towerofanimus | A Thousand Ways To Say "I'm Sorry."

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A Thousand Ways To Say "I'm Sorry."

Characters: Diarmuid Ua Duibhne (Zero Lancer), the list of people he feels he has to apologize to after the experiment, and anyone else who runs into him around the tower looking quite a bit worse for the wear...
Setting: Anywhere in the tower
Format: Whatever you want to use. I will match.
Summary: After the experiment, Diarmuid finally gets around to dropping off a bunch of letters to the people he feels he needs to apologize to. He is also spending too much time fighting monsters and trying to make sure everyone in the tower is safe. Even for a servant, he's starting to not look so go. Stop him? Be saved by him? Save him?
Warnings: Angst? Derpiness? Updated to add: Clowns! Beware the clowns... Oh and blood, violence and death. Yep, both Lancers are going to bite it in here...
Note: The letters may be ignored or responded to as the character's muns see fit. I know not every character is going to care that Diarmuid feels like he needs to apologize. He's going to do it anyway cause that's how he is.

[Maybe it's because Diarmuid's old-fashioned or maybe it's just because he wants to see the letters delivered to a place that he knows the recipients will find them, but despite the new mail system, today many people within the tower will find a note or small gift sitting on their bed when they next stop by their room. If they don't spend much time in their room, they will instead find the note waiting for them in whatever place they spend the most time.]

Catarina:

Catarina's note is folded into the shape of a rose. The outside 'petals' have even been tinted red. Once unfolded, the note simply reads:

Lady, I hope your necklace turned up safely after the experiment ended. --Diarmuid

Zelda:

Lady, we met under...non-ideal circumstances. I hope that our future encounters will be far more pleasant. If you need another warrior in the fight against those who keep us here and you are willing to trust me after everything, my blade is yours. --Diarmuid Ua Duibhne

Mami:

Mami's note is folded into the shape of a rose with its 'petals' tinted yellow. Beside the note will be the small jar of tea he got from Lambdadelta. It's suppose to taste like Earl Gray with rose petals and white chocolate, but he hasn't tried it to find out accurate that description is.

Mami, I don't know how to begin to apologize to you for what I have done. Please take this gift as a small sign of how sorry I am. I will understand if you don't wish to speak with me again. However, I would like to try and continue to make things up to you. May I have that chance? --Diarmuid

Hidetoshi:

If you want, I can teach you how to skin a deer... --Diarmuid Ua Duibhne

Rin:

Rin's note is folded into the shape of a rose. Its 'petals' are red, though the edges have been blackened.

Lady, may we talk? I have much to say to you. --Diarmuid

Shotaro:

Are you all right? I never wanted to hurt you. Tell me how to make it up to you. --Diarmuid Ua Duibhne

Suzaku:

Since they never exchanged names, it takes a long time for Diarmuid to track down Suzaku, but his determination finally wins out.

We...need to talk. I was unforgivably rude to you, though I have every reason to believe the things you told me about your past were true. You cannot become like I did. I won't allow it. --Diarmuid Ua Duibhne

The Endless Witch:

I have not forgotten that I owe you a favor... --Diarmuid Ua Duibhne

Aleph:

It takes a while to track down who Aleph is since they never exchanged names, but fortunately for Diarmuid, there aren't a lot of demon summoners in the tower.

We should hunt them again soon... --Diarmuid Ua Duibhne

[After delivering his notes, Diarmuid returns to what he has been busying himself with ever since the experiment ended--making sure everyone is safe from the monsters and floors in the tower. With all the new floors that have just shown up, he has plenty of places to be in too. The problem is, he is taking no time to rest and not eating. While servants really don't need to eat or sleep, with as much energy as he is expending fighting monsters day and night, he really should be because otherwise, it's only going to be a matter of time before he runs into something he can't handle...]

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To fight and to kill, of course! What else would you use them for? 'From babysitting, to being your opponent in an online game, to shooting down a space shuttle'.. something like that..? [ She giggles. That was what the Siestas had said, huh? ]

A witch like me can't always make her own hands dirty, so sometimes it's up to Furniture to take care of it.

I honestly had no idea, Lady.

[He shakes his head.]

Mostly I was just curious if it was anything like the Master/Servant relations I am used to.

So what kind are you used to then?

[Diarmuid pauses, not sure if he should really answer such a question especially to one as dangerous as she is, but since he's already told so many other people if she really wants to know, she could find out. There is really no reason to not answer her.]

On my world, I'm what is called a Servant. I am a copy of the soul of a long dead hero called back through magic to fight in a war. My Master was the one who called me back and it was my duty to serve him during the war. Whatever he needed me to do, I did so that we could win the war and he could gain his wish. My wish was only that I be allowed to serve and gain him that victory.

Before that, during my first life, I was a knight and it was my duty to serve my lord. My life was his to command as he saw fit.

[ .. Heh. What's that kind of answer..? His existence basically exists to serve someone else, really? With that her slightly annoyed or bored expression fades and the usual grin returns instead. ]

Wha-t..? Doesn't that mean you're like Furniture? You're supposed to serve someone, riiight? [ A giggle. ] So is your 'Master' in this tower, hm?

Yes, I have lived my whole life in service to another. It is...odd for me to be without a master here, so I suppose I am like your Furniture in a way. That is why I was asking about the specifics since the system seemed somewhat familiar.

[Her grin worries him, but the damage is done so he just presses forward. What good would it do to anger her now?]

My master from the war is not here and even if he was, I wouldn't serve him again. When he forced me to kill myself, he severed any bond we might have had.

[ Well, she doesn't seem really surprised by anything he's telling her. But she might just seem a little.. excited, somehow. ]

Can Servants like you even exist without a Master..? Isn't it weird?

If this were my world? No, I could not. While some servants have skills that allow them to survive a little longer without a master, ultimately, no master means no energy to sustain a form with. The servant would just fade away.

Here is a different story. Even though I have no master, I can survive just fine. My energy replenishes on its own and I don't have to eat or...

[Diarmuid blushes slightly before choosing not to finish that sentence.]

In any event, I am surviving just fine, though it is weird not to have someone to look to for orders at times since I am so used to it.

[ She's just listening to all of this, trying to memorize it - that's at least something she's good at, even before she became a witch. Memorizing, studying.. due to her ambitions she easily got good at it. ]

And you don't miss having one..? [ Not that she's asking out of concern or anything. She's honestly just poking, trying to get information, trying to think of how she could make him go back to the way he was during that event, how to make him her Furniture that way.. ]

I don't miss him.

[Darkness passes across his eyes for a moment.]

However, as I said, it feels odd to me not to have a master sometimes. Everyone keeps telling me that I should take this chance to do what I what, but...

[He pauses a moment, eyes suddenly distant.]

...honestly, I don't know what I want and it seems like following what I want is what will lead me to becoming what I was during the experiment anyway. I shouldn't take that chance. I just don't know how things in the modern world work well enough. My world was so black and white, not the many shades of gray that seem to make up the world now.

Edited (Because, of course I find a typo just after posting...) 2013-02-12 22:04 (UTC)

[ .. Hee, that darkness.. anger? Hatred? Disgust? Whatever variant it is, she knows it very well. It's almost amusing how much potential he has and yet he can't see it himself, it makes her want to pick at that feeling more and more.. ]

Then why haven't you tried finding a new Master here?

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[Diarmuid is quiet for a while before answering.]

So much has happened so quickly I guess I haven't had a chance to really look. I want to make sure I get a good master this time. Someone who understands what is important to me and doesn't just see me as a tool. After all that has happened, I think it is probably best I don't rush this. It will only end up in people being hurt if I do.

[There is uncertainty in his eyes. As much as he wants a master again, he also doesn't know if he is worthy of serving anymore. Who would want someone who has made as many mistakes as he has recently?]

[ Well. This might be more difficult than she imagined at first. Okay, part of her already realised there was no way he would want someone like her as his Master, ubt.. maybe that's just the fun of it, right? Like a challenge.

She hasn't had one of those in a while. She giggles at the very thought. ]

That's right, that's right..! Kyahaha, just imagine what might happen if you'd get the wrong kind of master, huh..?

[His eyes darken again, the anger that flashes in them this time much stronger.]

I know all too well the penalty of having a bad master. I need not imagine it.

[ .. That anger is perfect. Wasn't she the one who transformed Eva's anger into magic, into hard work and results? Anger is definitely something she can use.. so even now, she just remains as cheerful as ever. In her own special way. ]

... He-y, how does it work, anyway? [ Yes, feigning innocence in her cheerfulness though. ] How do you become someone's Servant?

I'm afraid I can't really answer that. Only a Master would know the specifics. All I know is that there is a magical ceremony that calls us out from the Throne of Heroes. When a Servant arrives, he asks the magus who has summoned him if he is his Master and the answer seals the contract, though I'm not really sure if that is required. It might just be tradition.

[Diarmuid shakes his head.]

I don't know how that would work here or with a Servant who doesn't have a Master but has already been summoned. It might just require a swearing of fealty. I never experienced it, so I don't know.

[His eyes narrow in suspicion.]

Why do you ask? You realize that having a Servant isn't a one-sided deal, right? There are things that affect the Master as well.

[ Yeah, no way she can summon one if he's already here! It's defeating the point. And he doesn't know how else to do it either, huh.. maybe there's someone around who knows? Or maybe some book in the library - her mind is already going over all the possibilities, calculating as ever.

Until that last line snaps her out of it. ]

'Things'? What kind of things?

Yes, while I'm not sure how it would work here, there is a bond between a Master and a Servant. On my world, the Master provides the energy a Servant needs to remain in the world. I have mentioned this before. I don't seem to need that here, so I don't know how that part of the bond would be affected, but other things besides energy can travel across the bond. Things like memories or emotions. Masters will often dream of their servant's pasts and the reverse can also sometimes happen though that happens less often.

Masters and Servants can also sense each other through the bond so that they know what is going on with each other--if they are in trouble or upset. Things like that.

[Diarmuid's eyes narrow slightly as he speaks. He's slowly starting to get an idea of why she might be asking all these questions and he doesn't like it. Not one bit.]

Really, the bond is quite personal. Some might even call it invasive. Do you really want that?

[ Huh, that bond really is weird.. it makes her somewhat think of the bond between her and Eva - sharing memories, or.. well, it was more like sharing a mind until she declared herself seperate from the woman, right? So it's not that strange to her, and it shows in her expression that it doesn't affect her much. ]

I don't really mind. Do I look like I have anything to hide?

[Diarmuid shrugs.]

I don't know, Lady. Do you? Like maybe why you are suddenly so interested in all of this? Do you really want me to be your Servant? We do not get along. It would be a disaster.

I would never agree to it...

[ Oh no, Diamuid, did you never learn anything? If you tell a kid they can't have something, they'll just want it more and throw a tantrum until they get it.. ]

Ah, you wouldn't..? Kyahaha, I guess we'll have to see about that then!

[His eyes narrow again.]

It would be a waste for both of us.

[And hell for him, not that Diarmuid is foolish enough to say that.]

You may think it would be amusing now, but I suspect the novelty would wear off very quickly.

Hmm, hmm~!

[ Her tone is very much like a kid that's not listening to what a parent or teacher is telling them. ]

Whatever you say! You'll see that I always get what I want, one way or another.

You do not want me!

[There is something frustrated and almost desperate in his voice.]

I have done nothing but fail my past masters, and I would only do the same to you because you will expect from me things I cannot do. Don't waste your time!

... [ Sure, she can hear that desperate side in his tone, but.. seriously, his arguments just throw her off for a moment. Is he trying to get her to stop by trying to convince her it's not what she wants? She knows plenty what she wants! ]

Wha-t, you're telling me you're concerned for me? It's not like you care what I want or don't want, right?

A Thousand Ways To Say "I'm Sorry."

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Hear that hammering? Someone's pounding some nails in on his coffin....

LMFAO SERIOUSLY.. diarmuid, stop, don't let your e-rank luck lead the way

If he could stop, it wouldn't be E-Ranked luck anymore. It would be like E+ or something...

ah, this is true.. so he'll just keep running into the worst people forever

I worry how she would react to knowing the best way to power up a servant in his world...

dfhjsdjhjfskj let's just.. never tell her...

You realize E Luck means he will probably just let it slip someday, right?

AHAHAHA IT'S TRUE.. everything will just forever be awful between these two

Awful for them, hilarious for us. I like this arrangement! LOL!

i know, their cr is just so funny to me.. even if i feel so sorry for poor diarmuid..

He does it to himself, I swear! X.x

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Nope...he never does learn. LOL!

AHAHAHA HE REALLY DOESN'T.. i apologize to him..

Bah, what for? He deserves it. LOL!

AHAHA BUT I FEEL SORRY FOR HIM.. he's too nice for this!

Has she realized she could use her 'favor' to ask him to be her servant?

yes, it's why she's trying to pull as much information out of him as possible right now..

LOL! Figured as much!

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