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towerofanimus2014-02-16 09:22 pm
justabignobody) wrote in towerofanimus2014-02-16 09:22 pmEntry tags:
justabignobody) wrote in towerofanimus2014-02-16 09:22 pm
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Nonetheless, something just doesn't feel right. Yeah, Sora's important. In his double's shoes, Riku'd definitely push as hard as possible to wake his friend back up. But for that kind of cost? Having seen Xion himself and having met a few versions of Roxas, it's just hard to imagine shoving them on death row. It's just... amoral. But then again, if it's for Sora...
He grimaces. What a mess.]
Is there any way to stall? Anything you can do at all? You've got a Keyblade now, and I'm sure you're a lot stronger than you used to be.
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He has lost the chance to be the kind of person that's needed for that with Kingdom Key, and well... instead he's become the other kind of person that's needed, the kind that can make the calls the greater good of all requires, that can act on necessity, regardless of the costs - or at least that's what he thought. The certainty of his path that he felt back at that roof top, the knowledge of having no other choice but to defeat Roxas or die trying... it's been so long that it's faded. The walls that he'd built then in preparation of big might-be of sacrificing himself to the Darkness and forsaking and chance to return home... the time in the Tower has crumbled them, and for the first time Riku wonders if maybe that isn't quite as good a thing as he had previously thought.]
I am, and it certainly won't hurt that I don't have to fear dying at Roxas' hand quite as much, but... it doesn't change that the core of my problems is time. It took Xion months to make up her mind about what she wants to do.
For all that I might want to, I can't allow Roxas the same.
[The Organization is too close, too much in a frenzy after losing both of their Keybearers and Riku has no idea if he could stall them all by himself, if they attack as a unity.]
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[No other allies he can turn to? He's tempted to ask about Donald and Goofy-- they've gotta still be around, right? And they've sure never let him down. Their King's gotta be out there somewhere. Leon's gang, Merlin, there's gotta be allies who'd be willing to help.
But if what his double said is true, then they probably don't remember Sora. Would they even listen to someone who's more or less a stranger? It's a tough call. The fact that he and his double come from such drastically differing universes doesn't help. It leaves Riku guessing what may or may not have transpired. What allies his double even has...]
And you're sure you have to do this alone?
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Naminé and DiZ aren't fighters. [Or well... At very least, Naminé's manner of subduing someone isn't something Riku wishes on anyone. Or wishes her to use in first place - not when it isn't absolutely necessary. As for the third-] And Mickey... As things stand he's acting as my fail-safe of sorts.
[Mickey is the one who'd make sure that things would go well, that Sora would awaken and get ready to safe the worlds, if the worst were to happen and Riku didn't survive the encounter with Roxas. It's not strictly necessary anymore if he makes it back, but...]
Even if I did have allies beyond that- [Which he doesn't.] -I wouldn't be in any position to get them anymore.
[Not given that suicide run Roxas had been on just before he had ended up in the tower.]
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[Ugh. What can he even suggest? With every word, Riku's double nails in a feeling of helplessness. Being locked into one possible outcome with no sign of escape. What can he even suggest now? After all, the other Riku's right. DiZ doesn't fight, and while he can't speak for his Naminé, the one he met in the tower hardly seems like a fighter.
And Mickey, well, he never got to met the guy, so all he has is his double's word. Nothing more. So what other options exist? Well...]
Couldn't you, I don't know, try to calm him down? Knock him out, take him somewhere safe, and then try to explain-- just for closure's sake if nothing else. I get that you don't have time to let him decide, but if it really does boil down to him giving up his existence, shouldn't he at least know why?
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That's the plan. It's the least I can do for him - I can at least attempt it. The real trouble is beyond that... I just-
[He cuts himself off and shakes his head.]
Xion was too much already; it shouldn't take Roxas too.
[It's necessary - Naminé had told him that and she too, would prefer that it wasn't - but that doesn't mean he is anywhere near entirely fine with it; especially after giving it two additional years of thought. Xion... Roxas... Naminé too... It's not fair, he knows it isn't, but saying it out loud when he doesn't know how to change it seems just childish.]
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[At that thought, Riku wilts, arms dropping in his lap. Is it really fair to take others' lives and throw them away? Of course not, but just like his double, he knows that saying that won't change the situation. Nor will this conversation, really; they can hash out plans all they like. Come up with ideas, but unless they guarantee a way back to their worlds, it's all just penciled in.
So what to do? Well, one thought pops into his head.]
All I can really say is that you should do what feels right. Try to pick the roue that works best for everyone, but don't limit yourself. For all you know, there could be some other route out there you just haven't discovered yet. Don't know how likely that is, but you never know.
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That's a familiar piece of advice. I guess, there is something to it then, after all.
[Not that he's ever doubted that, but... he hadn't quite expected to be on the receiving end.]