Fallout of a different kind

[savedbyasong]

Characters: Shion
Setting: Dorm halls 19th ish?
Format: Any I'll follow
Summary: Shion reads the report that Reno handed him about what happened in the whole Ryoji mess. He has berserker issues, and practices control (at least I hope he gets to the control part...)
Warnings: berserky Shion, mentions of brainwashing and stuff, potential violence

It had taken him a while to get to the end of the report, because every time he tried to read it anger rose up until it almost took over. He had to step away, calm down and return. By the end though it was not good enough, there was no calming down. Because what had happened, to people he considered friends, to people who were kind and brave.

His hands shook, he felt himself getting angrier and he tried to breath. Tried to stay calm, do everything that Diarmuid had taught him to keep the anger down, to believe he could do it. To just do it, to stay calm.

He wasn't sure when he had stopped reading, when he had stood or when he had left the room. But he was walking through the corridors, eyes blazing. "Ganondorf!" He shouted, "Sephiroth!" Clearly this was not of the smarter ideas he had ever had.

Comments

[savedbyasong]

Shion nodded, since there was no point in pretending he wasn't worried. "Hopefully..." Hopefully death broke any connection there was.

"Let me know if you do sense anything real though..." Not that Shion knew what he would do, but there had to be away to break such things without killing... And if they had time they might be able to fix it.

[oathshackledbird]

Diarmuid nods, giving Shion a confident look, "I swear to you I will let you know if I start feeling anything odd or find myself acting in an odd way. Believe me, the last thing I want to do is let Ganondorf control me even if I don't have my powers right now. I have hurt everyone enough because of my mistake. I do not want this to go any farther."

[savedbyasong]

Shion nodded, "Hopefully this is the end..." Too many people had been hurt already and even though technically this left it at a victory for Ganondorf and his friends, it was better than further bloodshed.

[oathshackledbird]

"I am going to do everything in my power to see to it that it is. We don't have time for these things now. To that end, I need to ask something of you," Diarmuid pauses a moment, hoping this isn't a mistake. He knows Shion already has a lot on his mind, but he also trusts the boy to be able to handle this, "I think you know that both Ryoji and I have a lot of people in the Tower who would fight and die for us without thought. I am going to try and talk to as many people as I can, but if you hear of anyone who is talking about striking back for what happened, I need you to try and talk them out of it. If you cannot, I need you to tell me what is going on so I can try and stop them."

[savedbyasong]

Shion nodded and listened, because of course he would help Diarmuid. It was a hard thing, because Shion wasn't sure how he would be able to talk anyone out of violence, when he had been so close to committing it himself, but he could at least try and tell Diarmuid if he failed. "I will try my best." Because it really was for the best that it stopped now.

[oathshackledbird]

That is part of the reason Diarmuid is asking this specific thing from Shion. He hopes that this will give him something to focus his anger and energy on and that will make it easier to keep himself from getting violent. After all, if he knows how it feels to want to be violent himself, then he will know better how those he is talking to feel.

He smiles and gives the boy a nod, "I know you will. You have already tried so hard to do the things I have asked and for that I thank you. We really should sit and talk about those things more soon. I don't know if now is the time, though. Not with your emotions already so high..."

[savedbyasong]

Shion smiled and nodded, he didn't really want to try and examine the feelings now, not with them still so close to the surface that they threatened to take over.

"Thank you." He said softly, "Will you be alright? If... if you need to talk about it I can listen." Diarmuid probably had others he could talk to though, people who could offer advice and help and weren't so likely to let emotions rule them.

[oathshackledbird]

"I think I will be...eventually. Once I am honest with myself and finish working through all this darkness inside of me," Diarmuid gives Shion a confident look. "You know the path I am on. It's similar to yours, but I know we will both find the end soon enough."

Diarmuid steps forward and gives Shion another hug, "Thank you."

[savedbyasong]

Shion smiled and nodded, hugging him back. "No, thank you. You stopped me from doing something stupid." And it was the first time Shion had been calmed, once he had gotten more angry than he could cope with.

[oathshackledbird]

"I am glad that I was able to help. You know I want to help as much as I can," he steps back so that he can smile at Shion. "What were you working on when..." Diarmuid gestures in a vague way meant to indicate when he had gotten so upset. "Is it anything I can help with?"

[savedbyasong]

"Reno gave me reports..." He said softly, "Just of what he had managed to find out. It isn't very detailed. I am not surprised though, that Waver wouldn't talk to him."

[oathshackledbird]

Diarmuid nods in understanding, "If Waver didn't want to talk to me, I doubt he wanted to talk to Reno either. Let Reno know I will talk to him later and fill in any details he wants, all right? I...just need a little time first."

[savedbyasong]

"I will... though you don't have to, not until you feel ready to talk about it." He was sure there were others they could get the information off.

[oathshackledbird]

"Thank you and I don't mind doing it. There needs to be a record of what happened, but that can comes later. Will you be okay now?" He gives Shion a serious look, "I don't mind staying if you need me too, but if you are all right, I think I am going to...disappear again for a while."

[savedbyasong]

Shion nodded, though not before giving Diarmuid another hug. "Thank you again, I hope things get better for you soon!"

[oathshackledbird]

Diarmuid returns the hug, "They will. I know they will. Be well, Shion. Keep an eye on everyone while I am gone. Especially your father. He needs it."

He gives the boy a confident smile and then turns and walks away.

[savedbyasong]

"I will." He nodded, "Be careful." He made a note to at least try and work out where Diarmuid ended up, just to keep an eye on him and make sure he wasn't hurt.