[OPEN] I swear to drunk I'm not god.

[thebigsister]

Characters: Eleanor Lamb and YOU.
Setting: All over the Tower.
Format: Action, but I'll match you.
Summary: Eleanor doesn't really know how to handle this flu thing, it's been a long time since she's been sick! Well, conventionally sick that is.
Warnings: Cranky, cranky teenagers who can set things on fire with their minds. Also random teleporting and potential telekinetic shenanigans.

[Eleanor woke up this morning with her head feeling like it was stuffed with wool. That was a novelty of a sort, and not a very pleasant one. She shrugged it off though, not entirely familiar with the whole flu process, though somewhere in the back of her head, several dozen voices whined in unison about how awful it was.

Eleanor got dressed in her suit and as usual set out to wander around the Tower, steps slow and gaunt looming.

Except, even if you're used to seeing her go around by now, you might be surprised to see her stumbling a little, leaning heavily sideways and nearly falling off the stairs more than once. For all intents and purposes, it seems like nearly seven feet worth of drunken diving suit, though of course that's not the case.

Hell, her portholes are glowing blue. Blue. She didn't even know that was a thing that could happen.]

Comments

[thebigsister]

[Suddenly quiet.]

That is not possible, I'm afraid.

[tohko_amano]

Why not?

[thebigsister]

[Eleanor taps the helmet with a finger.]

Because I'm not alone in here. So it never really quiets down.

[tohko_amano]

Ah..so you have schizophrenia too?

[Tohko sighed. At least this person was a lot nicer than Edward..]

I'm sorry to hear that..

[thebigsister]

No, it's a bit different from that.

[She shrugs, not really sure how to explain it without going into unfortunate details about ADAM and genetic experiments.]

I mean, they all used to be real people, with lives of their own and all. And then they died and ended up in me.

[tohko_amano]

[Tohko nodded, trying to understand.]

So..their consciousnesses were put into you. How? And why? That seems like a terrible thing to do..

[thebigsister]

...it seemed like a good idea at the time?

[To her mother, maybe. Eleanor had known it was a Bad Idea from the start but of course no one listens to the kid about to become someone's science fair pet project. She tilts her head to the side, shrugging in an exaggerated fashion to try and make a joke out of a very unfunny situation.]

[tohko_amano]

[Sadly, the attempt to make a joke out of the situation didn't work. Tohko sighed.]

Who could have thought that was a good idea? The people in charge of that experiment? I don't think you thought it was a good idea, as you were the one who was going to have to live with all those consciousnesses.

[thebigsister]

Eh, you get used to it.

[Eleanor shrugs.]

I mean, what's done is done, right?

[How do I handle questions. How do I handle sympathy. Halp!]

[tohko_amano]

Not all the time. What can be done can sometimes be undone..and even if it can't be, that doesn't mean that you have to like it.

[You handle questions by answering them honestly..]

[thebigsister]

[Bluh.]

Lingering on what you like or don't like doesn't solve anything, though. It's better to take action!

[tohko_amano]

Taking action is important, but if you don't think before you take it, you could end up just making things worse, or not solving the problem at all.

[thebigsister]

Thinking about feelings, though?

[Uhhhh.]

[tohko_amano]

That can also help. If you're depressed, sometimes a bit of thinking can help. If you have problems that involve emotions, a bit of pondering usually doesn't hurt.

[thebigsister]

[Another shrug.]

I prefer not to linger on things like that.

[tohko_amano]

How come? Are things like that not important to you?

[thebigsister]

Feeling and thinking are very different things for me.

[She starts swaying back and forth again, but at least she doesn't seem to be about to fall flat on her face yet.]

It's complicated.

[tohko_amano]

I see..you could try explaining it to me. I might understand.

[Tohko almost grabs her by the shoulder to support her, but since it seems that she can still right herself, Tohko doesn't. Not yet, anyway.]

[thebigsister]

You really want to know?

[She's not usually cagey as much as no one bothering to ask, so there's a bit of novelty there.]

[tohko_amano]

[Tohko nodded.]

Yes.

[thebigsister]

Well, it's all about keeping track of myself. I can't really question why I think or feel a certain way, not too much anyway! Because then they start bleeding into that. And they're very useful, because they know a lot of things and share a lot of skills with me, but if I let them bleed in then I start losing myself a little. So if something's mine, I don't question why, it's just mine. Emotions or thoughts or something else. It would be dangerous if they took control.

[tohko_amano]

[Tohko nodded and thought, trying to understand.]

Right..if you paused and thought about yourself and your emotions for a moment, they would be able to bleed in, and since there's so many of them, you'd lose yourself in the confusion and the ruckus. You can get into them, but they can't get into you, or you would cease to be you.

..Do I have it right?

[thebigsister]

[The helmet bobs in agreement, which of course causes the swaying to turn into something more pronounced.]

That's mostly it. It'd be dangerous if they won.

[tohko_amano]

[And that was it. Tohko grabbed the girls shoulder and helped support her.]

I can see why. However, if you're not well physically, wouldn't it be easier for them to win? You need to get your strength back and recover.

[thebigsister]

But I'm fine, honest.

[She's totally not.]