towerofanimus | To Drown Out

To Drown Out

Characters: Enoch never intended it but, everyone who's up for drinking!
Setting: Cafeteria, throughout the day (sorry team indigo)
Format: Party, do what you want!
Summary: With Riki being generous with the food again, Enoch decides to see, first, if he can still get drunk at all, and second, if being drunk will help keep his new headmate quiet. A (not-so-) surprising amount of people are likely to be interested in drinking with him.
Warnings: Drunken shenanigans. Possible angst because he might actually talk about Eleven under the influence. Might also talk about gory details of the meeting with Ruana. Did I say drunken shenanigans? I think I need to say that again.

*Much like just before the glamour failure, Enoch sits with several bottles of red wine from the kitchen stock. Unlike then, he has no extra glasses out to share with. He is not drinking to a plunge into the unknown. He is drinking to drown things. Mostly, the voice screaming in his head.

But nothing really changes the fact that any modern wine is of much higher quality than anything his time could produce, and he's savoring its flavor too, in long sips. It's almost a distraction, itself.

Speaking of distractions, he certainly won't object to any company, and if it turns into a larger gathering he may get so caught up in it he'll forget how much he's had.

And so might you. Care to grab a drink for yourself? He won't mind if you ask for some of the wine he has.*

((ooc: Of course you can approach Enoch like any other log, but due to interest expressed this is actually more of a mingle! Start games and contests if you'd like or just hang out and have your characters get drunk or bodyguard or spectate. Please identify new games and contests in the header to make it clearer to people scrolling through! Naturally there can be several threads of the same game, considering this isn't organized at all.

Have fun, and do keep an eye out for monsters...))

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[ Sertoria frowns slightly at chaos' dismissal of his problems, but only sighs and sits down next to him. She rubs at her arm nervously, glancing down at her lap. ]

I... am alright, too. Better, but alright, relatively speaking.

[ She seems cautious for a minute or two before sighing again and giving a sad smile to chaos as if she's apologizing to him. ]

I am sorry. I broke the promise I made to you. I allowed myself to be overcome by my shadows. I tried not to, but after you... After you died, I did not know what else to do.

[chaos, meanwhile, will just try to put a hand on Sertoria's shoulder to calm her down, smiling kindly all the while.]

I am glad to hear that. And it is alright. You did your best..that is all I could ask. However, I am sorry that you had to find me in that state. Thank you for being there, Sertoria.

[ Sertoria's hand rests on top of his own, a gentle smile crossing her face. ]

It is okay, chaos. You were suffering and I wanted to help you out. You have been nothing but kind to me, and for that, I appreciate it like you would not believe.

Thank you for being my friend.

[While the contact and words were nice, chaos simply kept on smiling and nodded at them.]

You are welcome. I too, enjoy being your friend and while kindness may be relative, you have been quite kind to me. I am merely sorry that I could not be there to help you when you were suffering as I was.

[ A shuddering sigh and a breath escapes her for a moment before her smile lessened. She takes a cautious look around the room, lowering her voice so no one else can hear her but him. Her grip tightens on his hand slightly, but not too strong. ]

It... I wish I could say it is okay. You were not the only person to die in my arms. Both Doc and Labrys suffered the same fate, so with all of you gone, I could not remain strong.

That is why I am sorry I broke my promise to you because I gave up the will to live.

[At that, chaos sighed inwardly, and while his smile grew sad, it stayed on, and his voice too, because quiet.]

Sertoria..I am truly sorry for what happened during those times. I am sure that it must have been tragic. However, it is alright. I do not think that many people would be able to stand up to those shadows, whether they had a strong will or not.

[ Sertoria's sure her smile is a fake one regardless, but at this point, she could care less. ]

...So, you do not resent me for giving up like I did. Please do not be sorry, though. It is not your fault that the administrators decided to tamper with our loved ones' memories, chaos.

[ She hesitates for a moment and gives the other a hug. She's okay now... As long as her friends are okay, she'll be okay. ]

[Even if it was, chaos wouldn't call her out on it. He wasn't the sort of person that would do so. However, as Sertoria pulled him into a hug, his smile became a little less sad as he returned it.]

I do not. After all, you did not kill yourself, Sertoria. It is normal for most people to give up every now and then. However..I do not know if the Administrators had anything to do with the shadows, and..it seems like their emotions were tampered with.

[Their memories? Not so much, in his opinion.]

[ It is what chaos says first that brings a true smile out of Sertoria. Her hug grows tighter on him, almost as if she's protective over him. After all, he's helped her out so much here. The least she can do is to keep him safe here. ]

...Thank you. That means more to me than you realize. However, I agree with you there. Joshua nor Drusilla would say those things to me, even if they were forced. I am sure the same could be said for your own shadows.

[Not that chaos minded the tighter hug. After all, he was much stronger than he looked. As he spoke, he rubbed her back in an attempt to make her feel better.]

You are welcome. Whatever Joshua or Drusilla said to you, I am sure that they would not normally say those things. I am not sure that all of my shadows would not say or do what they did..but I am sure that a few would not have said the things that they did.

[ Sertoria dares to rest her head on his shoulder, feeling calmer already. She may have been overreacting and she doesn't quite know why, but this feels right to do. ]

Mmm... Oh, um, so you may feel comforted by this, but I took it upon myself to allow you to have a nice rest by placing you in my bed with my cloak. I...hope you do not mind.

[Not that chaos minded or thought that she was overreacting. The contact felt nice, especially with a good friend. He simply moved his head a little so that she could have more space on his shoulder and kept rubbing her back.]

I do not mind at all, Sertoria. If I remember correctly, that cloak was a gift from Joshua. Thank you for letting me rest with something so important to you.

[ Sertoria grins, deciding it was safe enough to close her eyes while resting her head. She is still acutely aware of what's going on. ]

He wanted me to have it after he passed. It has protected me, so I thought it could protect you, too. So, do not mention it, chaos. You... mean a lot to me.

[It seemed safe enough for Sertoria to rest like this if she wanted to. chaos was holding onto her, and there was no way he was going to let her come to harm right now, and the other drinkers here probably weren't going to stand for any fights either.

...But that last sentence made him pause for a moment before replying with a bittersweet smile.]

I am glad to hear that what he gave you has protected you for quite some time. I must mean a great deal to you if you were willing to pass that protection onto me. If you do not mind my asking..and you may ignore me if you wish, but how highly do you view me?

[ Sure enough, the android has pretty much gone limp in chaos' embrace. It's strange, but she feels like she could cast all her worries away right now and it'd be fine. She'd be okay and it's thanks to chaos, as well as her friends. ]

You do, chaos. You... mean a lot to me. And, well, to answer your question...

[ She grips his shirt in her hands slightly, tensing up a little. ]

I view you very highly, chaos. You have helped me a great deal and I would do anything to protect you. You... well, I--

[ She cuts herself off, shaking her head, unsure of how to proceed. ]

[Not that chaos minded. It was good that she could feel this relaxed in a hug, and he was glad that he and others were able to help her in that regard. It felt like holding a kitten, in some way. However, he felt that tensing up as she spoke, and he could easily put together what she was trying to say.]

I am glad to hear that, Sertoria. And I could be wrong..but are you trying to say that you love me, and not as a family member or a friend?

[chaos just patted her back again as she shook her head, his bittersweet smile become a bit less bitter.]

[ It was strange to Sertoria. Normally, she wouldn't allow herself to get this extremely close to someone. After all, it'd only hurt when she'd have to say goodbye to them. And yet... she believes she can see her friends after this.

However, at chaos' question, she'll let out a loud squeak and spring up, looking completely embarrassed by his question. ]

...I-I... chaos!

[ She's not denying it, though. ]

[While chaos had no problems with others opening up to him, he usually didn't open up much about himself, as it was too painful. Sure, he had no problems with getting involved with someone romantically..but having the people he cared about die in front or around him hurt, even if he could sense their souls in a different shell again. However, with Animus's deadline, none of that probably mattered here.

Mary was the person that would always be closest to him..but that did not mean that Sertoria wasn't close either, and at that reaction, he let loose a genuine smile and tried to pat Sertoria on the shoulder. He'd also chuckle a little. That reaction was rather endearing, even if Sertoria was perplexed by all of this.]

Yes? Am I right?

[ Sertoria's very careful about opening up to people, since she knows trust can be abused. She never had anyone to really call her own, and yet... she always felt confused about romance and everything else relating to it. Then again, she never really had a chance to develop the emotions so she could better understand them.

Joshua would always be her number one, no doubt about it. However, she was not opposed to try something with chaos. At his laughter, she pouted and pulled a displeased face at him. ]

Do not laugh at me, chaos. That is very rude.

[ She turns her head away as if to show her displeasure before a grin crosses her face again. ]

...You are right, though.

[It can be..but, thankfully, chaos wouldn't abuse it. Since she was developing these feelings, he-and her friends-would be more than happy to help her understand them and develop them even more, if she wished.

For the moment though, chaos stopped laughing and suppressed any more urges he had to chuckle. However, at that grin and confirmation, chaos's smile actually grew a little.]

I am sorry. Your reaction was so endearing that I could not help myself. However..I am happy to hear that. If you wish, I shall be more than happy to accept your feelings..and return them.

[ In which, Sertoria appreciated the fact that chaos wouldn't freely abuse something like this. She felt like she could open up more and more to people and that she could prove once and for all to her creators that she was human.

It's hard to be mad at chaos like this, especially when she wants to protect his smile. Damn it, why did he make it so hard? She decides to chuckle before turning her attention fully back to him.

...Only after muttering the word "jerk" to him. ]

You...would? Oh, chaos, I am delighted to hear that!

[ She happily embraces him after that, thinking that's what one was supposed to do. But, now what was she supposed to do from here on out? Any information she had on love was surprisingly absent from her database. ]

[Not that chaos would think she had more to prove to them, at this point..but if he could help her in that area as well, he would be happy. Sadly, chaos made it hard because he kept most of his heart under lock and key. Even now, he didn't like revealing things about himself..but, perhaps, it would pay to be honest here, since she had been honest with him.

Not now though. Right now was a time of joy, and chaos didn't want to wreck it yet unless he had to, so he just happily embraced Sertoria back and patted her on the back.]

And I am happy to hear that you love this old jerk!

[He really was, even though he was teasing again.]

[ Either way, it was strengthening her resolve. She would try to change her creators' way of thinking, no matter what. Sertoria was very curious about his past, but hasn't asked because she respects him. After all, who did she have to tell?

But, that was for another time. Now, it was to focus on the joy she felt surging in her chest. ]

Oh, so you admit it now! Whatever am I going to do with you, my old jerk?

[ It's okay. Being around him has influenced her ability to joke around a lot more than she did.

Look what you did, chaos. ]

[In chaos's mind, she had everyone and anyone to tell, if she wished. His old fears of the past hadn't been wiped away here, just like Sertoria's resolve hadn't been broken.

But yes, that was for another time. Now, it was time to laugh, be merry, and think that one should not have said something earlier.]

Ah, but I did not tell you how old I was, now did I? However, as for things to do, you could stay by this jerks side for as long as you like.

[chaos is quite proud of what he has accomplished here. It's always nice to have people that one can joke with. However, it was also nice to have people one could be sweet with.]

[ She wouldn't dare to. Once someone entrusts her with a secret, it would be a trying battle to even pry it out of her, no matter the physical, mental, emotional or spiritual costs to her. ]

I could tell you were older than a human adult, chaos. One does not simply have the sort of wisdom you do at that age, after all. Though, I think I will. That is, if you would like to have this old bucket of bolts near you.

[ She grins after that, unable to help her chuckle. She feels reinvigorated after getting things out in the open. Maybe love wasn't so confusing after all... ]

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