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[anima_sorrow]

Characters : Yeshua and you
Setting: Floor 25 and everywhere else
Format: Prose but will follow
Summary: Yeshua is back on the tower after six months spent on his dead homeworld. Depression, but he'll hide it. Forever.
Warnings: None.


Floor 25 (Meadow)
Yeshua had woken up in the tower many months ago, and while he had thought there was nothing worst than this tower, six months spent alone on his dead homeworld… Well, let's say it made the tower look like a much better place than the first time. He’d rather be anywhere else than on his dead homeworld, alone for months, with nothing to do but… Think about his mistakes, those who died, those he couldn’t save, what he didn’t do. But it wasn’t time for depression, not just now.

He was pretty sure there were new floors since last time he had visited the tower, and this one was probably one of them. A nice one at that. He took a flower and looked at it. … It reminded him of a certain someone, who had been there but he hadn’t found back. And she had been the only bright thing in this tower. He looked at it quite… sadly, with melancholy, and explored the floor some more.
Everywhere Else
Yeshua will be exploring most the new floors, paying attention to new things, most particularly to the music. He’ll only be passing briefly by the old floors, as he already explored them in the past. Oh, and he’ll probably be spending some time in his dorm, looking through his trunk and… Trying to put some order in the mess that is his mind at the moment.

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[anima_sorrow]

"It's not your fault."

He looks at her. He's... sad, very sad to see her like. She should never be like that.

"Don't guilt yourself. You've done everything you could, but not even Wilhelm could have stopped this Mary."

[animus_sorrow]

"How can you know that for sure, Yeshua? Neither of us seem to have any recollection of what happened, we can't know." And yet, she is that sad.

Having him here was that much better already, though. She would gladly give up anything to be able to spend more time with hi like this, sans the depression.

[anima_sorrow]

"How can you be sure that it's your fault then?"

She'll get to spend more time with him like this- He's not planning on abandoning her, especially not in her current state.

"You've said it yourself, nothing should have remained. It's not something you could have helped." he says "That any of us could have helped. But here now, we have a chance to make a difference."

[animus_sorrow]

Well damn... He caught her in a point she hadn't quite looked at herself. Mary was too busy blaming herself to look at any other possibilities, really. Still, how could it NOT be her fault?

"How can we make a difference, stuck here and not at home? Everything back home is gone. By all rights, we shouldn't even exist anymore."

[anima_sorrow]

"Yet we do. We do not know what possibility the tower offer."

He smiles lightly to her and pulls her closer.

"Trust me Mary, we can make a difference and we will."

[animus_sorrow]

"I do trust you, Yeshua. You know that." Half the things she did in life, and death, were because she trusted him and her friends. There probably wasn't anyone that she trusted more.

[anima_sorrow]

He smiles and just... Hugs her for a while alright. She deserved a big and warm hug. Then he's gonna help her and get up- Because she needs to feel better soon and quick.

[animus_sorrow]

Mary will just hold on, happy to be next to him and knowing he's alive and safe. She'll have to apologize to Gandalf later, for not believing her friends could be here. And when he helps her up, she doesn't resist at all and takes a hold of his hand.]

[anima_sorrow]

He smiles at her and takes her hand, to go for a walk with her around the meadow. At least, it's good to see she's better and no longer sad like she was at the start. Not to mention soon that's gonna be his turn...

And yes, Gandalf deserves all the apologies in the world.

[animus_sorrow]

Mary gave him a smile and leaned her head against his shoulder. All the close contact she can get, just to tell her that he's really there.

"I missed you, Yeshua."

[anima_sorrow]

He wraps his arms around her tenderly and smoothens her hairs with his hand.

"And I missed you as well." he says softly "But now we're together and I'm not leaving you. I promise"

[animus_sorrow]

"I don't think it is you leaving me that I have to worry about. You've always been the survivor." And it's not said in blame or regretfully, like anyone would think. Mary was.... Surprisingly accepting of her own death.

"I know you won't though." He always kept an eye out for her.

[anima_sorrow]

He doesn't say anything for a while then hugs her close.

"I won't let anything happens to you either." he tells her "As long as you're with me, nothing like this will happen to you again."

[animus_sorrow]

Mary hugs him tightly, closing her eyes for a moment.

"I know you won't, Yeshua. I know. And you know that if there's ever a time I have to give my life to save yours, I will." She'd do anything to save him. Even begin Eternal Recurrence.

[anima_sorrow]

Now... She shouldn't have said that, because really.

"I hope that you won't." he tells her "Your life is precious, don't throw it away. If such an occurrence were to happen, and I hope it won't, it's to you to live."

[animus_sorrow]

"So is yours. I've given my life for you once before." She won't back down on this. Yeshua is important to her, very important. At one time, Mary couldn't protect Shion, she was determined that nothing would ever happen to others she loved.

[anima_sorrow]

"And you won't give it a second time."

he won't back down too. Being the survivor is... Probably as bad if not even worst than being the one who die. Since you've got thousands of years to guilt, depress and watch Wilhelm do whatever he wants. He's not sure he wants that for her... But Mary deserve to live.

[animus_sorrow]

"Yeshua."

She frowns at him before hugging him again, as tightly as she could this time. She's obviously not as strong as him, millenia spent dead in comparison to the time he had been active. Her body still felt a little foreign to her, so used to being within KOS-MOS.

"We don't know what will happen here."

[anima_sorrow]

"And no matter what will happen, I shall protect you."

He hugs her back of course, and slide a hand down her hairs. He just...Can't let her die, let alone form the idea it's alright for her to die again if it means saving him. One time was bad enough, not a second time please.

[animus_sorrow]

Mary says nothing for awhile after that, just holding onto him as tightly as is possible. She won't say it but protecting Yeshua is her priority here.

"Have you eaten, yet?"

[anima_sorrow]

"No." he smiles a bit "I'm not sure what they have to offer is all that great beside..."

He holds her close too- Protecting her is his priority as well really.

[animus_sorrow]

"Unfortunately, you can't eat anything else until you've eaten the oatmeal. Otherwise you, apparently, get sick. And I'm not sure anybody wants that." Especially whoever would have to clean up and she certainly didn't want to cause them any extra work.

[anima_sorrow]

"Yes, I remember, that's exactly like it was a couple months ago." he says and smiles to her, even if only a little bit.

because of course, chaos assumes she remembers what happened some six months ago. He can't know otherwise.

[animus_sorrow]

Haha, time to burst his bubble. Poor chaos, forever stuck knowing more than anyone else.

"A couple months ago?"

[anima_sorrow]

"Yes, when you and I first arrived on the tower."

Nope... She has to remember.Mary, you must.