When a Good Man Goes to War...

[spacehipster]

Characters: The Doctor and everyone! Even all you new blokes.
Setting: Flour Twelve
Format: Action!
Summary: The Doctor is thinking about the voices, and it's breaking his hearts. Both of them.
Warnings: ANGST seriously, guys, Linkin Park could write a song about this.

[The Doctor watched the planet explode.

And then reform.

And then explode.

Over and over. Again and again. He hated it. He absolutely hated it. He shouldn't be there. He should go somewhere else...but the voices. He didn't want to see anyone while they were still affecting him.

His face was gaunt, and rightly so, considering the things he'd be hearing, thinking, feeling. He wasn't sure how much the voices were saying and how much he was saying. He couldn't differentiate. Not anymore. His memories, thoughts, were getting the better of him. The voices didn't even bother anymore. The ghosts of his past were enough.

Maybe he was talking out loud. Maybe he wasn't. He didn't know. There were too many voices, ones from before the Tower were there too.

"Doctor, am I dying?"

Yes, you are. And even The Doctor couldn't save you. The Doctor couldn't save anyone. The Doctor was useless.

"Doctor, why did you leave?"

I'm sorry. No, you're not, Doctor. If you were sorry, you'd visit.

"Doctor, why did you let me die?"

I didn't meant to--

"Do you remember me, Doctor? I just wanted to see you. I did everything for you. And I'm dying. It's your fault."

I know.

"Silly, silly, Doctor, always thinking you can save everyone."

Shut up.

"Doctor, why don't you ever visit?"

"Doctor...did you ever love me? ...Or was I just 'another companion'?""

"You're not my Doctor."

"Doctor, please."

"I'm too old for the Doctor."

"Why did you say five minutes?"

"Doctor, don't go!"

"The Doctor l i e s.'"

"Funny. Your fairy tale 'hero' Doctor can't save anyone. But you know what? Neither can your scary Doctor. Both of you are useless.''

"You're not capable saving anyone.'''

"The last of the Time Lords."

"Murderer."

You're wrong.

"Am I, Doctor? You killed them. You murdered them, so you're a murderer by definition, right Doctor?"
 

He was just starting to...get better, to think he was fixing things.

But he wasn't.

He was as far from fixing things as possible. People were dying. Children were dying. And he couldn't save them. He couldn't save anyone.

"Do you miss me, Doctor?"

Yes, I miss you. I miss all of you. That's why your rooms are still on the TARDIS. Even if they're empty. Even if I'm alone.

"Are you ready to die, Doctor?"

No.

"But you know it's coming. You saw the date. You know what you must do. You know you must die."

That doesn't mean I have to want to do it.

"How selfish."

I am selfish.

"And dangerous."

And dangerous.

"And useless."

Completely useless.

"And alone."

All alone.

"At least you're aware of yourself."

He couldn't let himself fall apart, not here.

But even The Doctor's emotions are clearly shown on his face sometimes.]

Comments

I reply in feaaar, confusing what is reaaaaal...

[spacehipster]

It's to lower moral. Depress us. Break us mentally instead of physically.

Typical scare tactic.

I wish I remembered the rest of the lyrics now, gdi

[lilpuzzleteer.livejournal.com]

Huh? [Oh hey, there's a man with a snazzy bowtie. Okay, lets roll with it.]

I agree, but...by showing this they are breaking the flow of logic. [Arms crossed. I hope you're prepared for eleven year old tl;dring.] If they are aware of worlds being destroyed as they say, and are trying to save people from this, then why would they show worlds in which there is mass destruction without anyone being rescued? Even if they were to say that everyone can't be saved or somesuch, it still sets their story back significantly. And if they are claiming that there are people being saved from these places, where are they?

[Luke is very critical when it comes to shadowy villains and their nefarious plots. C'mon, a crazy guy with a giant mecha managed to hide his lies better than this.]

Shame on you

[spacehipster]

They claim it, but they're so obviously suspicious anyway. I don't believe they've thought things through. Sure. They have an initial idea. "Kidnap this person and this person and this person," but they're not adequately prepared for the results of their descisions, or anything, really, considering the blackout and appearance of Zo.

How can I ever make it up to you bby D';

[lilpuzzleteer.livejournal.com]

Maybe they want to be suspicious for some reason? I haven't gotten to investigate this further, but...they do seem to lack control over the situation. [Luke you're ten, how much investigating can you do.]

I expect 50 bowties, each a different color and pattern, by midnight.

[spacehipster]

They're unprepared.

Unprepared and dangerous.

brb going to etsy

[lilpuzzleteer.livejournal.com]

...do you really think so?

I suppose you might be right...waking up in a broken tower with a letter about being 'rescued' doesn't instill much confidence.

8|

[spacehipster]

No, it doesn't.

Of course, that only assures me that escaping will not be impossible.

...what, they're home made

[lilpuzzleteer.livejournal.com]

Has anyone tried to escape?

[And then it hits him.]

Oh! Pardon me, I never introduced myself! I'm Luke. [Pause.] ...I only just got here, but I'm certain we won't be here for long. The Professor will show up soon and sort this whole mess out. [And the firmest, most confident nod ever.]

I suppose they are acceptable. YOU ARE FORGIVEN

[spacehipster]

No. No way to. None at all.

I am The Doctor. It's very nice to meet you Luke. I don't intend to stay long either.

I'll find a way out, I'm sure.

\o7

[lilpuzzleteer.livejournal.com]

The doctor? Are you like the Professor, then? I'm his apprentice, so he won't let these people hold us here long. They don't know who they're messing with.

[More confident nodding.]

<3

[spacehipster]

They certainly do not.

<<33

[lilpuzzleteer.livejournal.com]

If you need any help in the mean time, I'm willing to help!

[Determinationnnn.]

[spacehipster]

I will be sure to take you up on that offer.

[lilpuzzleteer.livejournal.com]

Just...cheer up in the meantime, okay? [Stupid perceptive children]

[spacehipster]

[GDI kids]

...I'm always very cheery. It's kind of my thing.

[lilpuzzleteer.livejournal.com]

...a lot of people say that, but not a lot of people mean it. [Hmph.] The Professor says it's important to be a gentleman...to others as much as your own feelings.

[spacehipster]

Well. I'm over 900 years old. Sometimes I just have so many feelings that they spill out, even if I'm not sad.

[NOT A COMPLETE LIE]

[lilpuzzleteer.livejournal.com]

... [Hrm. It's time to use the big guns on this one.]

Are you sad right now, or do you just not want to say it? [GO GO KID SAD FACE.]

[spacehipster]

Me? If I was sad, you'd know. I'm not sad. I don't have time to be sad.

[THE DOCTOR LIES, but he does it impossibly well]

[lilpuzzleteer.livejournal.com]

[CAN HE USE A HINTCOIN TO DETERMINE THIS LIE no.]

...don't have time to be sad? Of course you do. If you've been about for nine-hundred years, you've had plenty of time, and still do. [Frown.] Being sad is just as important as being happy.

[spacehipster]

I find ways to keep myself busy.

And being sad is a waste of my resources. Being happy is much more enjoyable.

[lilpuzzleteer.livejournal.com]

...if you say so. I, for one, am happy when I'm sad. [More huffing armcross, ignoring his weird wording of that.] It means, at least, that I am still able to be sad. I've seen quite a few people who simply fly off the handle over such things.

[...Luke why do you lecture everyone you meet.]

[spacehipster]

I know how to handle myself.

[lilpuzzleteer.livejournal.com]

[There we go, seems Luke finally caught on!]

...oh, I'm being nosy, aren't I.

[spacehipster]

Not at all, being curious is a natural thing.