Sayaka Miki (
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Sixth Staff ♞ calm as a still pond in the middle of a thunderstorm
Characters: Sayaka Miki and any who encounter her.
Setting: Floor 31.
Format: Prose or action, I like either~!
Summary: Sayaka needs a copy of Meditation for Dummies. You can bug her earlier or later on in her failed crusade of calm.
Warnings: Hinting at PMMM spoilers, also it's just kinda angsty whoops...
[Earlier:]
What was she supposed to do? Thinking 'I need to keep calm' did anything but make her feel calm, it just highlighted that she wasn't able to sustain it. She couldn't figure out an answer. 'Don't freak out' was a harder directive to fulfill than it sounded like, and it wasn't just a task that
would help her. There were other people at stake here.
Sayaka looked down at her soul gem with a scowl, where it sat neatly in front of her on one of the cobblestones. There was a small little twisting strand of dark she could spy sometimes amidst the blue, but.. there was no way she was employing the Grief Seed again until she absolutely needed it. On the practical side, Sayaka was pretty sure she had an idea of her limits now. On the other.. she'd used it thoughtlessly the first time, but that Grief Seed.. it felt a little sick using it. She'd definitely not throw it away. But Sayaka was far from ready to even look at it again, and it was stowed in her trunk even now.
Going to a quiet, out of the way place seemed more and more like a mistake now. What was she supposed to DO, just alone with her thoughts? She'd just chase her mind in circles. She'd been chasing her mind in circles.
[Some time later:]
This was stupid. With a huff, Sayaka climbs to her feet, stares down at her soul gem for another long moment - the mental image arises unbidden of actually seeing from the viewpoint of that tiny thing, staring up at a gloomy-looking girl with incredulity. She snatches the bauble up from the ground and takes off on a brisk walk across the cobblestones, utterly done with the mess for today. Stupid stupid stupid.
Setting: Floor 31.
Format: Prose or action, I like either~!
Summary: Sayaka needs a copy of Meditation for Dummies. You can bug her earlier or later on in her failed crusade of calm.
Warnings: Hinting at PMMM spoilers, also it's just kinda angsty whoops...
[Earlier:]
What was she supposed to do? Thinking 'I need to keep calm' did anything but make her feel calm, it just highlighted that she wasn't able to sustain it. She couldn't figure out an answer. 'Don't freak out' was a harder directive to fulfill than it sounded like, and it wasn't just a task that
would help her. There were other people at stake here.
Sayaka looked down at her soul gem with a scowl, where it sat neatly in front of her on one of the cobblestones. There was a small little twisting strand of dark she could spy sometimes amidst the blue, but.. there was no way she was employing the Grief Seed again until she absolutely needed it. On the practical side, Sayaka was pretty sure she had an idea of her limits now. On the other.. she'd used it thoughtlessly the first time, but that Grief Seed.. it felt a little sick using it. She'd definitely not throw it away. But Sayaka was far from ready to even look at it again, and it was stowed in her trunk even now.
Going to a quiet, out of the way place seemed more and more like a mistake now. What was she supposed to DO, just alone with her thoughts? She'd just chase her mind in circles. She'd been chasing her mind in circles.
[Some time later:]
This was stupid. With a huff, Sayaka climbs to her feet, stares down at her soul gem for another long moment - the mental image arises unbidden of actually seeing from the viewpoint of that tiny thing, staring up at a gloomy-looking girl with incredulity. She snatches the bauble up from the ground and takes off on a brisk walk across the cobblestones, utterly done with the mess for today. Stupid stupid stupid.
Earlier!
Oh, that's lovely!
[...what do you mean that's creepy?]
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She starts, falling forward and barely missing toppling over onto the lovely gem in question. Wow, that would have qualified for stupidest way to die; falling right on her own soul gem. Once Sayaka's recovered (and started rubbing at the ear that got spoken into), she gives Kafuka a sheepish look.]
Uh. Yeah, and it's got sentimental value, too. Really near and dear to me, that thing is.
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It's very pretty, what is it?
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Later... have a creeper pseudo-Buddhist.
[However, curiosity could get the better of him - and someone else willingly going and parking there was a curiosity, enough to've quietly slipped in and sat down, cross-legged, the trident across his lap.]
[It sort of looked like an attempt at something familiar to him...]
[A very restless and failed attempt, enough to be mildly amusing in spite of the setting; he didn't speak until she stood up.]
I think the idea is to let go.
exactly what i wanted for my holiday
Most people didn't dig the power suppression all that much, either, but Sayaka was counting on it - some place where she couldn't burn any magic, no matter what, seemed like the smart choice of where to go to try and learn to keep herself in check to preserve it.
Of course it didn't work anyway so the point is moot.]
..how?!
[She seems like she'd stop with just that plaintive question, but nope, floodgates are open, sorry random guy who made the mistake of watching her be bad at meditation:]
I just keep thinking in the same things one after another. 'I need to calm down,' and then I think about why I need to be, and then it's straight on to oh no I can't and bad things will happen, and then right back around!
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Well, as long as you're sure you can't, then you won't be able to. [Self-fulfilling prophecies are a pain that way; of course, it might take a bit more work to get him to be less of a Zen ass about it.]
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Creepy Round 2? [PMMM SPOILERS LIKE HELL]
Then he noticed something about the odd little gem.]
Pardon my intrusion, but why is your soul outside your body?
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And then to immediately pick the soul in question back up, uncomfortable with not holding onto it when someone she doesn't know is able to call out what it is, right off the bat.]
--That is, it's, I..
It'sreallycomplicated! I - how could you tell?
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It's a special talent of mine. Did I overstep myself, Miss?
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earlier;
It's kind of eerie how pretty it is here, don't you think?
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Eerie's a pretty good word. I might've picked 'suspicious,' but there's only so much you can make leery eyes at in the tower before you're sick of the eye strain, heh!
..the rocks are a different touch. [She clicks her nails against the cobblestones a few times as she says that, as if just remembering they're there and possible to force noises out of.]
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[Feferi nods. She vaguely recognizes Sayaka, too.]
We're roomies, right? I'm Feferi.
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Earlier
[To be honest, he was on the way to the 38th floor, but he can't help noticing her being well. Alone. Which is why he's going to plop down next to her.]
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[Hey, Lelouch. You're good for bantering. She's gonna latch on to that.]
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[Well, he sure can provide it.]
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Earlier
Hey. Feeling down?
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Could be downer. This is the 31st floor.
[She can certainly snark, though.]
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[Talking to people, especially girls, is hard enough already!]
A-anyway, What's up?
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Tara had come up the stairs in front of Sayaka to see the girl sitting cross legged on the floor. After a second's thought to take in the situation, she decided to speak up.
The girl kept her voice low and soft, just in case Sayaka didn't hear her. She knew attempted meditation when she saw it, especially one that used a stone for a focus. So she didn't want to disturb the girl just in case she was properly meditating...but, well, Tara had seen others like Buffy struggle with it in the past, and thought she knew what that looked like as well.
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"Hey back to ya."
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"I mean, I, I hope you don't mind me saying, but...i-it's okay. Lots of people have trouble meditating. I-It's, it's harder than it looks."
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"You seem downright chipper." Still, he did stop his stairway expedition, one hand in his pocket, the other holding his briefcase.
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For all accounts, she could be worse, at least? Sayaka mainly looks put out, instead of miserable, which is a marked better mood than she's been often caught in.
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Later:
Well, now was the best time to make up for that! Right?
"How are you doing?"
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Minami's voice is somewhat difficult to place, but they must've traded names at some point, since that was a 'hi, Sayaka,' and not just a general 'hi.'
...well, might as well be some sort of social, even if she's feeling nothing but. Sayaka whirls to face Minami, pulling on a forced grin.
"Eh, I'm not doing not half bad! How about you?"