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towerofanimus2013-09-07 04:40 pm
god_damned) wrote in towerofanimus2013-09-07 04:40 pm
To see a world in a grain of sand
Characters: Kirei Kotomine and OPEN
Setting: The Dormitories (1-04). Floor forty-eight (the graveyard). Aaaand wildcard meanderings which you can happily place at your leisure!
Format: Brackets.
Summary: Kirei wakes in the Tower and explores his new surroundings.
Warnings: General disclaimer that Kirei is an awful person, discussions of suicide in his thread with Claudia, and specifics will be added as necessary.
Dormitories
[ He reads the letter, and he feels nothing.
What should he feel? Sorrow? Perhaps another person would label his utter lack of response as a state of shock or disbelief, as if he were denying the gravity of the message. However, while Kirei is reserved about taking those words as full truth, it is not a fool's hope which motivates him to such skepticism. What was lost in that world that he could mourn? Very little, in the end.
However, there is the War he left behind – and with it, he left behind the Grail, and his one chance to have his questions answered.
Perhaps it isn't nothing after all, but the feeling in his chest is not that of an honest man. But does it matter? Now, there is no remaining trace of his life save for a trunk of impersonal, unimportant things.
Regardless, he opens it, changes into his vestments, and exits into the hall. ]
Floor Forty-Eight
[ It is only natural that he finds himself in a place like this.
The graveyard stretches before him: like an echo of the world which he has been told is gone. He steps toward and kneels before a stone, trying to read its worn lettering with no success. It is difficult for him to determine why he makes the effort; perhaps he expects to see a name he recognizes.
Perhaps he expects to see his own. ]
Wandering
[ It is similar to the day he woke with the Command Spells, in a way, when he finds himself in this place. He was thrust into a world of unknown to him, of magi and their Holy Grail War. At the beginning, he had not understood his involvement in such a battle. Then, he spoke to Archer...
Perhaps this Tower is the same: he does not understand it now, but he can explore. He can discover more of it, and of himself.
But will what he finds favor him, or destroy him? ]
Setting: The Dormitories (1-04). Floor forty-eight (the graveyard). Aaaand wildcard meanderings which you can happily place at your leisure!
Format: Brackets.
Summary: Kirei wakes in the Tower and explores his new surroundings.
Warnings: General disclaimer that Kirei is an awful person, discussions of suicide in his thread with Claudia, and specifics will be added as necessary.
Dormitories
[ He reads the letter, and he feels nothing.
What should he feel? Sorrow? Perhaps another person would label his utter lack of response as a state of shock or disbelief, as if he were denying the gravity of the message. However, while Kirei is reserved about taking those words as full truth, it is not a fool's hope which motivates him to such skepticism. What was lost in that world that he could mourn? Very little, in the end.
However, there is the War he left behind – and with it, he left behind the Grail, and his one chance to have his questions answered.
Perhaps it isn't nothing after all, but the feeling in his chest is not that of an honest man. But does it matter? Now, there is no remaining trace of his life save for a trunk of impersonal, unimportant things.
Regardless, he opens it, changes into his vestments, and exits into the hall. ]
Floor Forty-Eight
[ It is only natural that he finds himself in a place like this.
The graveyard stretches before him: like an echo of the world which he has been told is gone. He steps toward and kneels before a stone, trying to read its worn lettering with no success. It is difficult for him to determine why he makes the effort; perhaps he expects to see a name he recognizes.
Perhaps he expects to see his own. ]
Wandering
[ It is similar to the day he woke with the Command Spells, in a way, when he finds himself in this place. He was thrust into a world of unknown to him, of magi and their Holy Grail War. At the beginning, he had not understood his involvement in such a battle. Then, he spoke to Archer...
Perhaps this Tower is the same: he does not understand it now, but he can explore. He can discover more of it, and of himself.
But will what he finds favor him, or destroy him? ]
no subject
That is not necessary. [ He does not say this in any forceful tone, as if to forbid Kariya from attempting it, but he does not mean the ask the man's favor.
As Kariya continues speaking, he watches the man warily. He speaks of surviving, and yes it is a wonder that he has survived this long. He was steadily decaying in the world Kirei knew. ]
You have survived very stubbornly. [ Kirei steps closer to the other man. ] I was aware of your condition, in the War.
[ A condition which may or may not remain, by the look of him; Kirei cannot be certain. There are injuries are Kariya that will likely never heal, with permanent damage left behind.
That thought lingers and lurks in Kirei's mind. ]
no subject
[There's something stubborn in the set of his jaw. It's not a favor for Kirei. Of course he's going to talk to his girlfriend about her husband arriving. Even if it does mean she doesn't want to date him anymore. He cares about her, so he has to talk to her about it. Still, he hesitates to say anything to Kirei about it, though the urge threatens. Maybe it's best to be honest...]
Oh-- [Is that a compliment? He isn't sure.] I'm going to do what I have to do. If we go back. [He'll win the war. He'll save Sakura, no matter what. He'll survive as long as he has to.
So Kirei he knows about the worms, somehow. There aren't many people who are aware of the Matou magic back home, but he's spoken of it here, and he has no reason not to be open of it, although there's reluctance and distaste in his tone. He hates them. It's like having Zouken with him here, in a way.]
The worms aren't real here, but the administrators gave me--illusory ones, so it's like I have them. [This was very cruel of them, he thinks.] But there are healers who've been helping me. So it's not as bad as it was. I want to try to get rid of them.
[He just has to figure out how. There must be a way, right?]
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Their devotion to delusion is inspired. [ Kirei looks at Kariya with new consideration, his eyes narrowing. ]
I wish you luck; I believe it is beyond my own magic to remove them.
[ Kirei actually hasn't thought about it much; he doesn't want to consider trying. He wants to believe that he refuses the idea since it seems like a foolish effort, rather than the sight of Kariya's discomfort drawing a still half-unconscious lure. ]
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Kariya still feels jealous, but then, his passion is genuine, even hampered by worms as it is.]
They do like deceiving us. We can't trust anything here. You should remember that.
Oh, is it? [He hadn't even thought to ask Kirei for help.] That's all right. Thank you. I think they're beyond most magecraft, but I know they can be taken away. Once, all the illusions left, and I didn't have them anymore. [He says this with pleased nostalgia. Most people had been horrified by the change, but he'd enjoyed it.] They'd come back if I died again, but I'd like to be rid of them for a little while.