the storm finally found me

[uprisings]

Characters: The Summoner and YOU
Setting: Between the thirteenth floor and the infirmary
Format: I will follow!
Summary: The Summoner really needs a hug except for the part where his ribs are broken
Warnings: Mentions of violence and blood?? Rampant self-loathing??? Various existential and emotional crises?????

[He stays where he is for a long time after the Highblood leaves, staring rather blankly into the air. He has not felt this low since he was a child. Since before he met Pyralsprite, and that thought is… absolutely hysterical to him. He has fought his whole life and it took a week and two trolls to bring him back here, where he questions every single one of his thoughts, his movements, everything. He does so much wrong, how could he have forgotten that]

[So he laughs because what the hell else is there to do. He wants nothing more then to sleep the rest of forever away, but he can’t as his body is quick to remind him. He’s coughing violently into his hand before long, unsurprised when after the fit has ended there are speckles of blood on his palm. Fuck. He wanted to skip the trip to the infirmary, but if his lungs are punctured…]

[The climb to his feet is truly agonizing, and he knows walking will be worse. There are little things in him muttering that he deserves it and he just can’t bring himself to argue with it. Yes. Of course he deserves it. Whatever. How many flights is it to the infirmary? He should’ve paid better attention in the past]

[Ah well… The first push off is the worst, and then he’s moving out of the cathedral and down the halls, one arm wrapped around himself while the other uses the wall for support. He’s tired. Let’s get this over with…]

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[uprisings]

[He actually does pretty good for awhile!!! If only because he is determined not to faceplant. Faceplant would literally be the worst thing in the entire world with this particular injury]

[But... exhaustion is hard so maybe after the second flight of stairs, he leans rather suddenly and rather heavily against the wall, one hand gripping sort of uselessly for grab onto for balance. Uuuugh sudden dizziness nooooo this can't be good]

[lethechained]

[She's relieved to see him not IMMEDIATELY fail, especially since she's not quite sure how well she'd be able to help him up if he did fall on his face, being as she is, in fact, a twig.]

[Naminé notices immediately because she was being careful to keep an eye on him at all times and she starts, surprised by the suddenness of the motion. Once she's had a second to recover, she edges closer, obviously ready to help him stay upright if he needs the assistance. Is she going to have to learn to catch collapsing trolls with gigantic horns and not get decked by said horns--]

[uprisings]

[No no. He's doing alright. He got like the perfect angle to go limp against the wall with, so he's staying up pretty well. Mostly he is just trying to breathe a little deeper then he has been. Gotta clear his head if he is going to go anywhere else]

[sobs everything... hurts... lakjsdlkfjasdf He may have smacked his head against the wall once... just now... for good measure you know]

[lethechained]

[She's still gonna hover, sorry man. Worrying is what she does.]

[...How is smacking one's head against the wall a good anything fdjgbdfkgjdf--] Are you okay--? [Well, she means 'okay to keep standing without assistance', not... you know, okay okay.]

[uprisings]

[shh he's just really frustrated at everything in the world so smacking his head against the wall helps. YEP. THAT MAKES SENSE]

[Looks down at her and... smiles faintly. Eheh... he kind of forgot you were there for a second Namine, whoops]

Fine. A little, dizzy I guess.

[lethechained]

[It is so very helpful.]

[She does her best to smile just because he does, but her eyes are still worried. No big deal, it's not like she's never been forgotten before or anything.]

Do you need to rest?

[uprisings]

[Eheh...]

Probably... But uh, I'm not... there yet. [He's just... so tired aughlskjdf]

[lethechained]

[SO MUCH FROWNING.]

You're sure? [She will hold him up if necessary--]

[uprisings]

[LKSJDF NO DON'T FROWN AT HIM. He's just... trying to smile a little better so she stops... that... lsdfkj]

Pretty sure. Unless... we are, here. And I am just uh... more confused. Then I thought.

[lethechained]

[... Okay, well, that guilts her into smiling back but it SO DOES NOT REACH HER EYES]

We're not. [Which means he's at least not hallucinating, so that is a good thing?!] You're not confused. It's still a few more floors.

[uprisings]

[wheeze Namine that smile is terrible. But yeah it's definitely good he's not hallucinating???? Even if 'a few more floors' makes him want to lay down and die a little bit. Christ]

[Rubs at his face, trying to wake up and focus. Right right. A little further... a little...]

How many. Is a few...?

[lethechained]

[jdfbgdjkg SHE'S SORRY she wishes it were less true. :C :C :C]

Um-- [... A few?] Not that many...! [Although 'not that many' is probably relative. This'll teach him to have fights on the higher floors?] Maybe-- two or three, I think.

[uprisings]

[Yes, he's quietly making a note never to fight the Highblood unless the infirmary is pretty close. Cause this... suuuuuucks]

Alright. [...........] Alright, let's... go. [Gonna... slowly push himself off the wall and try to start walking again. It is even slower going then it was before, somehow]

[lethechained]

[... how about making a note never to fight the Highblood--]

Okay...! [OH GOSH how could he possibly be even slower aaaaaa following somuch]

[uprisings]

[Non... he has to win his hate back somehow!!! Fighting is probably what will end up happening. There is... no... choice]

[Faint... kind of a laugh... ish. She's so dedicated baww]

Thank you... again. You uh, do not really. Have to...

[lethechained]

[... :|]

[Yes, yes she is. :C]

... You're welcome. [THIS IS A FIRM 'YOU'RE WELCOME' aka 'yes I do, stop being silly'. Fortunately she doesn't actually look or sound judgemental when she regards him. Silly Summoner, trying not to inconvenience people is for Naminés.] Don't worry. I want to do it.

[uprisings]

[Little sigh...]

You're very kind. All of you. [Humans and the like] It's, strange. I'm uh... not really, sure what to do. About it. [...welp. Apparently it's random honesty now. Exhaustion is a terrible thing]

[lethechained]

[Wow, he must be bad off--]

[The girl looks up at him, brow knitting. She doesn't quite make the connection as to what 'all of you' right away, but her automatic inclination is to disagree; she's not kind - she's done so many bad things. Finally the second bit catches up with her and her brow loosens a little, because that's a considerably easier thought.] ... Not everyone. [She can't just... not warn him, even if he is bad off.] But--... thank you. [She shakes her head.] You don't have to do anything. If people want to be kind to you, that's what they're going to do. [So clearly he shouldn't worry--]

[uprisings]

[...yeah he figures not everyone, but everyone he's come across so far]

I know... they will. It's just. Different, I guess. [Different but nice. Hmmm all these warm fuzzies... Probably a bad sign when he's this hurt, but whatever, it feels good so he doesn't care]

[lethechained]

[Just playing it safe--]

[For a moment, she gives him a look with an expression that's difficult to read. Funny, how she keeps finding things in common with even people who are unlike her. She's quite new to those kinds of warm fuzzies, herself. One of her hands curls against her chest. Clearly those warm fuzzies are not ACTUAL feelings, just fake!feelings.] ... I think I know what you mean. Even if the tower isn't always safe--... the people in it make being here so much easier.

[uprisings]

Yes. [...heh] Well, sometimes... anyway.

[Kind of a vague gesture at himself. WHEN WE'RE NOT BEATING THE FUCK OUT OF EACH OTHER ANYWAY]

[lethechained]

-- Right. Sorry...! I guess I've just been fortunate.

[Exactly that, yes.]

[uprisings]

[LKSJDF no he meant it as a joke... failure Summoner]

No uh... It's, fine. Probably I. Brought this on, myself. This time.

[lethechained]

[B-but it's true!]

.... [She's just going to... eye him at that, because whatchu talkin bout Summoner? Only she's not sure he'd want to talk about it, so she doesn't ask just yet.]

[uprisings]

[HE DOESN'T. YOU'RE RIGHT. But he just shrugs faintly at her eyeing him. He believes it... pretty firmly right now. Someday hopefully he will realize it's pretty fucked up to believe you deserve your potential romantic partner crushing your chest. BUT UNTIL THEN...]