towerofanimus | Aftermath [open]

Characters: Suzaku and anyone
Setting: Floor 26; the morgue, forward dated to the 26th
Format: Anything
Summary: General aftermath of the body swap event, Suzaku finally emerges because his Geass forces him to find food and then he cooks food, come and join him!
Warnings: Angst, themes of death and deaths seeking. Also various people punching Suzaku in the face

The moment Suzaku had been forcibly returned to his own body he had fled the library, fled those who had dragged him here, fled the frightened faces of those returning to normal and went and hid. The tower was a good place to hide, floors where no one wanted to go, floors with lots of places to go.

Floors that filled both criteria, like the one Suzaku had been hiding out in. It was ridiculously morbid he thought hiding in a graveyard but he didn't think it was a real one. After all it had just appeared and it wasn't like anyone died here...

But he had hid, stewing in his own thoughts sorting out what had happened. He still remembered what he had learned from Jin, but he knew they were his memories now. Separate from Suzaku's own. This probably meant Jin had his own memories as well, knew everything that Suzaku hadn't been telling people for the year he had been there.

And he had hurt them, Jin, Minato, Yu... They had tried to help him and he had lashed out. Tried to die... tried to kill Jin...

Minato had told him he wouldn't forgive him and Suzaku believed him. Part of him was relieved that Minato's constant forgiving him for every wrong Suzaku did him would be over. The only times he had left this floor was to check that Lelouch and Nunnally were alright. He hadn't spoken to them though, just saw from a distance. He knew he should speak to them, they would have had their own issues, especially Nunnally. It was the first time such a thing had happened while she had been here.

But he couldn't bring himself to face them and solitude was easy. He knew it was cowardly but in a lot of ways things were harder here than they had been at home. He had no goal, for the first time since he was ten.

So he had stayed and let the exhaustion that struck whenever he slept out of his own bed and the hunger get to him. Finally though the Geass took over, because it could not let him get too week, would not let him die.

And so anyone passing through floor twenty six would see tendrils of smoke away from the stairs, Suzaku cooking a rabbit he had caught in the forest, now he was actually cooking the food the Geass flare had faded from his eyes, hunger doing the rest to make sure he ate..

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I was ordered to hold Zero until back up came, he had captured me but the military had turned the situation to their own favour. It would have resulted in both of our deaths and so he ordered me to live, therefore saving his own life.

I see...

... and you hate him for that?

No. [Answered truthfully] By the time I learned what he had done to me, and who he was; there were more important things to hate him for.

[Not that he hates him, not anymore. It's just complicated.]

And how do you feel about him now?

I'm his knight, knights can't hate those they protect.

Then why are you avoiding him?

[Blink. Why are you asking difficult questions Rolo.] I...

He doesn't need me at the moment.

[is trained to do so?]

What makes you think so?

[Is that a thing they teach in Assassin school?]

He told me.

[well, he also a secret agent, information gathering is important in his line of work]

Really?

[have a light smirk]

And you are... that obedient?

Did you forget. [He turns to look at him] I'm the one who fired FLEIJA [And he had done more, all on orders.]

You did. Though now that I know about nii-san's Geass on you... I have to wonder if you were really yourself when you did it.

[Suzaku froze for a moment and looked met Rolo's eyes before dropping his own back to look at the fire, he gave a tiny shake of the head and poked the fish.]

I see.

Does that happen often? The Geass taking control over you?

Whenever I am in a situation that could lead to my death.

And that happens often?

Often enough.

I see.

There must be a lot of gaps in your memory then.

[He nodded] There is. There's usually someone willing to tell me what I did.

Edited 2012-10-14 16:31 (UTC)

So what have you done here so far under it's influence?

[A long stare because he doesn't like talking about it.] A few fights with people I shouldn't have attacked, leaving a few friends to die, betrayed those I got close to.

[He's only doing so because he's in the mood to be self punishing, and because he knows Rolo doesn't care.]

[All the same, Rolo doens't like what he's hearing as what Suzaku is saying could put Lelouch in danger]

So even here, you can't stop betraying people?

Edited 2012-10-16 16:42 (UTC)

Apparently not.

[It's the truth, though Suzaku would attempt not to hurt Lelouch, he can't make any guarantees.]

Have you betrayed nii-san here?

No. I haven't. [It's the truth. Whatever Lelouch may believe Suzaku did not cause the end of the world, so that doesn't count.]</small

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