roommates might.

[The next day] His mind was a bit clearer, a bit more focused and so he went searching for Rolo, they needed to talk. Though the boy had still not forgave him Suzaku still felt responsible for him and didn't want him hurt, and he would be hurt. It was practically inevitable.

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[swordofzero]

Suzaku nodded, "I would rather they turn against me than Rolo getting hurt. Or Lelouch... If he is under Geass it is probably kinder to make sure he stays as much as possible on powered floors... even if such illusions go against everything he believes in."

[oathshackledbird]

"I am sorry that you have to make a choice like this. It is...so complex. Almost as if there is no right answer and no way to win. I wish I had better advice for you, but I don't. However, there is something I want you to promise me," Diarmuid shifts his gaze to meet Suzaku's eyes. "No matter how this goes, remember I am here to help you. I am your brother. Even if all I can do is give you a supporting arm, I will do it. You aren't alone."

[swordofzero]

Suzaku sighed, "When is there a right answer?" It seemed like all the choices were lose lose scenarios sometimes.

He looked up at Diarmuid and after a moment nodded. "Thank you." It meant a lot, to know someone was there.

"I will..."

[oathshackledbird]

"Good," Diarmuid isn't sure what else to say, to help put Suzaku more at ease, so instead of saying something he reaches out and gives Suzaku's shoulder another light squeeze before motioning toward the hallway. "It is late or early if you prefer, but would you like to come and spar with me a little? It will help you bleed off some of your stress."

Nowhere near all, but distraction often helps. Even if just for a little while.

"Or are you too tired?"

[swordofzero]

Suzaku nodded, sparing was a good way to forget everything for a while. Especially sparing with Diarmuid who it took all his concentration to even keep up with.

"I wouldn't be able to sleep anyways... But are you sure? I've dragged you out at... whatever time it is."

[oathshackledbird]

Diarmuid shakes his head and smiles, "I don't have to sleep, remember? While I have been patrolling most of the night, even if you hadn't showed up, I would have probably only slept an hour or two before waking. Come," he motions toward the stairs.

[swordofzero]

"Lucky." Suzaku followed him silently, still silently lost in thought. Trying to work out what to do, what the best way to minimize damage from this was.

Shall we wrap this with them heading to the gym?

[oathshackledbird]

Diarmuid shakes his head, looking back at Suzaku, "Not really. Even a Servant who doesn't need to sleep needs to find a way to let their mind rest. Usually, in the Grail Wars it isn't much of a problem because, quite frankly, we don't tend to live that long. Here is a different story."

"And speaking of thinking, you need to stop. Put away your worries about Lelouch and Rolo for now. Give yourself a much needed break."

yup!

[swordofzero]

"My apologies." Suzaku nodded, looking down. He nodded though, stopping thinking sounded like a good idea though he was not sure that it was doable. "I'll try." He said as he followed Diarmuid to the gym.