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[faithstaynight]

Characters: Ruler/Jeanne (faithstaynight) & YOU!
Setting: Floor 4
Format: Action, but I'll match if you want.
Summary: Jeanne has killed a man and snapped badly at another all within the span of less than a week. Poor girl is sulking, big time.
Warnings: N/A

[Guilt. Guilt was a thing Jeanne did not like to deal with. During her first life and her second, she had always done her best to live honestly, to mind her actions and make sure she would not do anything she would regret. But here, in the tower... it seems events were being thrown at her just to stress her out.

And so that guilt caused Jeanne to retreat again, to just... take a break and ignore things for a while. She wanted to avoid the Cathedral for a while; she knew it was unlikely to happen again, but if there was an encounter like the one with Aleph, with her in this state? It would've ended badly. Very badly. Instead she simply chose to collapse in the lounge. And what is she doing in the lounge? What any distraught Catholic would do, of course: pray.

She doesn't exactly look like she wants to be bothered, with her head bowed and hands clasped together as she mutters softly, but that certainly won't stop some people from approaching. Right?]

Comments

[forceless]

Nah-- just waiting for you to finish.

[He smiled. And belatedly realized oh yeah this is the first time he'd met her that wasn't a dream oh well.]

Everything OK?

[faithstaynight]

[Ah, yes, that little switch clicks on in her mind when she gets a good look at the boy. But she can't be too sure... that dream was a mess of chaos, there's a chance she could be mistaken.]

It will be, I think. I just... need some time to figure things out.

[forceless]

Need someone to talk to?

[A pause, and then another smile, though this one sheepish.] Although it's probably weird to talk to a total stranger about serious stuff. My name's Ventus.

[And he held out his hand in greeting.]

[faithstaynight]

[Jeanne shakes her head.] No, this is... something I must come to terms with on my own.

[She smiles, taking his hand.] But thank you for your offer, Ventus. I am Ruler.

[forceless]

Nice to meet you. [He shook her hand and grinned, before returning his hand back to his side.]

You seem nice enough to me, so I'm sure you'll be able to get through it. A lot of people let what happens here get to them, but you just have to press through you know?

[faithstaynight]

Precisely. Sitting around doing nothing while those feelings fester inside of you will only do harm, not good.

[... She sighs.] Which... I'm afraid I have been doing for several days prior to this one.

[forceless]

[He couldn't resist a small laugh, but it wasn't a mean one or anything. Mostly amused.]

It's hard-- you can tell it to other people, but it's a lot harder to actually do it yourself. Sometimes it just helps to get your mind off it too though. [Like what he did his entire year here!!]

[faithstaynight]

It's not that I am having trouble coming to terms with how I've been feeling lately... I like to think I'm as honest with myself as possible. I am just... unsure of how others involved in certain incidents feel right now.

There are other factors as well, but... I won't bother you by getting into those. [While very devout, she doesn't go pushing her religion around to those who may not want to hear it. So she'll hold off, for the moment.]

[forceless]

Hey, it's OK-- I'm the one that asked, after all. I'll listen if you want to talk about it.

[He just wants to heeelllllp]

You'll have to talk to them eventually though, right? It's not good to just avoid them..

[faithstaynight]

Yes... I will. Avoiding them will only make the situation worse as time goes on.

I'm... afraid, I suppose. Not just unsure. [It's not a feeling she likes admitting. For so long she had been a symbol of hope in her country - it wouldn't do well to show fear. Even at the very end with flames slowly consuming her, she hid her fear as deeply down as she could.] I desperately hope they will not react badly when I next see them...

[forceless]

[He frowned a bit at that; was that what Terra had felt like after he had left him and Aqua in Radiant Garden...? It wasn't that far of a jump, he supposed.]

I'm not sure if it'll be easy, but... they're still your friends, right? Even if they do react badly, that doesn't matter. [And his face lightened up once more.] You'll still be friends-- maybe just need a little more time.