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Makoto Naegi @ Tower of Animus ([personal profile] yougotthatwrong) wrote in [community profile] towerofanimus2013-03-22 01:55 am

maybe there's nothing

Characters: Makoto Naegi and OPEN
Setting: Dorm Floors
Format: bracketspam!
Summary: He's tired, he just wanted to sleep.
Warnings: Suicidal thoughts, possible death.

[Spring // Everywhere]
[Maizono-san left.

Again.

To him, this chilling rain fit his current mood all too well as he just stood there in the hallways, trudging through silently as he did nothing of sorts to even protect himself. In fact, he was too tired that the only thing he could do was to walk on and try to get his bearings together. February and March at this point, could go to hell for all he care- but that'd be too strong a word for him, hell.

But it's really fitting, since this tower could be comparable to that.

His thoughts were interrupted as he collapsed on a heap, exhaustion, hunger and the cold finally getting to him as he just lied there on the ground, looking as if he's about to die.]
forgetbeam: (JUDGING)

[personal profile] forgetbeam 2013-03-25 01:09 am (UTC)(link)
The ground is not comfortable!

[He puts one hand on each of Naegi's shoulders, squeezing firmly. Never mind how dangerously he himself has been toeing the line between Hope and Despair since February. Never mind that he's had his own doubts about pretending he's suited for any kind of leadership position here, or that there's even anything to work toward anymore. It's still second-nature for him to try and keep up morale when he can, no matter what his own feelings are.]

These bodies may not be our own, but you should not treat yours so carelessly.
forgetbeam: (Gross sobbing)

[personal profile] forgetbeam 2013-03-25 02:16 pm (UTC)(link)
Naegi-kun...

[He just stares at Naegi for a long moment, barefuly feeling the rain running down his face anymore at this point.]

...Death really is that meaningless here, isn't it?

[It's a thought he'd been ignoring this whole time, but suddenly he just can't hold it back anymore. His words sting like bile and he regrets everything as soon as he says it, but he can't stop now.]

Without a meaning to death, our lives don't have one either. Even in Hope's Peak... no, especially in Hope's Peak, every moment was so precious because it could have been taken away for good! But here, it's as though there isn't a point, is there? It is truly a meaningless existence...! There isn't even any future to work toward!

[He bows his head, shoulders shaking. Getting it all out doesn't feel better after all. Ah, this isn't any good at all... This is the opposite of keeping up morale... What good is he?!]
Edited 2013-03-25 14:29 (UTC)
forgetbeam: (I TRIED SO HAAARD AND GOT SO FAAAR)

Ishimaru exists in Animus just to break hearts. JUST LIKE CANON... 1/2

[personal profile] forgetbeam 2013-03-28 03:16 am (UTC)(link)
...Are you...?

[His mind is shrouded with so many doubts, even in Naegi. Naegi, who had become someone he felt he could confide to for nearly anything. Naegi, who had taught him so much about people in such a short amount of time. Naegi, who seemed to have the uncanny ability to fine the hope and truth in everything.

...Naegi, who had been in such a state of despair just moments ago.

Hearing him manage words of optimism is enough for Ishimaru to keep from voicing his doubts, though they persist silently. It's just enough for him to know that Naegi is not completely lost like he is... or so he can pretend.
]
forgetbeam: (Love and peace that's my policy)

[personal profile] forgetbeam 2013-03-28 03:19 am (UTC)(link)
[He sniffs and gives a firm nod of false agreement.]

Then I have confidence that we will.

[Lying... hurts. But he'll endure it for Naegi's sake.]
forgetbeam: (Let me think on this)

[personal profile] forgetbeam 2013-03-29 03:59 pm (UTC)(link)
[Maybe he'll start to believe it if he fakes it long enough.]

Right. The issue is finding someplace that is high enough from the ground not to flood and that also has cover from the rain above...

[He puts a fist to his chin.]

There is a... tower within this Tower, many floors down.
forgetbeam: (...I have no idea!)

[personal profile] forgetbeam 2013-04-03 05:54 pm (UTC)(link)
[As hard as it is to keep track of each and every floor, something as crazy as that definitely sticks out in Ishimaru's memory.]

It... was one of the higher floors. I'm sure of it. Do you think that we should try the elevators? If it's raining inside them, we could drown on the way, but the stairs are also dangerous...
forgetbeam: (Let's get down to business)

[personal profile] forgetbeam 2013-04-05 02:33 pm (UTC)(link)
Alright. Let's go...! But watch your footing. They will be slippery.

[AND THEY'RE OFF.]
forgetbeam: (SCREAMING)

[personal profile] forgetbeam 2013-04-11 03:14 am (UTC)(link)
[But first, involuntarily watersliding down the stairs.]