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008 | ❝Get this party started...❞

Characters: The Persona casts and invited guests (just ask if you want to hop in!)
Setting: Media Level, September 15th
Format: Whatever suits your fancy!
Summary: So the Shadow Event was Hell (haha), a few of them grabbed some booze from various sources(?!), so iiiiiiit's PARTY TIME~
Warnings: Somehow srs discussions in one thread and underage drinking in others? I don't even know, man.

So the last seven days had been a misty hell in the tower surrounded by fog... literally.

Muzicons.com

Sure, this was likely the normal aside from the fog... but that didn't mean that the residents didn't need some time to blow off some steam every now and then, and for the Persona users? It had been extremely rough on them with all the Shadows manifesting. That also included their own. Especially included their own in some cases (ow, Naoya...).

It didn't take much, just a small filtered ~~and handwaved~~ message to the other Persona users that Yu knew from either running into them in the battle for everyone's sanity in the past week or before then. "Bring what you can get your hands on," he said, but to the leaders there was also "we need to talk." Because there had been a long period of time where they hadn't spoken as a group... and after bribing Strega with a few rounds of Halo and possible drinking games if they could get their hands on some booze, he'd headed back up to the media floor...

There were no fancy decorations, but he had picked up what was disrupted from the fighting and cleaned like whoa. Everything was set up with whatever few snacks he'd saved in his trunk from the previous month.

Come on in whenever...

[ooc: feel free to mingle and do what you want. This IS a party, after all... so let loose and have fun with it! Start your own threads if there's something that doesn't fit what you were going to do. :3]
[EDIT: Due to earlier confusion, if anyone who knows/is close to any of the Persona people, they are welcome. Really, this is a party for friends.]

Directory
Mingling! || Persona Team Leaders' Meeting || Movie Night! || Video Games! || Karaoke! || Kiiiiiing's Game!

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Honestly... I don't know.

[He doesn't have the energy or the will to keep smiling after that. Nor the will to make eye contact apparently, because he shifts his arm across his chest to fiddle with his flower as his eyes revert to the ground.]

The one who gave us our powers saw us only as tools in his game. Being used and manipulated never gets easier... We have to strike our own path-- away from their mechanisms.

[His expression fell, though it was hard to see.] Though that's easier said than done...

[ ... He... looks down at the Evoker attached to his holster. ]

... I never wanted this power.

[ He just wanted his family. A normal life. ]

They didn't give me anything. They took everything away and used me, killed dozens of kids, hurt my friends, made one of them so...

[ But no he can't talk about Takaya, it's just much too painful, even for him, even if he keeps his face straight and expressionless, now. He shakes his head. ]

I'm already unstable because of my Persona. There's nothing I can do about it. ... Even if I wanted to...

[ Absently, he's reminded of the item that Naoya's Shadow left him... and he wonders what it was for. ]

Edited 2012-09-16 10:05 (UTC)

I admit, my Persona isn't corrupted like yours... and sometimes it can be a boon... [Lord knows he'd feel empty without hearing Chronos or someone there.] But sometimes I wonder... if things would be better off without them at all...

[It was hard not to think about that, after all. If he'd never met the others, he'd have never played the Persona Game. What would the world they were going to remake have been like...?]

I don't believe there's nothing you can do though. I'm not familiar with what happened, but... if I was able to overcome my own Chaos, I'm sure there are ways to overcome yours. Yours weren't the first Personae to be corrupted somehow.

[Assuming Jun's could keep his own in check, at least...]

Edited 2012-09-18 07:10 (UTC)

[ ... He just doesn't think it's worth it regardless, to be honest. There's a long pause here. ]

... They weren't? But would it even be the same? I'm not even sure how we'd...

[ How they'd even attempt to start trying to fix this problem. Well... Philemon had told him a little, but he didn't know enough to make assumptions. He had a small amount of hope that maybe somewhere in this Tower was SOMEONE who could help them, somehow.

Minato considers this for a bit, before speaking. He doesn't really want to talk about it or elaborate, but Jun wants to help. He still doesn't feel right to be forgiven in the first place, but... ]

Our Personas weren't exactly meant to be with us in the first place. I mean, they were forcibly implanted into our heads by scientists as Shadows, and the two clashing psyches reject each other, so it causes a lot of... problems, to say the least. The Persona wants to get free or get control, one way or another. One mind fighting another constantly for control. We can dull them into forced cooperation or being quieter with Suppressants, but they still only really put a cap on the problem.

The longer we're here, the worse it's getting, too. Even if we die that might reset us to how we were when we got here, but the longer we spend between revival, the more likely losing control gets. We have to up our dosages and hope it works. They might not admit it, but I know that... it bothers them, too. Our Personas could take us over completely if they overpower us. We'd just be shells at that point for them. That's why we weren't... really supposed to make friends with people in the first place.

[ ... He glances over to where he knows Jin and Chidori are, frowning. Getting attached, making stupid mistakes such as letting others help you--wasn't it just a recipe for pain and disaster in the end? ]

[~~Chidori and Jin are probably busy playing Halo right now anyway.~~

His face grew more sour and cold at Minato' explanation. People forcing shadows into others, forcing them to take power, drawing power against their will... humanity was just a toy even to other humans.

And the idea of a Persona taking over... made him feel a bit sick. A different kind than just sensing the Stregas normally, though he tried to hide it. Too many bad memories coming up again this week.]

No... you wouldn't be a shell... you'd still be there, somewhere-- you could still come back. A Persona... even one that's not right, can't exist if their other half is dead--if you're dead. They could kill you, and they'll die with you... Or if they take over, there'd still be a way back.

[A pause.] But... only if you have friends to bring you back.

I know that's not very hopeful, but I won't lie to you. But people have had their Personas taken away before. I... don't know how to do it, but it's possible.

[ ... What to say... ]

... If he wasn't so dangerous to others, I honestly wouldn't be bothered by it. After all, I've been able to help people even though he's also hurt them. Still... if I could do something for the others to at least make them more cooperative, I would do it.

I just wish I knew how. In this place, getting rid of our Personas would also be as good as death anyway. It's basically a catch-22. Not that... it's that big a deal, but...

It'd leave you a bit more...defenseless. But there was a way to remove them without killing someone. Even if they've been twisted.

[He sighed, mostly at himself. Why was he bringing this up when he knew he didn't know how to do that? It wouldn't even be worth asking Nyarlatotep to do it if he was still here.]

I can't say there's any way to defend the others... to guarantee everyone's safety would be too much for anyone. Awareness is certainly a factor... [Hrrgggh why was this so hard. His brow furrowed.] I'm sure there must be some sort of fail-safe against them though...

[ ... After a moment he just sighs. ]

... When we fought Toudou-san's Shadow, it gave all of us something. It was weird. Said something about... unlocking our true potential?

[ He pauses, but then just... shakes his head. He needs another drink. ]

... I really have no idea what that even means, but... I've been here for a year. And I guess if I manage to even live long enough to die again the proper way I'm supposed to and all, they'll just bring me back. There's no use worrying about it. So...

[ ... Tatsuya. He needs to do something about him... ]

Could... you talk to Suou-san for me, Kurosu-san? I can't really blame him for being upset with me. We had a meeting and that didn't really go all that well, either--I just... don't want to fight with anyone anymore. It's getting... tiring. You're... the only one who really seems to understand what being used like this is like. I'd... I'm not even aware of what happened. I had to be told secondhand. I just woke up covered in--

[ Covered in other people's blood, and his own. He cuts himself off. ]

... I kept thinking maybe distancing myself might prevent it from happening again, but I have no way of... knowing if it will or not. I'm just going to have to try to make sure it... doesn't happen. Even if it does, until then, I just don't want... to hinder everyone else. We're not going to get anywhere if we can't work together...

Edited 2012-09-27 11:20 (UTC)

[Ah yes, he remembered the conversation the Shadow had had with them. No doubt it had something to do with obtained their Ultimate Personas. Could one whose Persona was not their own ascend...? Well, Jun had gotten Chronos even though Hermes was derived from Mayuzumi's power. Though the situations were different, he supposed it was possible.

He stopped his thoughts for now when Minato was finished speaking, and smiled softly.] I'll talk to him, don't worry. Tatsuya's just protective. [And weirdly enough, the thoughts makes him smile more.] After everything that's happened, he's just a bit slow to forgive...

[Minato certainly didn't need to finish that sentence. Though the Joker would never let his pristine white uniform be dirtied, he certainly knew what he was saying.]

...When it happened to me, there were people there to pull me back when I'd gone over the edge. People who cared about me... Distancing yourself will only hurt you more. I know you have loved ones who can do that for you too, if you let them.

[He idly fiddled with his flower.] It's...hard to admit you need help like that... But it's nice to know there's someone there to stop you when you need it.

[ ... When he thinks on it, he realizes he's right. After all, Chidori and the others had been there when his Shadow appeared.

... It'd be stupid to just do that, huh? Like he tried to before. He thinks he's learned his lesson... but... ]

... Yeah.

[ ... He's... he's just glad maybe Jun can do something. He isn't sure what to do with himself at this point, but it's... a start. ]

Sorry. That's the best I can do in this situation.

[There was a slight frown on his face now. There was way too much that he was powerless to do around here...] But I'll do my best.

[ Here, he just sighs, and smiles. ]

... No, it's all right. I should be the one apologizing. Our problems aren't... really yours, anyway. Though I guess in a weird way, they... might be. Still, we'll... find a way. No, I'll find a way. I think... we have to find our own answers.

... A long time ago, a former friend of mine helped save all of our lives. We decided we wouldn't worry about the future, but here I am worrying about it anyway... stupid, huh?

[He chuckled sadly, the lackluster smile creeping back on.] I'm not sure it's entirely possible for anyone to not worry about the future in some capacity. Humans always seem to focus on time they can't reach yet.

Even if you don't think it's my problem... we're all Persona-users, and at the least, we're all stuck in this place. So I think in a way, we're all kind of stuck with each other's problems.

[It wasn't the happiest sentiment, but oddly enough, it made him smile more.]

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