Sulking [open]

[swordofzero]

Characters: Suzaku and Open
Setting: Floor sixteen
Format: Starting in prose but I can switch
Summary: Suzaku was off wandering his world when he turned nineteen last month but today is another anniversary and does Suzaku even need an excuse to stare into a bottomless pit and brood?
Warnings: Mostly just angst

Things had started to calm down a little, Suzaku had spoken to Lelouch and though harsh words had been exchanged things were a little better between them. He had spoken to Minato as well, but still felt guilt for what he had done, Ryoji seemed to have disappeared completely though and Suzaku was worried.

Suzaku had woken up this morning and left his room early as he usually did, he didn't really know the two roommates who had replaced Signless and Psiioniic. Probably for the best, since Suzaku's habit of hurting those he was supposed to protect seemed to be getting worse the longer he remained here. So he avoided his room and spent most of his days training or fighting monsters, helping those who needed it but for the most part avoiding people.

But today he didn't go to the meadow or forest. Instead he continued down to floor sixteen this floor had always interested him, a room of nothingness, he sat on the stairs; legs dangling off the side and stared down at the darkness. He was nineteen now, he had realised when he had returned from his dead world that his birthday had been and gone. It was a strange feeling, nineteen and yet still Suzaku Kururugi, if his and Lelouch's plan had worked Suzaku Kururugi would have been dead before he turned nineteen.

Yet it hadn't, they had failed and were stuck here. All their plans for nothing. He stared out into the darkness. The recent events weren't the only reason for his dark mood. Today nine years ago him and Lelouch had stood on a hill and watched the first Britannian planes swarm into Japan. A few days later he had killed for the first time and now...

He had long lost count of how many lives he had taken, how many families he had cut apart. All in the name of saving Japan. His hands gripped the staircase, he couldn't jump; the Geass wouldn't let him. Even if he could he would just wake up tomorrow, and nothing would have changed. He had once been so sure they could escape, that they could defeat their captors. But now he wasn't even sure it was worth trying, it just caused more suffering.

The worlds were gone, they had no where to go. He could throw everything into another plan of Lelouch's, caring only for the end result. But there was no end result. This wasn't Britannia, their captors had more power than any of them could imagine and the power to take away everyone else's.

Still Suzaku had never been one to sit and do nothing. He had to fight, and he had to live.

Even if that second one was through no choice of his own. He stared lost in thought, though his head turned when he heard people approaching. Remaining alert.

Comments

[quarkylass]

She has taken to wandering the tower when she gets up at odd hours; the 27-hour time in the facility (lights up, lights down, either you're up or you're sleeping) has really fucked with her internal clock. So Jade is up before her friends and asleep too early to have any fun, with naps in between as per the Jade Harley norm. But there's one room that keeps calling her back -- the darkness. She's not sure why. It's scary, and the last time she flew into the room she almost lost sight of the stairs before darting back. But she likes to stare at it sometimes, and today is no exception.

She's not used to seeing other people here, and is startled a bit before smiling at the stranger on the ground. "Hi. I didn't scare you, did I?"

[swordofzero]

Suzaku nodded politely at the girl, taking in her strange appearance. "No you didn't, did you want past?" He thought he had seen her around the tower before, but with the amount of doubles running around he couldn't be sure.

[quarkylass]

"No. I was going to watch the darkness. Sometimes it feels super creepy. And there's stuff that can hurt you! I ran into it and had to teleport to the stairs."

Jade sits down next to him, completely blocking the rest of the staircase. Good thing the tower was so big; other people could readily be on completely different floors and not find them for hours, at least, that was her experience so far. "Are you watching it too?"

[swordofzero]

"You can teleport?" And fly apparently, Suzaku wasn't as surprised as he could be but watched her as she sat next to him. "I am, it doesn't seem to end but it must, there are floors below here..."

[quarkylass]

"Yes! But not here, and not to everywhere. I tried, but...it didn't work." She shrugged, a little half-heartedly. Nothing made sense to her any more, but then again, nothing had really made sense in her old world, either.

"Maybe it's magic."

[swordofzero]

"Perhaps, our captors have a lot of power." Power that could not be explained by any laws of the universe Suzaku knew. "And they can sometimes turn our own powers off, which is why you sometimes can't teleport."

[quarkylass]

"I haven't seen them yet, but everyone keeps talking about them! I don't really know if I want to meet them." She thinks about that for a bit, then pokes at the violet collar around her neck. "Maybe it's this."

[dubiousdisc]

"Hey, you're blocking the stairs."

The narrative would like to apologize deeply for this, but it seemed as if Suzaku would not be getting any encouraging words today. At least, not from this guy. If he were to look up, the pilot would find another one of those troll blokes, wearing dark glasses and an equally dark expression. The staircase wasn't wide enough to accomodate both of them, so he had no choice but to point out this little problem. He has important things to do down there, okay.

[swordofzero]

The voice made him turn round, it was familiar and the moment he saw who had spoken he knew why. It always unnerved him to see the descendants of Signless and Psiioniic. He realised he hadn't said anything, nor moved and blinked. "I apologise."

[dubiousdisc]

"I don't care if you apologize, just get out of the way." Seriously. It's not rocket science. "Why are you just sitting around on the staircase anyway? Isn't there somewhere less suspended-above-a-dark-abyss to hang?"

[swordofzero]

Suzaku had to remind himself that this really wasn't Psiioniic however much he looked like a younger version of him. He stood up and moved to the side. "Not many people come here." It allowed him to be alone with his thoughts, no matter how damaging those thoughts were.

[dubiousdisc]

"Not many people use the stairs?" Sollux raised an eyebrow, leaning against the metal rod going up the center of the spiral staircase as its spine. "Look, trust me, if you're going to angst, you need to do it somewhere that no one's going to find you." Last time he tried brooding in a public place... well, he wound up having to kill like ten people to get away from the slaughteregulators on his tail.

[swordofzero]

"Not as many as you would think," many used the elevator to get from top to bottom, others only stuck to certain floors. "And I'm not angsting."

This was as private as it got anyways.

action spam like a lame hylian usual comic relief thing

[ocariness]

[ Suzaku isn't the only one out of sorts lately. Link has been, too, and they're so out of it they just tripped right over him, nearly landing on their head, a quick but well-timed hands-catch keeping the two of them from both cracking their skulls open accidentally.

... Grace thy name is Not-Quite-Elf.

Sheepish, Link turns to apologize but realizes it's Suzaku and just ends up staring, embarrassed. ]

...

[ S-sorry, bro. ]

best comic relief

[swordofzero]

[And all of a sudden there was a person flying over him, Suzaku fell, looking up quickly to check the other person hadn't fallen off the edge. He blinked at Link.] Are you injured?

Link tries, really.

[ocariness]

[ Nothing but their pride is broken, really. Have a wobbly thumbs up. ]

S-sorry, I... did not see you, Suzaku.

[ HORRIBLE MISTAKE #1: look where you're going on the stairs??? ]

[swordofzero]

[Especially when said stairs are over a dark abyss of nothingness.] Don't worry, I was sat in an awkward place. [He reached out to help them up.]

[ocariness]

[ ... That still hurt quite a bit though. 8(

T-thanks for the help up though, fellow Knight! ... Hero? Ehhh. Link accepts the help a bit jerkily, skittish. Maybe the Zelda-stuff has set them on edge or something... ]

No, it is really my fault for not paying more attention, but that hardly matters... thank you. Are... you faring decently, Suzaku? You seem... lost.

[swordofzero]

[He would be horrified if he knew Link thought him a hero... He was lost, but Link is one of the people he feels he has to be strong for so he gives a polite nod.] I am, how are you? Apart from your fall I mean.

[bloodwriter]

There he was, sitting down within one of the most listless of floors. She had avoided him for some time because she didn't feel adequate enough to be near him, that she was not strong enough.

Still...she managed to get over her nerves and walk near him, but not too near.

"...Suzaku. You are ok." And she said that with a heartfelt gentle tone. She really was happy to know that he seemed alright, for tower standards anyway.

[swordofzero]

Suzaku glanced up and his eyes widened when he saw who it was. He hadn't seen her since the labyrinth; since they had died. "So are you?" His was a question, because he knew better than most that sometimes the worst hurts couldn't be seen.

[bloodwriter]

She looks down at herself and twirls a bit, giving him a good view that she looked alright.

"I feel that I am." she giggles. Disciple then begins to walk over to him. "I am sorry for what you have been put through."

[swordofzero]

"I have been put through no worse than anyone else here." He watched her, glad that she could still be happy despite everything. "I haven't see you in a long while."

[bloodwriter]

She looked away from him with a pained look on her face. "I am sorry. Out of all the warriors that I knew of, I felt I have failed you the most. I decided that I could not let a proud warrior like you see someone as pathetic as I. Thus is the reason I avoided you the most..."

[swordofzero]

Suzaku blinked at her confession. "You didn't fail me Disciple, you fought brilliantly. We would have died many times over if it wasn't for you, you kept Psi alive even when I couldn't..." When his Geass had forced him to run, or not block an attack made for his friend.

"Rather it is I that failed you. You and Psi..." And everyone else he had failed to protect.