towerofanimus | I'm sorry...

Characters: Tohko Amano and Lancer (Cu Chulainn)
Setting: Floor 78.
Format: I'm starting in prose, but I'll match you!
Summary: Tohko, upon sending her note to Lancer, sits down in a corner and waits for him to return while trying to deal with Ganon's curse. Lancer..then attempts a mercy kill.
Warnings: Tohko's death.

Ganon's curse was getting even worse now. Her dreams had been filled with images of a burning library, and her parents screams..and her feet had turned to stone. She could still walk, but she was in utter agony, and couldn't wear any shoes.

Even though anything she ate had tasted like hot coals, she had forced herself to eat a small collection of love stories after finishing her library duties. She was starving..but every bite burned. After leaving the library, she began the long and painful climb up the stairs, using one of the walls to help support herself. She was in pain..but she had to keep going. She had to get to the mailroom.

There, after catching her breath and trying to calm down, she read Lancer's latest letter. Using a scrap of paper in her pocket and her pen, she jotted down a reply before carefully sitting down in a corner to wait for him.

She was exhausted..but she would try to put on a good smile when he came in. She didn't want to make him worry even more.

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"I..."

There is no good way to do this. How does he explain that he is killing her for her own good? How does he justify it, even to himself?

"...I know this is horrible. I wouldn't choose this if there was any other way."

Even as he speaks, the words sound hollow. He knows he'll feel horrible once this deed is done. He knows that she would probably hate him afterwards.

But it's the only solution he can see. And the only way he can protect her.

"Sorry. I won't ask you to forgive me."

And then he starts moving toward her.

In response, Tohko kept slowly moving backwards, moving out of the way of any fairy rings when she felt her feet bump into a mushroom. She sighed to herself.

"..I just gave you an alternative..it's not a good one..but it's one I could live with..and I don't know if I'll be able to forgive you..but I won't hate you."

While she didn't like what he was trying to do, she did realize that he was trying to help her, in his own way, and that this option pained him, since they were both friends.

After she said that, she turned and tried to run..but only fell flat on her face after a few steps. Her feet were in too bad a shape to run, and she was in too much pain. She quickly tried to stand up, biting on her lip and quietly cursing herself to falling victim to an old cliche.

Even if she were at normal speeds, he could have easily moved to block her escape, given his power as a Servant. There isn't even a hint of excitement as he closes the space between them and hooks his arms around her waist. The memories of Misaya's death pop up in his mind again. There's no hesitation this time. His scarlet spear is thrust down to pierce her chest. The curse bound to Gae Bolg would surely destroy her heart and kill her in a matter of seconds.

Tohko didn't want to die..but she didn't want to fight Lancer either, so she didn't draw her dagger to block or fight back. Lancer was too fast for her to do either anyway.

The only thing she could do was scream and cry in pain as his spear plunged into her chest and smashed her heart. In a few seconds, she would die..but she wouldn't say anything to Lancer. What could she say at this moment of time that she hadn't already said? She wasn't sure she could forgive him right now-if ever-so she couldn't say anything like that..

All she could do was just scream and cry as she died. Nothing more. However, her eyes would be open when she did.

All things considered, the killing had been quick, brutal, and efficient. Quicker than it should have been, considering what he was doing.

It was the scream that made him doubt his actions even as he pulled the spear out. He wanted to give her a peaceful death. One that would let her come back healed of her injuries. What he had done was terrify her.

As a Servant summoned into the Grail War, he had been prepared to kill innocent people who would play witness to a battle between him and his enemies. Yet, this was different. With his own hands, he had killed an innocent person against their will. An innocent person who was also a friend that he wanted to protect.

What sort of hero was he? The same doubt he had upon Misaya's death invades his mind again. He doesn't deserve to be a hero. He doesn't deserve to be Cu Chulainn.

With a shaking hand, he closes Tohko's eyes and mouth, and then crosses her hands on her chest. He'll leave the body there, lying in the meadow. There's really no good place to take her.

Then, he dashes back to the stair case. He needs to find a good place to isolate himself once his emotions stop being numb from shock.

I'm sorry...

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