you see me now a veteran of a thousand psychic wars;

[egotrigger]

Characters: Allelujah and open.
Setting: Floor 1 (Cafeteria), Floor 46 (flashlight level), Floor 81 (upper lounge), stairs in general.
Format: Whatever works for you.
Summary: Allelujah's… angsting isn't the word for it. He's depressed and disappointed about mindlessly carrying out orders. He's having difficulty coping with it.
Warnings: Mention of body modification/surgery/Jason being a dick. Also standard Hallelujah warning.


[Floor 1]

[Allelujah sits at one of the tables, a few of the nutrition bars in front of him. He has one open and is staring at it. He knows he needs to eat, but he feels sick to his stomach after what happened.]

[he takes a bite, slowly, and tries to keep it down. He won't be able to do anything if he doesn't have something for energy.]



[Floor 46]

[The stairs have vanished for him again. He hates this floor, hates it so much. The whispers and light touches keep making him jerk away, and he tries to control himself. It's no one, no one's there, it's not even Hallelujah…]

[But he's still pale as he reaches the stairs again.]



[Floor 81]

[There aren't many floors he feels comfortable on, but this is one of them. The sight of the stars calms him, makes him feel a little bit closer to home. It's hard to look at them sometimes - they're not his - but at least they're something. He'd like to start naming them, but he's not that creative.]

[He needs them today most of all. He still feels sick, frustrated, disappointed… he'd sworn to himself that he'd do everything he could to not just blindly follow orders, to not lose himself again. Not that he really could be anything but a soldier, but at least he has his own mind. Or did. He didn't even feel anything during that time he was changed… and he managed to change Hallelujah, too.]

[They were nothing but a mindless robot. Their brains were altered, and while he knows that he's been changed back, he can't help but feel terrified at a scientist who can do something like that. The things he'd been through at that facility had been bad enough, but this… this was beyond what he had experienced before.]

[He presses his forehead against the glass, trying to collect his thoughts. He doesn't know what to do. What can he do? It doesn't look like there's any way to kill him… or any of the others. Not when they can control this place so utterly…]



[Stairs]

[As Allelujah climbs the stairs, he's somewhat lost in thought. If there's someone else walking near him, he might not even notice them. That doesn't mean they can't notice him, though.]

Comments

[egotrigger]

Mm. He's... not at all polite. You should be able to tell the difference easily. We wear our hair differently, too.

[seekinganswers]

Yeah, I could tell from the way he talked in your mind...

[She tilts her head to the side and studies him for a moment.] I'm guessing he does something with his bangs, when it's him? That looks like it would be the easiest part of your hair to change.

[egotrigger]

That's right. When I'm in control, I have it this way - so our grey eye is showing. When he's in control, he covers up that eye, so our gold eye is showing.

[seekinganswers]

Your eyes are two different colors? [Sheba blinks. Heterochromia isn't exactly common in Weyard.] How? Why?

[egotrigger]

Hm? Oh, the heterochromia. It happens naturally in some cases. It's not unheard of. It can also be caused by certain diseases or traumas. I don't know which it is for me.

[seekinganswers]

I've never seen or heard of anything like it before...

[Which raises some questions about the differences in the genetic makeup of people between worlds, but she wouldn't know the answers anyway.]

Does it bother you at all?

[egotrigger]

Not really, but I almost never have both eyes exposed anyway. I imagine if I did I'd get more questions about it.

[seekinganswers]

So them being two different colors doesn't affect your eyesight or anything?

[egotrigger]

Not at all. My eyesight is actually better than most peoples', since I've been enhanced.

[seekinganswers]

Is that useful? I mean... it probably wasn't pleasant to have it happen, but does it come in handy now?

[egotrigger]

It is. It's very important for pilots to be able to see well. It's not all just looking at readouts and screens - you have to be able to see tiny changes far away from you, since it could be an enemy unit approaching.

[seekinganswers]

That's impressive! I know who to ask if I ever need help looking for something, then. [She's smiling, as if she's joking - but the way she talks, it's almost like she's serious.]

[egotrigger]

I'll be happy to help if I can.

[He smiles as well, even chuckling a little bit.]

[seekinganswers]

I'll be counting on you! And you can count on me if you need anything, too, okay?

[egotrigger]

All right. ... I'm Allelujah, by the way.