it's not a cry you hear at night (backdated to the 21st)

[egotrigger]

Characters: Hallelujah (possibly Allelujah) and anyone.
Setting: Floor 39 (gymnasium) (day), Floor 75 (tower) (night)
Format: Either.
Summary: Hallelujah has grown frustrated with Allelujah's silence, and has taken to trying to beat out his frustration on anything and everything.
Warnings: Talk of Richtofen which itself is a warning, mentions of vivisection, character death, gore. Also heavy swearing and violence warnings as per usual with Hallelujah.


[Floor 39]

[Every goddamn day he comes here, and every goddamn day he trains. All the details are fuzzy, but he's still determined to get even stronger than he already is in order to kick that guy's ass. He can't explain how that horrible experience made him feel - upset, angry, afraid. The last one is an emotion he's never supposed to feel. So how does this even work? He's not a person. He's just part of one.]

[He punches the punching bag again and again, the fabric starting to split. He has some fabric wrapped around his knuckles but they're also starting to grow red.]



[Floor 75]
[A Chocobo zooms out of the darkness, making a line for Hallelujah. He doesn't care. The birdlike creature is met with a roar, Hallelujah reaching out to grab the thing by the neck and twist, breaking it. He kicks the body, over and over.]

Dammit, just answer me! Stop fucking hiding!

[A Bullfairy flies at him, interested, but he grabs it from the air and squeezes, crushing it.]

Say something!

[He carries on like this for a while, not caring if anyone comes up the stairs and hears him. He's already thought of as crazy, so who the hell cares?]

Comments

[swordofzero]

Suzaku frowned, "Has he ever been gone for less time than this?"

[egotrigger]

"It's usually me who disappears. So no."

[swordofzero]

Suzaku frowned, "Where do you go?"

[egotrigger]

"It's kinda hard to explain to someone else. Uh. Think of it like a door that can swing both directions. I've got a key to lock it, but he doesn't, and he's got the only door to the outside. Usually I just shove him aside and barrel out the door, but now he's basically locked me outside, the bastard."

His expression grew more and more uncomfortable as he went on, hunching his shoulders a bit.

[swordofzero]

"So the only way for him to come back is for him to open the door." He frowns, being locked inside your own head, it was a terrifying concept. For a moment Suzaku wished Lelouch was here still, though he wasn't sure he could do anything, order Allelujah to come out he supposed...

It would probably be more damaging than anything.

[egotrigger]

"Basically. I mean you can talk through the wall but there's no guarantee you'll get anything useful out of it."

[swordofzero]

"So you can hear what is going on, even when you are not in control?" Suzaku frowned, trying to work this out, and come up with a way to help.

[egotrigger]

"I can tell he's there but I can't figure out what he's doing or saying. I'm the only one that's supposed to have the key in this example, remember?"

[swordofzero]

Suzaku nodded, "But you don't have the key anymore?"

[egotrigger]

"No point in locking it if it's already locked."

This was not the best analogy.

[swordofzero]

"I meant to unlock it." Suzaku blinked, a bit confused about the whole thing.

[egotrigger]

"I can't. I can only unlock the door between us, not the outside one. Usually he lets me back in."

He was quiet for a moment. "I'm not great at analogies, okay?"

[swordofzero]

"Isn't it the same door?" He frowned. "Can you think of no way to bring him back?"

[egotrigger]

"If I knew how do you think I'd be sitting here complaining about it?"

Wait. "... Don't answer that."

[swordofzero]

Suzaku blinked, and was silent for a moment. "Well what usually makes you come out?"

[egotrigger]

"The prospect of kicking ass."

He was a simple man okay.

[swordofzero]

"So what does Allelujah like that you do not?" He asked with a frown.

[egotrigger]

"Eh... cooking? Monopoly?"

[swordofzero]

"Cooking." Suzaku doubted there was Monopoly here. "Let's go to the kitchens then."

[egotrigger]

"... Fine. Just telling you, it's not my fault if shit explodes on you, though."

It will totally be his fault.

[swordofzero]

"Yeah, I won't blame you." Suzaku was awful at cooking as well, he hoped no one minded that the kitchen was probably going to end up a mess.