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towerofanimus2013-09-07 04:40 pm
god_damned) wrote in towerofanimus2013-09-07 04:40 pm
To see a world in a grain of sand
Characters: Kirei Kotomine and OPEN
Setting: The Dormitories (1-04). Floor forty-eight (the graveyard). Aaaand wildcard meanderings which you can happily place at your leisure!
Format: Brackets.
Summary: Kirei wakes in the Tower and explores his new surroundings.
Warnings: General disclaimer that Kirei is an awful person, discussions of suicide in his thread with Claudia, and specifics will be added as necessary.
Dormitories
[ He reads the letter, and he feels nothing.
What should he feel? Sorrow? Perhaps another person would label his utter lack of response as a state of shock or disbelief, as if he were denying the gravity of the message. However, while Kirei is reserved about taking those words as full truth, it is not a fool's hope which motivates him to such skepticism. What was lost in that world that he could mourn? Very little, in the end.
However, there is the War he left behind – and with it, he left behind the Grail, and his one chance to have his questions answered.
Perhaps it isn't nothing after all, but the feeling in his chest is not that of an honest man. But does it matter? Now, there is no remaining trace of his life save for a trunk of impersonal, unimportant things.
Regardless, he opens it, changes into his vestments, and exits into the hall. ]
Floor Forty-Eight
[ It is only natural that he finds himself in a place like this.
The graveyard stretches before him: like an echo of the world which he has been told is gone. He steps toward and kneels before a stone, trying to read its worn lettering with no success. It is difficult for him to determine why he makes the effort; perhaps he expects to see a name he recognizes.
Perhaps he expects to see his own. ]
Wandering
[ It is similar to the day he woke with the Command Spells, in a way, when he finds himself in this place. He was thrust into a world of unknown to him, of magi and their Holy Grail War. At the beginning, he had not understood his involvement in such a battle. Then, he spoke to Archer...
Perhaps this Tower is the same: he does not understand it now, but he can explore. He can discover more of it, and of himself.
But will what he finds favor him, or destroy him? ]
Setting: The Dormitories (1-04). Floor forty-eight (the graveyard). Aaaand wildcard meanderings which you can happily place at your leisure!
Format: Brackets.
Summary: Kirei wakes in the Tower and explores his new surroundings.
Warnings: General disclaimer that Kirei is an awful person, discussions of suicide in his thread with Claudia, and specifics will be added as necessary.
Dormitories
[ He reads the letter, and he feels nothing.
What should he feel? Sorrow? Perhaps another person would label his utter lack of response as a state of shock or disbelief, as if he were denying the gravity of the message. However, while Kirei is reserved about taking those words as full truth, it is not a fool's hope which motivates him to such skepticism. What was lost in that world that he could mourn? Very little, in the end.
However, there is the War he left behind – and with it, he left behind the Grail, and his one chance to have his questions answered.
Perhaps it isn't nothing after all, but the feeling in his chest is not that of an honest man. But does it matter? Now, there is no remaining trace of his life save for a trunk of impersonal, unimportant things.
Regardless, he opens it, changes into his vestments, and exits into the hall. ]
Floor Forty-Eight
[ It is only natural that he finds himself in a place like this.
The graveyard stretches before him: like an echo of the world which he has been told is gone. He steps toward and kneels before a stone, trying to read its worn lettering with no success. It is difficult for him to determine why he makes the effort; perhaps he expects to see a name he recognizes.
Perhaps he expects to see his own. ]
Wandering
[ It is similar to the day he woke with the Command Spells, in a way, when he finds himself in this place. He was thrust into a world of unknown to him, of magi and their Holy Grail War. At the beginning, he had not understood his involvement in such a battle. Then, he spoke to Archer...
Perhaps this Tower is the same: he does not understand it now, but he can explore. He can discover more of it, and of himself.
But will what he finds favor him, or destroy him? ]
no subject
Yes, many have died. I have also died, but the dead are revived here. If our bodies are killed, our souls are placed in replacement vessels.
[Sephiroth glances down at his body, which looks quite human and normal to him, as it should be--although he knows it isn't. He feels it is his duty to explain this. It is better to understand, to know.]
What you see around you is an illusion. Few things here are real. The monsters are, but our actual bodies are not with us. The bodies we are in are in fact constructs built to house our souls. Artificial. Robotic in appearance. When they are too badly injured, we are gathered up, and our souls are put in new bodies. Even our abilities are illusions that can be turned off as the administrators will.
no subject
Then do you still fear death, if you are aware that you will return, rebuilt?
[ The concept is still difficult for Kirei to imagine. ]
no subject
[Sephiroth says this with approval, then takes in the question, unblinking.]
I did not fear death before this.
[He says this without boasting. It's only a fact. Why should he, a superior human, fear death? He did not require the evolutionary adaptation of fear. It did not enhance his abilities, so for him, it served no purpose. Whether he was born without fear or conditioned not to feel it, it doesn't matter.]
I believe many still fear it, as pain and trauma are not dampened and may be amplified.
[He doesn't speak for himself where the fear is concerned, but that's the impression he's gotten.]
no subject
They would be right to fear it. [ Kirei can recognize that such a reaction is more expected; more natural. This boy, like himself, is detached from that in some way. Is it due to the manner of his creation? ]
What makes you unafraid?
no subject
[Fear responses promote survival, but Sephiroth does not need them. He has developed beyond the use for them.]
I am my world's ideal warrior.
Do you feel fear? [He asks the question simply and frankly: a child's curiosity.]
no subject
[ The question gives Kirei pause, and he considers his words before lowly responding. ]
Not in this place. [ Then, after a beat, he adds: ] Not as of yet.
sephiroth more like slowiroth
[What he feels is a certainty that he is strong, that he is capable of facing challenges, that most others' abilities are lesser. He sees people in terms of strength and weakness. In assessing Kirei, he has decided that he could kill him, but he will make no move to do so. They are not enemies.]
You may. Our emotions can be altered. Have you felt fear in your world?
s'all good
And no. Not particularly. I have never felt much to lose.
[ then after a moment: ] Would you tell me your name?
no subject
[He and Ryuunosuke had had a similar conversation. Ryuunosuke had considered his confidence pride.]
I am in agreement with you. If you do not have a fear response, perhaps it is not necessary for you.
[Makes sense to him. It's scientific.]
I am Sephiroth.
[No big deal, his insane dad just gave him a stupid, grandiose mystical name.]
no subject
[ But also, manners: he bows his head. ]
My name is Kirei Kotomine.
no subject
[He might have an inkling, as he's an intelligent child, but it's not something he wants to contemplate, so he does not, displaying a rare reluctance to face facts.]
I am pleased to meet you, Mr. Kotomine.
no subject
Most children of your age would miss their family.
[ But Kirei never felt that way for his own father. ]
no subject
[He never will, not really.]
My mother died when I was born, and I have no father.
[His tone is slightly firmer as he says this last.]
I had a guardian, but he would not desire me to miss him, so I will not. It would not be productive.