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Willow Rosenberg ([personal profile] guiltapalooza) wrote in [community profile] towerofanimus2011-12-10 03:44 am

❝trying to talk my way out of this❞

Characters: Willow and whoever. OPEN.
Setting: Sixth floor (the forest).
Format: I slightly prefer action over prose, but I'll match whatever you want to do!
Summary: Willow's been doing a lot of magic lately, and tries to meditate to help manage it. Unfortunately she picks the worst place possible. Run into her in A or B, just let me know which one in the subject!
Warnings: Grief. Addiction recovery.


A.

[Since she got here, she's been doing magic almost nonstop. Well, not really, but it feels that way. Casual, advanced, ritual and on the fly-- she's even been teaching it, a little. Willow desperately needs to meditate and feel the Earth beneath her before it catches up with her. She can feel the temptation, feel how easy it is, to just solve everything with a burst of power and a hand gesture, maybe a well-placed word...

But it doesn't solve everything, and it won't bring Tara back. Tara, who had just wanted the best for her; who had wanted her to use magic for good things, as an expression of compassion toward the world. Not for selfish reasons. Willow feels intensely ashamed that she still struggles with this, but that doesn't mean she doesn't. She needs the grass under her hands and trees above her head to recenter herself. To find peace.

She shakes out a circle of ash about five feet in diameter, within sight of the stairs. It's a magical perimeter, intended to stop anything with malicious intent from crossing in and harming her. She hasn't had to use one in years, but Eridan had warned her about the monsters lurking in the woods. Willow uses one now, and settles herself cross-legged in the middle.]



B.

[Some time later, just as she'd really been settling into her inner space, the part of herself that stays calm and undisturbed no matter how much black magic roils through her... she hears a voice, and her breath catches. She could've sworn her heart stopped.]

Tara? [she whispers, and a moment later, she hears another trace of it echoing again.

No. She's dead. Willow lurches to her feet, leaving the small bowl of ash behind, forgotten, and rushes over to the stairs. She's breathing fast, almost hyperventilating, as she races down them.]

[identity profile] cabecilla.livejournal.com 2011-12-28 09:27 am (UTC)(link)
[...he relates to these feels a lot. He has never been especially partial to blackrom, himself. Of course, he has not yet connected his EMOTIONS regarding the Highblood to kismesitude yet, or he might relate quite a lot less... lskjdf]

That uh... sounds nice... Actually.

[identity profile] cabecilla.livejournal.com 2012-01-03 03:04 pm (UTC)(link)
[...was going to continue. Maybe have her talk a little more about humans and how their society works. But then she makes that second comment and he... Well, he smiles actually, though it's sort of thin and doesn't exactly touch his eyes. There are lots of reasons why... well... he couldn't decide what he wanted to do for himself. Most of them are reasons that made him go to war with the Highbloods, and of course the war created even more reasons why he can't do what he wants. But... this is her feelings jam, and he has talked with other trolls about the unfortunate path that lead him where he is enough that he is... really, pretty tired of it]

[So...]
Perhaps, you are right. [Little handwave, and his smile gets a little more genuine. Let's just... move along then] I think uh, I distracted you though. You said... there were two other people, who were important to you...?