towerofanimus | Obsession [Open]

Characters: Shion and open
Setting: Corridors and then library
Format: Starting in prose will switch
Summary: Shion is not doing very well, at all. He hasn't left his room since he returned from the experiment but when Reno disappears Shion emerges to find him, when he fails he ends up in the library
Warnings: Very broken Shion, probably mentions of his punishment.

Days had begun to merge into each other, Shion hadn't left his room. He had barley eaten and had spent most his time sleeping, trapped in nightmares and memories of Nezumi being killed over and over again. He knew he was being weak, that he should keep going. Nezumi would be furious at him, to know that he had given up like this.

But whatever he did, he had failed already. He couldn't find the point in anything when no matter how hard he tried he would never be able to erase what had happened, or even stop it if it happened again. He didn't believe Reno's insistence that it wasn't Nezumi who had been hurt. He didn't know for certain and that meant it could had been.

That was enough.

Reno was the only person who stopped him going completely mad, he had seen what happened and so Shion didn't have to talk about it, but he was there and he was a constant. Until one day he didn't come back.

Despite the fear, the rage rushing through his head still and the numbness that still made him just want to sleep until the world made sense once more he cautiously left the room.

He wandered through the corridors looking like a ghost, he hadn't thought to put his shoes on, or his coat. His usual smiles and greetings were none existant, he looked blankly at people, half recognising them.

[much later] He couldn't find Reno anywhere, had they taken him? To torture him? Was Reno now being hurt? Shion felt cold despair settle on him and without realising his feet had taken him to the research library, he looked around blankly at all the books. He had read a lot since he had come here, but it still wasn't enough... He still didn't know enough.

Images of Nezumi being stabbed flashed before his eyes, innumerable questions that Shion didn't know the answer to, Nezumi being punished for his ignorance.

He couldn't let that happen again, he looked around the library before going to a stack of books. If he learned everything there was to know, read all these books... He wouldn't allow them to use his ignorance against him. Sitting down he began to read.

He didn't stop, even as the day got late and night began to fall. Once he finished a book he picked up another, memorising everything he read. If he read it all, every thing here and in the other library. Maybe then he would be clever enough to be of use.

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"Reading a book isn't going to get you want you need." Reno snapped, getting ready to drag Shion out kicking and screaming if he had to.

This was getting too much. He couldn't handle the trip and his roommate's behavior at the same time. Not when it was going like this. "Get up. I'm not going to leave you here to be a snack."

Shion stared at him, it had to... If he read everything he would know enough. Maybe. Perhaps there were not enough books in the tower, perhaps it would never be enough...

But still he wanted to stay, at least try. Because if he didn't, if he gave up and it happened again... Then it would be even more of his own fault, that he had the opportunity to learn and hadn't.

"No..." His voice was tiny, but he couldn't go, not yet.

Not quite understanding Shion's stubbornness, but all too aware of the risks to health and mind, Reno folded his arms for a moment. His own stomach was growling. There had been no food as far as he could find on the planet, but at least it had been only a few days. He could go without it, but Shion wasn't in any state to start this shit.

Without another word, he pulled the boy's chair away from the table, and powerlifted him out and over his shoulder. The turk wasn't in the mood for this, and meant business.

"Do it tomorrow."

"Reno..." Shion objected as his chair was pulled away from the table. He struggled a little as he was lifted but there wasn't much he could do since he probably weighed less than half of Reno.

"Let me down..." The stubbornness had left his voice though, it was back to being dull.

"Hey, you know how much you got me worried lately?" The turk was snapping now, his patience wore thin and he was still reeling from his little trip. He honestly hadn't meant to take it out on the boy, but enough was enough. "I came down here because you weren't up in the room, and be damned if I'm gonna let you just sit here all night with the rest of us worrying up there."

Other people worry about you Shion, you burden them even now. The fight left Shion and he lay limply letting Reno carry him. Reno went through a tough time, on his world, and now your making trouble for him. Repeating past mistakes back to himself and rethinking his actions was not new behavior but the voice had changed. It was the emotionless voice of the men that had been in that room.

He had to come down to get you, he should have been resting. You're a pain Shion. In his minds eye he saw the knife plunging into Nezumi again, for every crime. He still hadn't learned. He began to tremble and stared into space, not speaking.

He has far better things to worry about than you Shion.

Making an irritated noise at the back of his throat, he headed for the staircase, heading down as if he fully intended on taking him to the cafeteria. Stair after stair flashed by underneath, until he stopped- and it hadn't been far enough to be in the cafeteria.

No, this was Floor Seven. The one with the gigantic pool in it. Reno stepped off into this floor and made his way to the shallow end, standing right at the edge for a moment, before tossing Shion into it in a reverse bellyflop.

Knowing his luck, the kid probably didn't know how to swim either.

Shion didn't take anything in for most of the walk, his mind still firing images of what had happened at him. In fact he hadn't even realised that they weren't where they were supposed to be until the water hit him.

Reno was right in his assumption, Shion couldn't swim, he flailed in the water, limbs kicking out at random swallowing water. He was going to drown!

Panic welled up making him fight, splashing around uncontrollably.

Slapping a hand to his face, Reno just shook his head. It wasn't that deep, he had chosen a place where the water would be just touching Shion's chest.

"Shion. SHION. Just stand the hell up already. Shiva's tits."

Stand up? How could he stand up in water? Shion flailed a little more before kicking his leg downwards, it hit ground.

Oh... He stood up shakily and blinked. Oh...

His cheeks went red as he stood there, white hair plastered to his head. "Oh..."

Sigh. Reno leaned down, holding his hand out to help Shion up and out. Not a word spoken yet, he didn't really need to. The water was a sort of tough love, and little else he could say would add to that.

Shivering slightly, confused and wondering if he had finally stretched Reno's patience to breaking point Shion took his hand and clambered out.

No... He supposed, if he had truly pushed Reno too far Reno would have thrown him in the deep end and walked away.

Shion wondered why he hadn't, it would probably be for the best... except he would just come back... and continue being a burden...

He stood silently, embarrassed and ashamed.

"Now you have to go to bed."

Folding his arms, he tapped his foot and managed to look stern.

Shion looked down and nodded, he couldn't really argue, "I'm sorry..." His voice was still dull, it didn't sound like him at all but he was sorry. Truly, about a lot of things.

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